"Does Sona have a personal diary?" Dev asked Elena as she slowly nodded.

She walked to the shelve nearby and took a diary with her. She passed him the diary and left the room without saying anything. Dev stared at it as his mind contradicted whether he should read it or not. He hated invading other's privacy but in order for his confusions to get clear, he needed to do this.

With a heavy heart, he opened the book.....

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2nd April 2011

Hey Diary, today is my first day in college! And guess what? I got ragged by an extremely handsome-jerk! His looks and behaviour had no link. I shouldn't have believed him but sadly I did. He made me ride a whole round around the college...I swear if I see him anytime soon, I will strangle him with my hands! – Sona

Dev smiled and how she described him as a handsome jerk. How badly he missed her clumsiness back then. Sigh... He flipped a few pages.

26 April 2011

Dear diary, I can't believe that the Dev Dixit himself made a bet with me! And guess what the bet is? A kiss! Gosh, he has to be mad..... I mean it's not like I don't want to kiss him. But I have never been kissed... What if he makes fun of me? Oh no... What am I thinking? He has to lose the bet... I agreed to it because he told me that he wouldn't disturb me after that. But now, I am really regretting my decision. I just pray that I win the bet. He shouldn't win the football match... Goshh, I am so mean! But at least to save myself...Please??? - Sona

2nd May 2011

Oh GOD! I have made the biggest sin of my life today. I kissed him... No, he kissed me! Urghh and the worst part was, I let him do that! I didn't push him away. How stupid can you be Sonakshi? Wonder how many girlfriends he had? What would he be thinking now? That I am another desperate girl? How am I going to face him tomorrow..... No way, I am not going to college tomorrow. I just can't see his face. He makes me forget everything that I have on my mind. If he nudges me about the kiss tomorrow, then I swear I would turn into a bright beetroot! He is a Devil.....Maybe a sweet one - Sona

Dev just couldn't help smiling at her words. Her thoughts just made him forget everything. He was living those days through her book. Her sincerity in those words were too real that he felt as if he could hear her saying those things. He flipped a few more pages, skipping certain personal stuff. He didn't want to completely invade her privacy. After all there were more important things which he had to read.

17th May 2011

Today, Dev came to the restaurant when I was having dinner with my parents. My heart just skipped a beat when I saw him seated behind our table. He is really mad! Why is he hell-bent on giving me heart attacks? I tried escaping from him but he caught me at the washroom... I know.... Extremely bad place to romance! He nearly gave me a panic attack inside the washroom. He tried to get intimate and guess what? I FREAKING CO-OPERATED WITH HIM!

In the end Elena caught us! That was the last thing I wanted.........I hate him! But I like him too. He was everything that a girl would want. Good looking, romantic, naughty and extremely loving! But why is he coming after me? Usually these kind of guys like those girls who wear torn clothes with high-heels and bright lipsticks right? Why is he after me then? I am just too simple and boring for him... But the thought of losing him, just makes me feel sick. Should I meet him in the park and confess or should I just leave him? - Sona

(Flips pages)

18th May 2012

Dear Diary, I have a feeling that Jatin likes Pooja..... I can't believe this. They are such a cute couple. I just hope they get together soon. I am so happy for them. But I am happier for myself because, I have Dev all for myself! Today was our first year anniversary....I am so glad that we are still madly in love with each other....I hope our relationship ends with a happy marriage. I love you Dev!!! You are my first and only LOVE! - Sona

Dev couldn't take the sorrow building in his throat as every word she wrote about him was so genuine. She loved him from the bottom of her heart. She wrote nothing about his money or status which clearly told how she wasn't bothered about his wealth. The way he accused her just flashed in his mind repeatedly, killing him every second. Without any delay he tried to look for the dates where they broke up.

(Flips many pages)

14 April 2013

(Refer to Chapter 22)

"Does money and status mean everything to you?"

"....YES"

The minute I replied, I turned and walked away from him not able to see the hatred in his eyes. The same eyes which held immense love for me all the time. Even when I was annoying and irritating, his eyes always looked at me with love. Pure love.

"Did you not love me even once? Was it all acting?..................... Not even one minute in our entire two and a half year relationship?" he asked. I really hated myself for doing this but I had to. For his sake... For his parents, his family and for us...

I halted in my steps as I heard his question. My back was still facing him. The tears burst forth, spilling down my face. I knew that if I looked at Dev's face one last time, I would run to him to find the solace in his arms. I wouldn't be able to run away anymore.

One look at my face would be enough for Dev to become suspicious.

"I used to love you Dev..." I hardly brought myself to reply as I continued walking. One thing kept running in my mind constantly.

I lost his trust.

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The moment Dev read that page, his eyes widened. Everything was same from what he heard from Sonakshi that day in the temple. But something was different this time. He was blown by the fact that Sonakshi had even seen his mother at night. His mother convinced Sonakshi? How was this possible? His mother? Why didn't Sonakshi tell him about this?

He still couldn't come in terms with the fact that his mother knew Sonakshi before. Why didn't she tell him before marriage that she knew Sona? Were both of them pretending in front of him? So, was his mother lying to him all the while? If the person there claiming to be Neha wasn't his sister, then who was it?

Dev flipped through the pages again.

