A sigh!

A very heavy sigh!

So deep it threatened to spill the secrets.

One that expresses the raging storm behind the quietest silence. A person jam-packed with an ocean of sadness, disappointment, and long-left desires. One that tells how the person has faced just too much of the repeated shit in life. Like a Deja vu nightmare, in a circle, taking laps like a whirlpool drowning everything in the way.

One that tells how dark it is when one thinks he found a little streak of light. Like the illusion of water in the middle of a scorching hot desert.

One that shows he is satiated and had enough but there is absolutely nothing he could do to change it but to endure it. And then that enduring reflects or more precisely gives birth to a stressful yet shackled sigh!

That type of sigh left Taehyung's mouth every two minutes. He was frustrated and furious, angry, and felt devastated thinking again and again of the past events in his life.

What the hell is happening?

Why can't I have some happy moments in my damn shitty life just once-

Only once! Is it too much to ask?

I'll be so happy to treasure them for once just once. I want to experience what being happy feels like, but seems like it is something not destined for me!

Not at all-

Not for me!

But why not? Why not me? Have I sinned forgivable to deserve all this, Do I deserve all this?

Lost in the depths of his mind, his thoughts threatened to consume him entirely, dragging him down into a pit of despair and anxiety. The weight of living but not being alive seemed to rest upon his shoulders, suffocating him with each passing moment. Even the simple act of drawing breath felt like a Herculean task, and he longed for nothing more than to escape the crushing weight of his thoughts.

And as the most beautiful coincidences happen on the darkest of nights, his cell phone rang. Taehyung had no desire to speak to anyone, least of all his father, who seemed to take a troublesome pleasure in checking up on him at every opportunity, but not being there when needed. Nevertheless, something about the sight of the caller ID caught his attention, a flash of recognition igniting in his mind.

The image that appeared on the screen was that of a beautiful boy, bright eyes shining like twin crescent moons with plush lips stretched in a heartwarming smile, his golden hair framing his delicate features in a halo of light. It felt like a wave of summer evening breeze engulfed him into its gentle caress upon seeing the face of his soulmate, the one person in the world who understood him better than anyone else.

A smile spread across Taehyung's lips as he eagerly answered the call, his fingers brushing lightly over the smooth surface of his phone screen. As he settled back against the plush comfort of his king-sized bed, he couldn't help but feel a sense of relief wash over him. Maybe he isn't as alone as he thought to be.

"Hello, Jimin?" Utter desperation was in his voice expressing the desire to hear from his best friend.

"Good afternoon, ladies and gentlemen, we are here with more updates on the missing alien found on planet Earth and it seems like this species is known for its charm, you would be lovestruck at just one glance, it is highly advised to not leave your houses, I repeat do not leave your house or this Taebear is going to get ya-RAWRRR-"

The said left Taehyung in fits of laughter squirming over the covers of his bed tittering to hear the other side blossom into the same soon following after.

"I'm not an alien" He sniggered yet again.

"Oh my, I guess I dialed the wrong number then, my apologies sire-"

"NOOO, it's me fine, fine, I'm your alien Taebear"

"Then teleport to your door right this instant-" A doorbell being rung downstairs left Taehyung expressing a gasp as he jumped off the bed stumbling in the covers tagging along and ran outside missing and falling face-planted from a mere inch.

The doors were pulled ajar to find the blonde boy from the picture standing with his hand raised ready to ring the bell yet again.

"CHIM" Taehyung exclaimed with pure happiness, hopping forth to grab the former clinging to him nearly suffocating Jimin, who offered his warm tight embrace accepting the hug wholeheartedly.

"How is my alien doing? How is life going?" The voice spoke with sincere affection laced to it.

"Shit as always, but when did you arrive back?" Taehyung was more than happy to know he had his buddy back.

"Yesterday, I landed and wanted to give you a surprise so I didn't tell you beforehand, so here I am"

"FINALLY! YES, now you ain't going anywhere you hear me"

"Of course not! I am staying in Seoul and settling here with my boyfriend"

"BOYFRIEND!? WHAT-"

"Yeah, yeah I know, before you start complaining let me tell you, I found......someone" A visible glint of happiness was in Jimin's velvety voice.

"Okay wait! WHAT!?" Taehyung's eyes popped open wide registering Jimin's words slowly.

"Are you going to interrogate me on the doorstep Mr. Kim Taehyung or let me in, seriously it's hot today, let me in" Jimin pushed past the raven head and walked inside with a clingy Taehyung stumbling right after.

"Who is it? Who did you meet? And you are telling me now Chim? I hate you, I seriously hate you"

"Hey! Wait, listen to me, you are the first person I'm telling this to, Okay, besides he asked me out recently so yeah"

"Just because I'm the first one on 'Know-List', I'll spare you"

"Of course, you are, Do I even need to say it? You know what you mean to me" Jimin chirped happily.

