Brooklynns POV:

I noticed hanging out with Nate he would bury himself into a notebook, I had no idea what he was doing but I started to write a diary about all my feelings for everyone and everything, I started one on one therapy along with Nate, I was at my aunts house writing in my diary when I heard a knock on my bedroom door,

"Come in!"

I yell without looking up from my diary, I had one headphone in my ear the other one hanging, Eminem rapping in my ear, music helped me a bit, I also started an anonymous YouTube account where I recorded only my voice, I sang about all the things that happened to me, I had about 1,000 subscribers now, everyone wanted me to reveal my face but I said no, then they just suggested certain songs for me to do covers of, so I did. My aunt smiled as I looked up,

"Nate's on his way to get you, he said you weren't answering your phone so he called me."

"Yeah, my phones still on silent I forgot to turn the volume back up, I'll get ready and come down," I smile at my aunt weakly.

She never pushed me, she knew I was trying to overcome a lot of demons, I put my diary down as my aunt left my room, I got off my bed and went to my closet and picked out an outfit,

I grabbed my cell, turning the volume up and seeing all the missed calls and texts from Nate, I didn't bother to read them but I opened them up, I grabbed my wallet and slipped it into my pocket then headed downstairs to the kitchen. I grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge and sat up on the island, one of my favorite places to sit in the house, my aunt laughed one night when she came home to me and Keisha dancing on it to Eminem, we recorded it and put it on YouTube. We got a lot of comments and likes on it, mostly from guys, Eminem even commented on it saying we were funny and should do a blog, he even messaged me privately and gave me his personal cell number so when he's in town again he could give me some concert tickets on him, everything was slowly and when I say I mean slowly getting better, I wanted to trust Nate so badly because he was always there and he was my best guy friend, but I lost my trust when I got raped, my therapist said in time I'll learn to trust again, in the meantime she told me to keep taking baby steps and my PTSD will get a little better. My aunt let our pit bull puppy Bear outside into our backyard, he ran towards the pool but then diverted to the right and went for his tennis ball instead, I faced the back door to watch him, he was my little buddy, slept with me and we go on long walks and we even go to the beach and walk together, he was like a therapy dog for me. About 10 minutes later the doorbell rang, I jumped down from the island and jogged to the front door yelling,

"Coming!"

I opened it and there was my best friend Nate, he was officially 18! I embraced him in a hug and said,

"Happy birthday!"

He smiled at me and gently kissed me on the cheek causing me to flinch, but he brushed it off, he knew it wasn't him. He was being so brave and nice through this when most guys would have ran away by now.

"Thank you B! You ready to go?" Nate asked smiling at me and stepping into my house as my puppy ran towards him.

Nate bent down to pet him as he jumped on him licking his face, my puppy loved Nate a lot, I smile at them and reply back,

"You're welcome and yes I'm ready."

He stands up from petting Bear and waves to my aunt,

"Bye Morgan! I'll keep her safe she may or may not come home tonight."

My aunt smiled at Nate, she loves him a lot, "Okay you guys have fun and happy birthday Nate!"

"Thank you Morgan," he says to my aunt then turns to me.

I grab my keys and follow Nate out my front door, I close the door after saying goodbye to Bear and follow Nate to his car, we get in and he starts it and heads for the place we rented out for the day, Keisha had my present for Nate and was bringing it with her when she came I texted her on the ride over,

Hey! We're on our way! Don't forget the gifts!

Wouldn't dream of it babe! See you soon! I'm already here and it's all set up 😘

Awesome!!!! 😘😘

I looked out the window getting lost in my thoughts, we arrived shortly after and got out and went inside.

We partied, had cake, Nate opened his gifts which he loved and then by 9pm Nate said he had something he needed to show me, he took my hand gently and had me follow him as he grabbed his notebook, we sat on some rocks as he opened it up, using the street lights as his light, he began to sing and I was taken a back,

"Hook:]
There she goes
She's so beautiful
She's so beautiful, yeah
But she's so broke
She's so incredible
Wonder if she'll ever know

Yeah, Oh she lays in her bedroom
And she cries
Yeah she cries (whoa whoa)
And she feels depressed
Just fall from her eyes
From her eyes (whoa whoa)
All she wants is love
But she never finds it in herself (whoa whoa)
And she just feels broken
I can feel that she's hopeless looking for help (whoa whoa)

[Hook:]
There she goes
She's so beautiful
She's so beautiful
But she's so broke (whoa whoa)
She's so incredible
I wonder if she'll ever know (whoa whoa)

She gets attention from every direction
But she doesn't care (whoa whoa)
She prays for protection
Scared of rejection
Is anyone there? (whoa whoa)
She used to laugh
But now she's crying
Sick of the pain (whoa whoa)
She puts on a mask
Pretends, and she acts like she's okay (whoa whoa)

[Hook:]
And there she goes
She's so beautiful
She's so beautiful
But she's so broke (whoa whoa)
She's so incredible
I wonder if she'll ever know (whoa whoa)

There she goes again putting on that fake act
Hard to see the real her when she she got that fake mask
Daddy left it, he ain't never came back
Tears of rebuttal, she would never say that
She wants love, but don't know where to get it from
It's hard to learn respect from a man that never gave her none
So she cries and she yelling in the mirror
Is anybody out there? Does anybody care?
And people think they know her, but they don't really have a clue
Working three jobs, yeah she's doing what she have to do
Getting stressed out, and boys say she's beautiful
But that don't really mean a thing if she don't believe it though
Insecurity starting to take over
She looking for warmness, but keeps getting colder
Yeah, I know ya tripping on your looks and such
But stop looking at the world, and start looking up
God made you beautiful

[Hook:]
And there she goes
She's so beautiful
She's so beautiful
But she's so broke (whoa whoa)
She's so incredible
I wonder if she'll ever know (whoa whoa)"

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I began to cry after he finished speechless, because this song described me down to the last lyric, Nate's words sat with me as I realized he always dreamed of being a rapper and he had started handing his mixtapes out about a month ago, this is what that notebook was, I got up and wrapped my arms around Nate as he pulled me into his lap and embraced me into his arms, wiping my tears away,

"I notice a lot of things Brooklyn and I'm proud of all your trying to get through."

"Thank you," I said smiling slightly at Nate.

Our eyes lock, and he leans in slowly our lips meeting for the first time in 2 years, I kiss him back, fighting the demons that screamed, no one loves you your trash.

I spent the night at Nate's and that's the first time in two years that I let him sleep next to me again. He wrapped his arms around me and he slept peacefully.

A/n alright readers!!! Comment vote and share if you're enjoying this, I nearly cried writing the part where he sings to her, I'm a sappy person, I'm also a very passionate writer.