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Knock knock ...

He squinted his eyes open them ... Disturbed with the knock on the door ...

He was sitting on the floor only laying his head on the bed ... His eyes were red puffy and swollen ... Her hand resting on her picture frame ... As a sudden glimpse of last night came flashing in his mind ...

A tear rolled down his eyes ... The tear of pain ... His insecurities ruined everything ... It ruined his life ... His perfect life which had every thing ...

Love ... happiness... Trust ... Trust ? ...

It was ... But now it is not ... He did ... He did trusted her but somewhere his insecurities were more than his trust on her ...

Because only love in a relationship is not enough ... A relationship needs trust ...

Trust is what which is needed in every relationship

If there's not trust than no way a relation can survive ...

He was impulsive ... Insecure ... Jealous hurt anger ... There is a lot he had suppressed just inside him

Which brutally effected him a lot ...

His thoughts were again disturbed by the knock

This time the person outside banged the door loudly groaning in frustration he got up

Without seeing anything he walked barefooted as the peices of the vase peirced his foot ... Still he didn't cared

His heart is giving him more pain then anything else in this world ...

As soon as he opened the door ... His eyes turned darker ... His hands were fisted ... His mouth clenched as he roared holding the person by coller ...

Ab kyu aaya hai tu yaha ? ... He roared like a bruised lion ... Making the person flinch and tremble but still he didnt moved his eyes away from him ...

Meri zindgi barbaad karne ke baad bhi tujhe chain nhi hai ? ... He gritted his teeths ...

Looking dangerously at the person ...

I pity you sidharth.... He said .... Making him more angry ...

What the fuck did you just said ? ... Repeat again ... And i dare you will not be able to stand on your legs for days ... He gritted his teeths looking at him with immense hatred

The person chuckled again ...

Taras aata hai tum par ... Kaisa pyaar hai tera ? .... Kaisa pyaar hai ye ? ... Jo tujhe apne pyaar hi Bharosa nhi hai ... He chuckled bitterly ... Removing his hands from his collers ....

Itna khokla pyaar ? ... Itna khokhla ? ... Sorry mr. Par wo ladki ... Kisi galat insaan se itni mohobbat kar bethi ...

Sahi hai ... Chali gyi wo ... Main toh chahunga ki us duniya se bhi ... Before he could speak sidharth punched him on his cheek ...

How dare you say that ? ... Who the hell just let this filthy person enter iny home ... He yelled ... But no one came ...

Kal bhaag gya tha main ... Kyuki dar gya tha ... Par ajj nhi ...unhe tumhe koi saboot nhi dena ... Jab tumhe apni mohobbat par aitbaar nhi toh mujhpar kya hoga ...

But i must say sidharth .... Tu is duniya ka sabse badkismat insan hai ... Jisne ek aisi ladki ko tod kar rakh diya jisme sirf tujhse mohobbat ki

Kaise .... Varun whispered he too had the painful tears in his eyes as if he could sense the pain she felt when he blamed her accused her

Broke her ... He didn't just broke her .. but killed his own love with his own hands ...

Puri duniya ko uska pyaar dikha phir tujhe kaise nhi dikha ? .... He held sidharth from his shoulders ... Who kept looking at Varun like a lost child ...

Khair in sab baaton ka koi fayda nhi ... Kyuki jaa chuki hai wo ... Tujhse bohot door ... Or main chahunga ke wo ab tujhe kabhi wpasa na mile ... He whispered as the tear streamed down his eyes ... No wonder he had met the little girl some while ago ... But he had always cared for her like his own sister ...

Par ek baat batana chahunga ... Behen jaisi thi wo meri ? ... He whispered his eyes held honesty which made his soul shiver ...

Agar abhi bhi bharosa nhi toh dekh isse ... He impulsively took out his wallet opening he showed a pic of a girl ...

Fiance hai meri ... Shaadi hone wali hai ... Phir kaise ... Chi ...

You know what ... You deserved this only ... Tu uska pyaar deserve karta hi nhi ... Pagal hai wo ... Pagal ... Tere liye ... Deewano ki tarah chaaha hai usne tujhe ... Meeera ki tarah Pooja hai tujhe ...

Ishq kiya ... Par tu ... Tu usse samajh nhi paya ... The tears of guilt streamed down his eyes as he stood numb ... Varun left from his place ...

