I was the girl who never followed the sun because I always belonged to the moon

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Lakshman nodded his head understanding her point as well. She was a loving and caring wife for his grandson. He realized how perfect she was for him. If he would've been the one finding a wife for Randhir, he would've searched for these qualities only in her.

She let out a deep breath after completing her long speech when her eyes fall on the door. She looked at him with guilt as he stood there with crossed arms staring back at her with a hard glint in his eyes. She stood up from her place her bangles making a melodious voice trying to make him understand her point but he just showed him his palm silently telling her to shut up. She gulped as Lakshman looked at Avyukt who was sleeping on his stomach.

"Can I take him with me for the night?", Lakshman asked realizing how the couple needed time to talk.

"You don't have to trouble..", Kimaya was saying when he picked Avyukt up.

"There is no trouble in this. I want to spend some time with the new member of our family", he spoke before moving out of the room. 

Randhir entered the room after five minutes making her feel scared. She was feeling the same aggressive aura surrounding him which surrounded him years ago when they got married.

"I can explain", she spoke looking at him with guilt visible in her eyes. He just shook his head at her taking small yet predatory steps towards her.

"You are not understanding. I just don't want you to suffer", she spoke taking a step back stumbling with the bed sitting on it when she slipped. She looked up to find him closer to her disappointment and anger clear in his eyes.

"I told you already, Maya. What you are for me but you chose to play with my emotions? It shows how much you don't respect my feelings. How you are making fun of them? For the first time in my life I opened up about my feelings towards somebody but you chose to crush them", he spoke making her shake her head.

"I didn't make fun of anything", she tried to make him understand as he held her hair pulling them harshly making her shout only for his grip to loosen.

"This is what I hate. I shouldn't have ever loved you. This fucking feeling makes me so weak. One scream from your mouth makes me so fucking damn weak", he shouted making her flinch.

"Randhir Ahlawat is not weak", he concluded as his hazel eyes started getting darker.

"I gave you time. Time to accept me back but you want me to treat you the way I promised you initially right? That you will only have a small role in my life. Warming my bed and taking care of my kids. No more freedom", he spoke a matter of fact making her eyes wide as she couldn't see even a small amount of the person who cared for her these months.

It was the same man whom she married who only cared about his business and family who only cared for her because she was his wife and his responsibility not because of his feelings.

"NO", she whispered shaking her head.

"You wanted me to make distance from you then I'll make sure this distance prevails that I don't feel any single thing about you, that you remain my responsibility throughout my life nothing more than that. A mistake I committed in the initial stage of our marriage was loving you would be taken care of now", he concluded taking a few steps back withdrawing his hand away from her scalp when she held his hand as a tear trickled down her cheek.

"Please don't say this", She pleaded.

"You've not left any other way for me, Kimaya. I can't hurt you. That would be a disrespect of my love. I don't have any right on you anymore", he spoke as she shook her head again trying to hold his other hand which he withdrew before she could touch him. She looked at him with hurt clearly visible in her eyes.

She took a few steps towards him putting her hand on his chest making him look at her who was denying to look at her face.

"Please don't move your eyes from me. At least hear my point. I told you I love you", she tried to make him understand as his eyes finally looked in her teary ones.

"I don't believe you anymore", he spoke breaking her delicate heart more.

"You wanted this distance between us then I am doing exactly what you want", he mocked making her shake her head. She traced her finger on his bearded cheek not liking how distant he seemed at the moment.

"Please, I am sorry. I just don't want you to suffer because of me. I want to be your strength but all I ever have been your weakness. I just don't want to be a burden on you", she spoke not liking how he was withdrawing from her touches constantly.

"I am leaving", he stated taking a step back which made her stand in front of him shaking his head with teary eyes putting her arms around his neck hugging him tightly. He tried to make her lose her grip around him which made a sob escape her mouth.

"I am so sorry. You know how much you mean to me. I just don't want any wrong thing to happen to you because of me. I just want your safety", she spoke feeling more broken when he didn't wrap his arms around her.

"Please...", she pleaded pulling away staring at his face with hope.

"Leave me, Kimaya", he again stated not looking at her. She shook her head not wanting to let go of him. Her heart was scared that if she left him today, she won't ever get back the same Randhir. 

She pulled away slightly looking at him with her teary and red face. His eyes didn't move away from her face this time.

