My burning heart demanded the tranquility that only she could bestow 

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She wanted to get rid of the heat collected in her body and the only way she could think was to go outside and enjoy the cold winds hitting her skin. She opened the door keeping the balcony close to her reach. She stepped out as the cold winter winds hit her sensitive skin but her body was numb.

She walked to the cold glass railing which seemed as if it was made of thin sheet of ice because of the snow around. She took a deep breathe as her tears started drying up. Her heart was also getting numb from the pain. She felt dying was easier than this pain for lifetime but she wasn't really a loser. She wanted to fight back till her last breathe.

She heard banging on the door but she chose to ignore it not because she wanted to but because her body was giving up the strength to move around. There was shiver in her body which she chose to ignore. The thin fabric of saree doing no good to her as well. 

A small sad smile covered her lips as she thought about her life. God did sat for a long time while writing her fate. He added so much pain yet so much power in her to withstand the pain.

She sighed pushing her open hair back. 

Her eyes widened as a grip around her waist pulled her inside and immediately the door was closed. 

She stared at him in shock. His eyes were red in anger as she glared deadly at her making her gulp.

"If you want to die that badly, do it when you go back to your place. Don't put the blame on my head", he said coldly. She won't deny she felt hurt when he said those words. She thought he cared.

His eyes continued to stare back in hers and only thing he could see was hurt. He knew this was not the way to control this situation.

"Ask what is going on in your mind?", he spoke with a sigh. Her eyes hardened at his words.

"I don't want to ask anything?", she said wanting to leave the room immediately. He held her wrist not letting her leave not right now. They had things to discuss right now.

"Mr. Ahlawat, I am not myself right now. I don't want to say something which I would regret later", she gritted her teeth looking at the floor. He stared down at her face.

"Is it only because I came late?", he asked after taking a deep breath to control his anger.

"Late? No you didn't come late? 3 hours... My whole day revolved around you. I cooked for you than got ready for you and you ask me is this only because of you being late. I thought may be yes I was the one who was being difficult. I was the one who was not letting this marriage work. But you know what it is you. Simply you who just want to have physical pleasures from me and control on my life. This is what you always wanted in your life. You know what its enough. I am not going to expect anything from you. This was the last time", she spoke angrily glaring with angry tears forming in her eyes.

"I already told you I forgot to see the time", he spoke simply looking in her eyes with a hard look.

"Alright if you want me to go there I would. I am not scared of you and better you know this before. The place where you were was there a girl", she asked him looking back in his eyes. He gritted not getting why she was bringing the same topic again and again.

"This is purely nonsense. What kind of question is that?", he asked with a frown.

"Yes or no was there a girl?", she asked in a more hard voice. He narrowed his eyes at her before answering.

"Yes"

"Was she beautiful?", she asked back her eyes not leaving his face. His face morphed into disgust at her words.

"How would I know if she was beautiful or not? She was my business partner's daughter?", he spoke as she nodded.

"So she is a little girl", she asked as he looked the other way.

"No she is not a little girl but I have not seen her in that way. In fact, they asked me to have dinner with them and at that point I realized how much time passed away", he hissed coldly at her.

"Oh so she wanted to have food with you as well. So what more did they offer you? A warm house? A beautiful room to rest? A warm bed?", she asked looking deadly in his eyes as he gritted.

"And a beautiful girl", she ended in a mere whisper. He closed his eyes loosing his calm completely.

He held her upper arm in a tight grip before pushing her to the warm harshly making her wince.

"Enough is enough Kimaya. You have said enough. I have been silent taking your stupid shit from so long just because I was wrong here but it doesn't mean you are going to point a finger on my character. You think it is all fine. I didn't even say anything about that stupid friend of yours and still you gave your phone to me feeling bad that I was doubting you", he spoke growling in anger making her close her eyes in fear.

"Why shouldn't I go to some other woman when my wife is just pushing me away from her? Whose moods change like weather? You act like you trust me a moment and the next moment you are pointing fingers at me. You think you are always right but that is not the thing right now", he held his throat in a tight grip making her open her eyes.

"You pointed fingers at me just because I came late. My life don't really only revolve around you. I have the whole business to take care of. You are not the only person in my life. You are my responsibility not more than it", he growled at her before taking few steps away from her.

"Don't ever try meddling in my life again. I told you already I can only give you my loyalty stop expecting things from me", he told her lifting up her saree placing it on her shoulder before walking out of the room. She continued staring in space before following him.

She wanted to go back to her home but frowned when she found him walking down the stairs wearing his jacket.

"Where are you going?", she asked following him.

"I don't think I am answerable to you", he stated walking to the door. She held his wrist stopping him.

"What the hell is wrong with you? Have you seen the weather outside?", she asked in surprise.

