I keep promising you I will stay by you forever

But I need your help if you want me to stay together

I have to be strong, I can't burst out into tears

Because it takes all the strength in the world to be able to erase the years

I am trying to ignore the fact that I still love you

But my God, you have no clue

The way I suffer here when you blotch me out

The way I die a little when I wake up in a shout

I dreamed of you again

I need to stop destroying myself, no room left to pretend

I can't live with the guilt, I can't understand this shame

How everyday I cut my legs wondering if you feel the same

I fought for lives an lost them all

How could you like someone who lets everyone fall?

My touch disgusted you, didn't it?

I want to walk alone where the fire is lit

Real life is getting difficult to swallow

None of you can promise me tomorrow

You were my reason for existing

You were the only in enlisting

The world is better off without me trying to change

I live for these people you may find strange

But when you show them your heart and they eat it away...

Is there anything left for me to say?

So what, you wrote a story about me so that you can show it?

But when was love actually directed at me, can I know it?!

I hold back all my words!

So I don't see you hurt!

See, we get like this and you start hurting yourself again

But maybe you can find a solid meaning, friend

These voices in my head used to be so mute when you were around

But now we are grown up and this is the only sound

I am growing another way, you can grow yours

It's okay, just mean you won't see my blood stains smeared across the floors...