Jungkook POV
Flashback(will be in italics)
I can't believe this. How did they get to this kind of relationship? Why did this have to happen to me? I'm only 10. Did I do something wrong? Is that why god is pushing me? Why? Why me? Why do I have this kind of parents? All these thoughts were running through my head as I watched the monster with my fathers face yell at me. My brother Jeongguk just stood at the side with tears in his eyes. He was the perfect one out of the both of us. Perfect grades, perfect complexion, charming personality. He has everything. Unlike me. I'm just a useless piece of rubbish that doesn't deserve a life.
I can't believe I was jealous of him. Ever. I was always jealous of hid grades, his looks, his popularity. If only I had known the toll it would take on his health. I would have been nicer. I would have not pushed him away due to jealousy. So many 'I would's and 'I wouldn't's. It doesn't change anything. Jeongguk is dead and I can't bring him back. 'If only's' will not help me now. I'm alone now. Mom and dad are dead. Jeongguk was the only one left alive from my family. And I pushed him away too. I was going through all the things that I had done from as early as I could remember. Was there anything that I could have done differently? Would it have saved him? Then I gave up. What was the point in moping around. Jeongguk is dead and I need to get over it. Nothing can change the past. Ever.

I am 18 years old. I'm all alone in this cruel and cold world. I earn a living by working at a cafe near my small apartment. Even though I have a fortune in my bank account from Jeongguk who got it from dad who was a successful entrepreneur before mom died giving birth to me and became an alcoholic.
<Just a side note. Jungkook's dad dies in a car accident after getting drunk in a bar. Jungkook is 15 then. Jeongguk dies when Jungkook is 16. Let's continue (: >
I was handed down my current apartment from Jeongguk. I attend ARMY high school.
< Is it high school? I'm not from America which is where this is taking place>
It's not an actual army camp. It's just the name of my school. I am taking triple sciences, A maths and literature. I finally fulfilled Jeongguk's dream of me being better than him in academics. I'm proud of myself but I can't help but wish he was here with me. Never mind. I can't change the past. All I can do is to concentrate on the future. And fulfill what he wanted me to.