"You must be known to that after all you were standing there enjoying the weather in this thin piece of cloth", he pointed at her clothes making her frown. He took a step towards the door.

She came in between him and the door.

"If you didn't want me to meddle in your life, you shouldn't have married. If you are married, you would have to answer to thousands of question. If I asked you something doesn't mean you are going to behave like this. At least I presented my thoughts infront of you instead of keeping them to myself and ruining our relationship more", she tried to explain. She could see the anger in his eyes.

The stubborn eldest son of Ahlawat family was aggressive as well. He didn't like to be questioned especially on his loyalty.

"Get away", he spoke flicking his fingers making her shake her head.

"The weather is bad outside. I can't let you out", she told him stubbornly. He nodded his head looking coldly at her.

"Make me stay here than", he stated making her frown.

"Make me do what you want", He repeated himself.

"I don't understand", she whispered registering the anger on his handsome face.

He wrapped his arms around her waist pulling her closer to him. His breath fanning her face sending shivers through her body.

"Than don't stop me", he told her with an expressionless face. She stared at him silently pleading him not to leave. The weather was absolutely not right for him to go out and how much she said that she hated him but the end of the day, she cared for him. He was her husband. She couldn't take the chance of losing him no matter how cruel he was to her.

She tried to think of any way when a thought crossed her mind.

When they first kissed, he was angry but after that he was surely affected. His anger did get affected.

She sighed staring in his eyes which were shining with pure anger. 

"I don't think its a good idea", she whispered near his lips before placing hers on top of him. He stood frozen on his place for a moment before he picked her up in his arms pulling her closer to him.

"You don't want this", he whispered on her lips as she stared at him with her eyes shining.

"I don't care if I have to do anything to make you stay today", she spoke as he stared at her deeply before walking upstairs. 

He kicked the door open to his room before entering inside and closing it with his feet. He placed her on the bed as she gulped.

"You aren't ready for all these things", he stated tracing her jaw lightly. She stared at him with droopy eyes.

"I would never be ready as well", she whispered softly waiting for his next movement.

"You make me loose my mind", he admitted in front of her playing with her fingers. She stared at him in guilt.

"I am sorry for everything I said. It's not about you, it's about your behavior which makes me do things like this. A simple sorry could've worked", she stated cupping his face in her hands knowing very well his anger would ruin them one day.

She needed to talk to him patiently. If she started being angry as well things are not going to work.

"I have never tried to come between you and your work. That is not something I would do willingly", she spoke looking in his eyes. Her eyes giving the prove of how much she meant those words.

"Never doubt my loyalty towards you", he whispered moving closer to her face as a small smile covered her lips. She caressed his cheeks covered with little stubble.

"I would try not to but than I would expect the same from you", she whispered. Her lips touching his as she spoke. He looked at her for one last time to calm his wild heart down. 

She blinked her eyes. Her heart was beating loudly. She could even hear them. She was nervous no matter what but she wasn't scared.

She once heard her grandmother say that a woman is having a power to make her man do anything she wants. She decided to ignore it but the way he was acting so cold and distant towards her, she knew she needed to do something.

Something which was morally wrong. She could never love him or that's what she wants to believe but she don't want to loose him as well. If he was stubborn, she was more than him.

She breathed deeply as his lips touched her. His hands cupped the back of her neck pulling her closer to him. She closed her eyes submitting herself in his arms with only one thought in her mind. She took few steps back it doesn't mean she lost the game. 

Sometimes letting your guards down could be better as well.

She opened her eyes when she didn't feel his lips on hers any longer.

"How much can I trust you?", he asked a very weird question which she wasn't expecting at all.

"Trust on what?", she asked in a low voice looking at him with a puzzled look. He traced his fingers on her cheek before tracing it through her neck to her cleavage making her gulp.

"Trust to be mine forever", He whispered staring back in her eyes with a powerful passion in his eyes. She licked her lower lip not knowing why this mere statement made her feel so weird and heavy.

"Mine to hurt, mine to love, mine to punish, mine in every way possible", he said in a low yet husky way. Her hand unconsciously held his arm. His words were deep having strong effect on hers. 

She wanted to deny with everything inside her but his eyes. His eyes were deep and hypnotizing which made her do something, she never expected herself doing.

She nodded her head lightly making an evil smile appear on his face as he dipped his face in her neck biting the thick mole on her neck making her eyes widen feeling the sensation of his lips on hers. Her hands fisted as she closed her eyes. 

She wanted to deny every single thing but it was like everything was pre-decided. She had no right to make a decision which itself made her irritated. 

She lifted her hands to push him away.

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Cliffhanger! Cliffhanger! Cliffhanger!

Alright It took so long for me to decide this chapter. 

If somebody is thinking that Kimaya is going weak, you need to think again. She is not a person to bend down easily. It's just her fear which is making her vulnerable at points.