"I want to move the date...just a few days. Maybe we should wait until he starts to look for him." After the incident yesterday evening Alec wanted to wait with the plan. He didn't want Magnus to be more in pain than he already was. "I'm the boss! What I say is what will happen. We will hold a meeting about that." Alec was annoyed by the agents questioning his ruling qualities but he knew he could always rely on his
mates.

"Good morning." Magnus said quietly as he walked inside the kitchen and sat down on a kitchen chair. Alec immediately hung up the call with no further words being spoken and sat down next to Magnus. "How do you feel?" Alec asked a guilty feeling bullying his stomach and Magnus shrugged. "I'm just tired." "Then go to the couch and take a rest." Alec suggested but Magnus shoke his head. "Being lazy that much isn't good." Magnus had never been this sick and he had never been laying around for such a long time. He was worried it would make his head work too much and make his nightmares worse. They had been better since he was with Alec but he still had them. "I have to go grocery shopping today. You want to join me? We can take a walk in the park nearby?" Alec understood Magnus without any words because he knew what a trauma was like and Magnus had a lot of trauma he didn't even know about.

"Mhh sounds good." Magnus hesitated a little not wanting to be a burden but he wouldn't refuse to help Alec. After all Alec took him in. "Okay. We will leave in a few minutes. You should put some warm cloths on an...." Alec realized how stupid his words were once he remembered how Magnus got here. "I'll bring you some warm cloths. Just go upstairs and take a shower." Alec knew he had some cloths that were to small for him and Magnus would be okay with them but he added new cloths for Magnus on the shopping list. "Thanks." Magnus grew very shy when it finally came to his mind that he had been living on Alec's money. His cheeks were burning red and he quickly hurried  upstairs without saying anything. "Oh hell." He whisperd once the door was closed and rubbed his forehead. "I need a job." Magnus really had to get back to his work but he didn't want to work at his old restaurant. Maybe he'd find something in the shopping center.

Magnus got a rid of all his cloths and turned the water on. He waited until the water was quiet warm and stepped inside his muscles relaxing under the waterfall. He  felt the water drops running down his spine and he was almost falling asleep when icy cold water hit his warm skin. Magnus let out a scream and it was after all a mistake to close his eyes under the water. Magnus could see it. Magnus could see that woman again but not just the woman...Michale. Michale was there. Magnus could all watch it through the slightly open closet doors and he felt like he was the one being drowned. He felt like his head was pushed under ice. Alec was in his room getting dressed for the day when he heard a scream. He didn't think at all after that scream he just reacted. He rushed to Magnus room the gun in his hand expecting someone threatening Magnus.

"Magnus? What's going on?" Alec knocked on the door but all he could hear were whimpers and quiet mumbling. "Magnus!" Alec's heart was beating faster than usual and he lost his patience. He turned the doorknob and to his relief Magnus didn't lock the door. He was prepared for everything but not for a naked Magnus curled up in the shower. Alec froze for a second overwhelmed with the situation but he shook himself awake. He placed his gun on the sink and grabbed a towel that was hanging at the wall. He turned off the shower and wrapped the towel around Magnus not wanting to interfere his privacy more than he had to. "Magnus...hei, boy. Tell me what happened." Alec didn't care about his feet getting wet or his pants being soaked. He just wanted Magnus to stop freaking out.

"Magnus, you need to calm down. Look at me...look at me." Alec took Magnus face in his hands and forced the crying boy to look at him. Magnus was violently shaking in Alec's tight grip but when his eyes were locked with Alec's he let out a shaking yet relieved breath. "It's alright. I got you...I got you." Alec said in a soft tone carefully taking Magnus in his arms. Alec tried to cover Magnus body with the towel as much as possible but the majority of his skin was still exposed. "It's okay. Don't think about it anymore. You're here and you're safe." Alec whisperd in Magnus ear just letting him cry in his shoulder for some more minutes. It took Magnus a while to calm down but he slowly started to stop crying and he found his way to reality.

"You're good?" Alec asked pulling back to look at Magnus who's face was burning red and Alec smirked a little. "Let's get you something to cover...and then I want to hear what that was." Magnus was pretty sure Alec was flirty at the beginning but he became serious. "Magnus, I'd usually enjoy this but you really need to get up." Alec added after Magnus just stared at him for a long time and Magnus jumped up realizing he was sitting on Alec's lap. "Careful!" Alec groaned catching Magnus before he could slip and Magnus cheeks were red like a cherry. "I...uh...I...I need...need pants." Magnus was a stuttering mess and his heart was almost beating out of his chest. Alec was his crush. Alec was his crush and he stood totally naked in front of him.