He didn't wanted to see sidharth again ... Even left his company ...

Sidharth stood there ... Reminsing the painful words he said to her ...

Where as she stood numb ... He broke her again ...

Jo ek baar ho wo galti
Or jo baar baar ho wo gunah hota hai

Maine ... Ye maine kya kar diya ? ...asked his own self ... Fell down on his knees as the drop of guilty tear rushed down his eyes ...

He felt suffocated .... Suffocated of his own self ... This is the moment where he just wanted to kill himself nothing else he did wanted ...

In his jealousy... His insecurity.

He imagined a fucking scenario in his mind nad believed that for god's sake ...

Where is love now ?.... Kaha gya wo pyaar ? ... Wo waade ... Wo kasme ... Sab jhoot tha ... His heart spoke ...

He was feeling it was difficult to breath ...

His breaths were higher head spinning ... UNBEARABLE pain rushed up in his chest as he rubbed the area ...

In next moment he knows he was having a panic attack ... He didn't knew what to do ... His mind was numb ... Only one thing that came in his mind is ...

Naaz ... His naaz ...

Naaz ... Kaha hai ... Nhi ... I won't let you go .... Tum ... Mujhe ... Chorh kar nhi ... You won't leave me na ? ... Maaf mat karna naaz ... Saza dena ... Maaf mat karna ... Par ..mujhe chorh kar mat jaana ... Desperately goes in search for her ....

He tried finding her everywhere ...

But she was no where .....

That's where he lost .... He lost the sidharth

He lost himself in finding her ... He lost his own self today ... Because.... She was his soul .... No wonder how much his love was ... But at the end ... His insecurities won over his love

Kaisa pyaar hai ye ? ... Kaisa saath hai ye ? ...

Na bharosa kiya tumne ... Na moka Diya tumne ...

Kareeb aaye ... Or ek pal main paraya kar diya ...

Jo jataya jaye ... Wo pyaar nhi ... Jo bataya Jaye wo pyaar nhi ... Jo zabardasti ho wo pyaar nhi ..

His heart spoke for the last time ... Before his all emotions ended up right here ...

She had gone away ... But took his heart his soul ... With her ...

Now ... He is just living ... Lifeless ... Trying to find her .... Working ...

Even his mother ... His sister ... His brother left him after knowing what he did ...

The guilt eaten him from inside ... Killed him .. how much he pretends to be so strong but only he knows how lonely he is ... How much he misses his naaz ...

It's been 4 years ... Years of being away from her ....

He torchered himself ... Once there was ... When he just lost ... Lost from the life ... He tried ... 💔 (I can't 💔 i am shivering writing this 💔)

He tried ... Killing him ... There's is nothing left in his life ... Just because of one sin ... He lost everything ... His family his love ...

4 years were not easy ... For him ... He had never forgiven himself punished himself in every way possible ...

Par ek ummed ne hamesha zinda rakha hai mujhe ... He whispered sitting in a dark room

The room.... Which witnessed his cries ... His vulnerability... His loneliness ....

Wo ummed ke ek din phir tum mujhe mil jao naaz ... Ke ek baar phir tum mujhe pukaro ...

Galti hogyi naaz ... Or kitne din for rahogi ? ... Main bohot akela hu naaz ... Bohot akela hu ... Bohot adhoora hu ... Tumhare bina ...

Maaf toh kar dogi na mujhe ? .... His voice choked it was that dreadful day when their relation broke into the peices .... The day when he lost her💔

Pyaas ka ye safar khatam ho jayega
Kuch adhoora sa jo tha

Poora ho jayega 💔

Poora ho jayega na naaz ? ... Hamari kahani poori hogi na ? ...

Hum dobara ... Hod voice choked ...

Hum dobara milenge na ? ... He whispered like a lost kid ... He had no one ... Everyone left him after the misfortune took place ...

Na wo mera bana
Na main iska raha

Ek sapna dikha wo bhi toot gya 💔

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Somewhere in chandigarh

Nazre bolein duniya tole
Dil ki zubaan

Hayeeee ... Dil ki zaban

A girl danced on the rhythm of the tunes with her ghungroo on her legs ... Her hair opened flying ... She was so lost in dancing didn't realise that her mother was standing on the door adoring her ...