"I want to meet him too Jimin. I want to be sure if he's good for you. I want you to be happy and if he turns out to be a dick then he will end up being a broken one" Jimin laughed with a small thud followed, now rolling on the carpeted floor cackling with fits of laughter bubbling out of his plush lips.

"Hey, I'm serious" A giggle escaped Taehyung's lips as he pulled the former back to his feet and joined him on the couch settling beside him comfortably.

"O-okay" Jimin replied wiping away a tear from the brim of his eyes with his laughter now thinned down.

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Taehyung briskly strode out of his room, his phone safely tucked away in his pocket, and slipped on his black sneakers. As he stood up, he swayed slightly on his feet, lost in thought. With a determined expression on his face, he strode down the stairs, only to be greeted by the butler.

"Young master, how may I help you?"

The man addressed him with a deferential tone, a title that Taehyung loathed. He hated the feeling as though he was a fragile prince of royalty who had no idea of how to even step forth without the tail of a thousand servants at his back, a notion that made him bristle.

"I'm going out, give me the keys to my car" He spoke monotone.

"The driver can take you, Young Master-"

"I'm not a fucking retard, I can go myself, Give me the damn keys." Taehyung snapped at him, demanding the car keys.

The butler, caught between his duty and his affection for the young man, tried to reason with him, citing safety concerns. But Taehyung would hear none of it, refusing to be coddled like a child.

"Young master... Your safety is my responsibility-"

"Fuck my safety, who the fuck do you think you are, my father? Huh! Get the fuck out of my way"

He exploded in anger, cursing and yelling, his frustration and resentment at the oppressive atmosphere in his home boiling over.

With a huff, he stormed out of the house, his chest heaving with emotion. The butler watched him go, his eyes filled with sadness and concern for the boy he had come to love like his own. Taehyung snatched the keys from the old man not looking at him, his anger fueling him as he made his way to the car.

Once behind the wheel of his Porsche, he took a deep breath, feeling the tension slowly drain away. He is going to see his brother after ages, Jimin, his soulmate and confidante, he is going to meet him. The thought of seeing his best friend after such a long time brought a small smile to his lips, and he started the ignition.

As he drove down the wide road, with the sun setting behind him, Taehyung felt a sense of peace wash over him. His anger dissipated, replaced by quiet anticipation. He was going to see his brother, and for that moment, everything else faded away.

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Ding!

The small, quaint cafe was suffused with the intoxicating aroma of freshly brewed coffee and just-out-of-the-oven baked goods. The air was thick with the tantalizing scent of warm bread and cookies, making it impossible for anyone to resist its pull.

As the door opened, a small golden bell chimed, announcing the arrival of a figure dressed in a crème-colored hoodie and black ripped jeans. He paused for a moment, taking in the inviting atmosphere before him, before his gaze was drawn to a small hand almost hiding inside a sweater paw waving in the air, beckoning him over. His gaze traveled from the hand to its owner's face.

Crescent eyes, a Wide smile of his rosy plush lips, one Lightly crooked tooth, Perfect smooth porcelain skin with blonde hair freshly dyed to candy pink, Jimin, the perfect definition of beauty.

The two boys rushed toward each other, desperate to feel the warmth of each other's embrace after a long separation. Their smiles widened as they hugged, feeling an instant sense of comfort and happiness in each other's presence. It was as if the world had faded away, leaving only the two of them in their little bubble of joy.

"Taehyungie~" Jimin squealed with joy.

"Oh, Jimin~ Oh my God, I freaking missed you so much buddy" Taehyung's voice came out muffled, his head buried deep into Jimin's shoulder.

"Me too" The former's voice broke, and the brim of his eyes glistened with sparkling transparent water. They stayed like this earning loving looks from around and would have stayed like this if someone didn't clear their throat a little too loud startling the two long-lost brothers.

As Jimin pulled away from the embrace, he sensed a shift in the air behind Taehyung. Peering over his soulmate's shoulder, he caught a glimpse of a fuming figure, glaring at him with one brow raised and his tongue pressed against his cheek in a show of annoyance.

Despite the tension emanating from his boyfriend, Jimin couldn't help but smile slyly at the possessive aura he exuded. He took a step back, but his hands remained on Taehyung's shoulders, a subtle yet comforting touch meant to reassure him of his affection while leaving the third figure to squirm in obvious distress.

"When did you become this pretty? Are you still straight? I can diss my boyfriend for you, you know~" Jimin's mischievous nature led him to whisper teasing words to Taehyung's ear, fully aware of the effect it would have on Jungkook. The possessive aura surrounding him was only fueled by Jimin's playfulness, who couldn't resist the urge to rile up his boyfriend's jealous side.

"I'm still straight. But the idea is not bad who wouldn't want such a cutie" Taehyung played along laughing lightly not knowing the person behind bore holes in his skull with his piercing eyes. Jungkook rolled his eyes hard meeting his brains.