16th April 2013

I have lost my only reason for happiness. He was my everything and yet, I gave him away. But it's just for another 2 more years... I was determined to ask forgiveness from him once I come back. Till then, I have to accept everyone's accusing stares in the college. Everyone tagged me as a gold-digger! I am so ashamed of myself. I can't even focus on my studies.... Everything is breaking me apart. Even Pooja had stopped talking to me. She believes that I am a gold-digger!

What's there to lose when I have lost the biggest wealth and property of my life? Yes... I have lost my happiness which is Dev. He was my only treasure. I am sorry Dev... I know that I have hurt you, but I didn't have any choice. I just wish that you never forget me in these two years. I love you...as always! - Sona

Tears pooled in his eyes as he read every single accusations Sonakshi had to bear after he left her. He didn't even imagine what she went through over these years. All the while he thought that she was moving on and being happy after their break up. Although he came to know about her sufferings later on, he didn't know that it was this severe.

20th April 2013

I try walking past Dev's house several times in the day... but there is no one there. Even the security guard gave me an annoyed look. I felt like a street beggar. I tried hard to find for Ishwari aunty and Neha but the house was just too quiet. Was anyone even living there? How can they be gone every single day? I really wanted to talk to Neha and Ishwari aunty. I wanted to know whether Dev was safe or not. But they were nowhere to be seen. God.... What should I do? - Sona

25th April 2013

I tried talking to Jatin. He really understands me so well. He is the only one who is stood with me even during the bad times. He didn't believe when I told him that I left Dev due to his financial state. Instead, he told me that I was hiding some things from him. How could he read me so well? I really owe him a lot in my life. He is forever my bestttt friend - Sona

30th April 2013

I can't believe that Dev's address have been changed. Jatin just informed me that they moved house. How? Then where can I find Ishwari aunty? Please.....God just ease my pain and help me find a solution to all my problems... -Sona

25th May 2013

I really can't take it. I saw Ishwari aunty is the market today...I really felt happy that I found her. But the words she told me today broke all the hopes I had.......... I can't believe she insulted me like that. Yes... she told me that she lied about making me their daughter in law. They literally cheated me. She told me that I wasn't fit enough to be accepted in their family. She said that I was considered low class and disgrace to them... I felt so disgusted. She insulted me so badly that I couldn't even form any kind of respect towards her. I was such a fool to have believed her.

How could she be so cruel? She separated me from Dev........ Now I have no other choice except............ending my life. I am sorry to all my friends and family. But I don't think I can imagine a future with anyone other than Dev. I have decided to end my life and today......would be that day

I am sorry Dev......Really sorry. I hope you can forgive me some day.

Dev's POV

The book fell from my palms as my hands were shivering from guilt. I didn't know whether I should read further or not. But the weight I felt in my chest was getting heavier. I couldn't even digest the things which happened in the past. My mum was never such a mean person. She loved me so much. She would never hurt Sonakshi in this way. Did she really do all this?

But why didn't Sonakshi tell anything about my mum? Was it because I wouldn't believe her? Yes of course.... Why would she believe me. I am really useless. When I couldn't even protect her from danger, what's the use of telling me everything?

She wanted to say something about my mum in the temple that day but..................I slapped her!

I looked at my shivering hands. These were the same hands which hurt her. The urge to hurt myself consumed me strongly as I stood numb, registering Sonakshi's words from her diary.

The guilt was like gasoline in my guts. My insides died slowly in the toxicity, needing no more than a spark to set it ablaze. The fire burnt me out so badly as there was nothing left but a shell, an outline of a person.

I raised my hands on her. As I guy, I was taught from young not to raise my hands on any girl but what happened? I broke my promise. I loved my family a lot. So much that I didn't even regret defending my family from Sonakshi until today. Who was I defending in real? The ones I called as family..... Did they really care for me?

What would they get by breaking us? My mum? Why did she do that? Now I understand why she didn't like Sonakshi from the start... Who was the fake 'Neha' who spoke to Sona at college then? Why did this have to happen to us? Why? For all these years, I thought that I was the one who suffered the most from our break up. But now I knew that it wasn't true.

I at least had a friend and family to share everything with. But Sonakshi had to endure everything alone. She didn't even share it with Jatin and Pooja. The whole college was against her. How much she should have gone through? And here....I was blaming her all the while. She always had loved me immensely....and she never stopped loving me over all these years.

She tried to end her life because of me. She gave up everything... Her happiness, image and life.... But me? What have I done? Are my sacrifices even half of what she had done? There is no way...... No damn way I would be able to seek forgiveness from her. I deserved to die. Die in the most horrible way ever!

I slowly picked up the diary from the floor and turned towards the last few pages....and there I saw another important page. It was on our engagement. But before I could read it, the buzzing sound of my handphone went off like an annoyed beetle. I scooped it up and answered without looking at it.

"Hello? Dev!!! Where is Sonakshi man? Why is she not picking up? I heard all the chaos that went in the office two days back. Tell me it's not true...........Wait... I want to talk to Sona RIGHT NOW! Give the phone to her!" yelled Jatin making me frozen at my spot.

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Jatin is back!!!!

Precap : Sonakshi's condition...Jatin's anger!

A true friend is someone who sees the pain in your eyes while everyone believes the smile on your face.