Ishq mange Ishq chahe koi toofan

Hayee

Chalna aahiste ... Ishq Naya hai

Pehla ye wada ....Humne Kiya hai

As she singed along with the lyrics ... Her eyes gradually welled up ... With the lyrics as she felt that every words pierced her heart ...

O re Piya ...hayee
O re Piya ... Hayee
O re Piya ... Hayeee

Nange pairo pe angaro
Chalti rahi

Hayeee .... Chalti rahi

Lagta hai ke gairon main
Main palti rahi

Hayeee

Le chal waha Jo
Mulk tera hai

Zaalim zamana
Dushman mera hai

O re Piya hayee
O re Piya hayee

O re Piya hayee
O re Piya hayeee

She ended her dance as the drop of love tear fell from her eyes her mother immediately came wiping her tears lovingly ...

Kya hai ? ... Royi kyu ? ... Her mother asked ...

Aise hi maa ... Bas Aisa laga jaise in lyrics se bohot relate karti hu main ...

Par koi na pammi ... Teri Sana vi na badi Sher hai ... In sab choti moti cheezo par nhi roti acha chlo mujhe practise karne do na ... Do din main mera dance competition hai ... The girl happily chirped pammi ji left her in the room....

Thanking the god for sending this angel in their life ..

Kaha hai Sana ? ... Sukh ji asked pammi ji ...

Ji aapki ladli bohot busy hai ... Usse kuch bhi karke bas ye competition jeetna hai ... Pammi ji sighed ...

Hmmm ... Aaj baith ... He taps the cahir near him ...

As soon as pammi ji sat there near him ... He whispered

Aisa lagta hai hame bhagwaan ne hamari Sana dobara dedi ... His eyes welled up ...

5 years back ... Both the couple had lost their young daughter ... In a car accident ...

Conincidentally her name is also Sana ...

Ji ... Pammi ji also smiled ...

Darta hu main pammi ... Agar kabhi hamari Sana ko yaad aagya ... Ki wo kon thi ... Phir wo hame chorh kar chali jayegi na ? ...

He asked ...

Nhi jayegi ... Hum usse itna pyaar denge wo jaa hi nhi payegi ...

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Flashback to that night

Naaz was laying down on the road in the pool of blood ...

Unconscious her head in covered with blood ... Her hand had various cuts ... And bruises ...

When pammi ji and Sikh hi were going through that way they spotted Sana ...

Immediately taken her to hospital thank fully she survived ... But lost her memory ...

Maybe it was actually good for her ... She just wished to forget everything

Even him ...

Even after forgetting everything ... Her heart still yearns for him ...

Pammi ji and sukh ji accepted Sana as their own daughter ... And pampered her alot just like they treated their own daughter ...

They even name shehnaaz as Sana ... Not knowing that it was also her name before ...

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Pata nhi aisa kyu hai ... She whispered fascinated sitting on the floor ...

Aise lagta hai jaise kuch hai ... Yaha ... She points at her own heart ...

Jo mujhe nhi pata ... Pata nhi kya ehsaas hai jo mujhe har waqt hota hai ...

Par ye ehsaas kya hai mujhe nhi pata ...

Kuch nhi pata ... Bas itna pata hai .. ki mera dil mere kabu main nhi ... Sana whispered keeping her hand on her heart ...

And closed her eyes letting her feelings engulf her ... Though she don't remember him ...

She didn't met him .... She forgot him ... But still she can feel him ... In her ... Near her ...

Maybe that's what her love is which still holds the power to make her realise that she is in love ....

Pata nhi kya ye ehsaas hai
Phir bhi kuch toh khaas hai

Lagta hai jaise tu paas hai ...
Par kon hai tu ... Mujhe nhi pata ...

Shayad Mera dil jaanta hai kon hai tu

She whispered.... It's been four years her heart is yearning to see that one person ... To hear that one person but whome ? ...

She doesn't know ...

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I hope i made you all feel all the emotions i felt while writing ... Sachi batau toh it was the difficult part to write ... Nhi ho raha tha ... Likha hi nhi jaa raha tha .. pata nhi ...

Last night I was crying and writing this ... Aisa lag raha tha jaise ye sab mere saamne ho raha hai ...

I am still shivering though ... Maine bohot jyada emotions invest kar diye hai is part main ... Ufff ...

I hope you all liked it ... And i am waiting to see your response love ❤️

Batana zaroor kaisa laga ❤️