"I know I am stupid. I don't do things after a deep analysis like you. I know I am nothing in decision-making when I am compared to you but that is the point you are a businessman. You got your upbringing in such a way that you know what advantage you would have from a deal and what disadvantages you could face once you are in it. I on the other hand only want my family to be happy. It doesn't matter if I stay with them or not. I don't know if it is right or not but I don't want to be selfish and keep you all to myself", she cried but he didn't answer.

She took a deep breath holding his shoulder this time.

"If you think I am wrong then you shout at me or scold me. You say you don't have any right on me, do you think it is right", she asked making him laugh humorlessly when his hands made contact with her bare waist pulling her closer to him.

"I let my anger take control over me only once in front of you and I ended up slapping you which I am regretting till this date", he spoke his face inches away from her.

"It's been more than a year, Kimaya since you started maintaining distance between us. Do you remember when we both were close without worrying about the world? Do you remember when you came in my arms wanting to let go of your stress?", he asked. His fiery eyes looking in her teary ones which were scared at the moment.

"I am sorry", she again spoke looking down as more tears escaped her eyes.

"I don't know what I will do without you", she whispered in a broken voice. He could feel her skin burning at the moment and he knew she was taking too much stress. He pulled her in his arms caressing her back trying to calm her. No matter how much angry he would get with her but her health came first for him.

"I am sorry. Please don't get angry with me. I just wanted good for you and Avyukt. I know I overdid but I don't know what else to do", she sobbed wrapping her arms tightly around him as if her life depended on it.

"Shh... It's okay", he tried to calm her seeing her almost getting a panic attack. He could feel her shivering in his arms which made him pick her up moving to the bed as she continued hiding her face in his chest.

He made her sit on the bed before removing the hair strands sticking on her face as she sobbed.

"Enough now", he ordered strictly wiping her tears away as she sniffed.

"I'll get Yukt", he spoke standing up from the bed when she held his hand.

"I know I troubled you a lot. I am willing to pay for the time we lost", she spoke looking at him not wanting him to leave like this leaving their conversation hanging in between.

"We can't do anything, Kimaya. A long time has part", he spoke which made her tug on his wrist again.

"Please don't call me, Kimaya. Are you still angry with me?", she asked but he didn't say anything.

"I know I did wrong and I am ready for any punishment except you acting like a stranger with me", she said before sitting on her knees reaching till his shoulder. She cupped his jaw.

"It took us a long time to reach this closer to each other. I don't have the energy to start from the beginning", she spoke.

"Kimaya, I need to get Yukt. You can't sleep without him remember", he mocked her saying the same words she told him when he wanted to come closer to her making her narrow her eyes at him.

"He is with his grandfather", she told him making him nod his head now coming in a playful mood.

"What do you want?", he asked her making her glare at him before pushing him away.

"You have still not forgiven me. All you are doing is mocking me still calling me Kimaya", she shook his head sitting on the bed with crossed arms getting irritated.

"Now, Maya just imagine how much you irritated me", he spoke making her look at him.

"This is taking a whole different turn. One moment I thought I would lose you and now you are teasing me", she spoke still in a daze with whatever happened.

"Were you planning to rape me?", he asked making her glare at him.

"If you were planning to do that, I would complain to police", he mocked again making her hit him with the pillow.

"You think it was easy for me. If you think that way then you are an idiot. It was more difficult for me", she spoke still hitting him with the pillow only for him to pull her towards him ending up on top of him.

"I have not yet forgiven you", he spoke seriously making her stare at him with guilt.

"I can understand", she spoke timidly only for him to pull her under him.

"I want my share of love today only", he spoke as his eyes started getting darker. She looked at him with shock but the intimidating look on his face made her gulp. It's been so long since she saw that look on his face. She caressed his jaw looking at him with the same intensity.

He moved closer to her kissing her forehead making her close her eyes. But his next move made her eyes wide. She felt his hand wrapping around her throat. She stared at him silently asking him what he was doing.

"You said I can punish you for what you did. I can't let you go after making my life hell for this long", he whispered huskily close to her face before taking her lips in his in an urgent kiss holding her wrist above her face not wanting any intrusion anymore.

He was still angry but controlled himself because of her health. But this way was what he was going to take to calm his inner demon.

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