"Alright, I'll get you some. Just don't slip." Alec sighed like he was annoyed but in Alec's eyes Magnus could tell there was a hint of worry. "Here." Alec brought Magnus a pair of underwear and a shirt of him. Alec turned around feeling Magnus being uncomfortable and he never wanted to hurt Magnus privacy. "You...you uhm can turn around again." Magnus voice was quiet and he was embarrassed as hell but he was more glad that Alec was with him. "What was that?" Alec was straightforward a little insensitive probably but sensitivity wasn't one of Alec's fortes. "I...the shower got cold and then I saw him...I saw Michale...he was trying to..."

Alec knew he was supposed to listen to Magnus words but all he could think about were Magnus lips. His eyes were fixed on them and his throat dried up by the tought of these lips touching his. He knew how they tasted. He knew what they felt like. Magnus looked too fucking good in his cloths and with his wet hair falling on his forehead Alec grew weak. Alec's resistance to his addiction for Magnus grew weaker with every second he was looking at the boy. Alec's will to fight was gone and even his brain was yelling at him to fight he just gave up. He gave in his cravings. He took a step closer to Magnus who stopped talking and his breath hitched. Alec had been close like this so many times now but he never looked at him with a hunger like this...well he did. This one time back in the club he did. Magnus felt intimidated by Alec's look and forced his head to turn even he wanted to keep staring in Alec's hazel eyes. Alec lifted a hand and slowly moved Magnus head back to him with two fingers under his chin.

"I can't stop myself." "Then don't stop." Magnus was surprised by his words but he never wanted something as bad as he wanted Alec right now. "I'm always able to stop. Why can't I stop?" "Because you don't have to stop. No one is here that will stop you." Alec's hand touched Magnus cheek and he gently caressed Magnus skin slowly sneaking his other arm around Magnus waist. Magnus let out a small moan as Alec pulled him roughly against his body their chest colliding. "Oh boy. How will I be able to stop if you make noises like that." Alec whisperd with a husky voice and Magnus felt a rush of electricity flowing through his veins. "You're playing with me. You played me from the first day I saw you. The way you look at me...like I'm the only person in the world. The way you touch me without any intention. You played me, Magnus Bane." Alec didn't know what made him say things like that but they were nothing but absolute honesty.

"I played you? I'm not the one who's pulling me closer just to push me further away again. You stare at me with eyes like a tiger that found his bait. You do everything for me without asking for anything in return." Magnus felt like melting in Alec's hold and he was sure the tight grip of Alec's hand would leave a mark on his hip yet he wanted that mark to stay forever. "What if I'm asking for something back? What if I'm asking for something back right now?" Alec asked like he wasn't his self anymore and he run his tongue over his lower lip. Magnus heart was close to a heart attack and he shyly lifted his hand. He placed it on Alec's upper arm looking up at Alec like he was telling him to do with him whatever Alec wanted.

"You're driving me insane." Alec groaned finally giving in his deepest desire and closing the shrinking space between their lips. Magnus closed his eyes feeling the softest lips on the earth covering his own. Alec's mind shut off completely and he could only think about Magnus lips revive him. Their lips were moving in totally sync and the world around them stopped to exist. There were no signs of any other life in their own small world they build for them self. Alec couldn't control his own will anymore and just let his body do what it wanted. Kissing Magnus felt like he came out of a dark room feeling the sun touching his face for the first time in years. Magnus felt more like jumping in  cold water after a long hot day and his tummy was filled with butterflies. Alec ran his tongue over Magnus lips asking for entrance and Magnus gladly granted them.

A soft moan escaped his lips when Alec explored his mouth with his tongue. Alec pulled Magnus body closer to his leaving no space for air between them and he was refusing to let anything get between them. The moment was beautiful but just like every other beautiful moment it came to an end. Alec's phone ringing was like a wake up call and he pulled back looking at Magnus like he was a ghost. Magnus could feel his whole heart exploding into a million pieces. "Magnus...we...we can't do this...this is wrong..." Alec was shocked of his own actions and to be honest in Magnus eyes he even looked traumatized. He looked traumatized from their kiss. Alec was on his way leaving the room but Magnus had enough...//tbc.

Damn Mr. Lightwood what's your trauma 😅