"Let's sit down, shall we?" As the tension grew, Jimin decided to sit down before he would see Jungkook throwing hands at Taehyung.

Taehyung turned around to face the person Jimin had been smirking at earlier, and he was met with a strikingly beautiful boy. The newcomer's tanned complexion contrasted with Jimin's fair skin, and his dark brown hair had subtle golden highlights that added depth to his look. His big round eyes were dark as coal, adding a mysterious allure to his appearance.

The boy had a heart-shaped face with a round, wide forehead, and a button nose. His lips were a perfect combination of thin and plump, giving him a cute and hot look at the same time. Jimin noticed Jungkook's reaction when Taehyung turned around, but the next moment, Jungkook was back to his normal self, as if nothing had happened.

Jimin walked over to the table, pulling Taehyung by the wrist, and Jungkook snapped out of his trance. He poked his cheek once again, rolling his eyes as he sent a warning glare to Jimin of the consequences of his teasing. Jimin sat down with Taehyung opposite to Jungkook earning a scoff from the already annoyed boy being consumed by jealousy.

Wow... Just wow.

It was such a delight before this nerd arrived.

Why is he even here? Wasn't he on Venom's radar? He was supposed to be dead or at least in the dungeons by now. Ugh~ why in the world he had to be my sister's prey and boyfriend's best friend? What the fuck Jungkook?

He better not cling to him or I'll be the one killing him before Venom.

The thought left Jungkook huffing and he crossed his arms on his toned chest and looked at the two.

"So, how have you been Taehyung? How's college?" Jimin asked.

"Well, it was all shitty but now I feel better and happy since you are here" He flashed a boxy smile to Jimin.

"Good news, I'm not going anywhere now, so don't be sad anymore I won't ever leave you again, I'll stay here and we can hang out just like old times yeah?"

"Sounds great"

"Your parents? Are they here? They were supposed to be back soon right" Jimin's full attention was on Taehyung, completely disregarding the simmering anger of Jungkook who sat quietly but seethed with fury on the inside.

"No, they are never there for me, just phone calls waiting for me to check if I'm still alive..." Taehyung looked down at his hands and twisted the black band around his index finger muttering the words under his shallow breath. Jimin could clearly see how desperate Taehyung was to feel the actual warmth of loved ones, someone who would care about him and would protect him and love him no matter what!

"And Seokjin Hyung?" Jimin asked Taehyung about Seokjin who worked as a secretary for Taehyung's father, his very own personal secretary. A deep secret keeper and part of many devilish plans almost leading out every important decision. But he bonded to Taehyung quickly and real deep, after all, it was needed to carry out the mission he was brought her for.

"He's always busy with work breaking all those promises of staying together. Father is always sending him on tours and stuff. It's been 3 months since I last met him. I miss him but it's not the same for him. No one misses me-" A thick gulp ran down his throat breaking the chain of his words, while his fingers itched to twist the black band over and over again trying to find a stop but the band never finished it continued to give more paths, more circular entangled paths or secrets. It was tiring, so tiring.

"Don't say that, I'm here for you"

"I missed you Jimin" Big fat tears hung from his thick lashes ready to cascade down his cheeks.

"Me too, trust me and I promise I will stay here now, yeah?" Jimin took Taehyung's hand in his and rubbed soothing circles over his knuckles, he pulled him into a warm and affectionate hug to appease the sad boy. Jungkook looked like he could pounce on Jimin any second and snatch him away and hide him from anyone and everyone. His foot snuck under the table and struck a kick to Jimin's foot a little too hard for Taehyung to notice too. Who broke the hug and looked between the two with faces like he was just woken up startled by the sound of a cracker.

Jungkook's gaze bore into Jimin's, filled with anger and frustration. Jimin, equally fierce, met Jungkook's stare with unwavering determination. Their eyes communicated a silent message, a language only they knew, but it was clear that the atmosphere was tense between the two.

Bitch stop touching him, Only I get to have those hands and only on me.

Bitch you stop being a jerk. He is my brother.

Bitch brothers can be soothed through words, you don't have to stick your ass to him.

Stop being a nasty clingy husband.

Stop being a brat.

JIMIN

JUNGKOOK

"Guys?" A deep voice broke their stare fight.

"What!?" Both asked in unison. Taehyung held his lips pursed looking between the two leaving Jimin to soften at the spot seeing the boy cornered.

"Is everything fine?"

"Yes"

"No!"

Jimin's head crooked to Jungkook again who rolled his eyes crossing his arms over his chest. Seeing this Taehyung jumped in again to hold the two apart.

"Jungkook, you can have my seat if you want" Jungkook's head turned to Taehyung, his eyes a little wide at the golden offer placed so suddenly. His lips now stretched into a smile. Taehyung saw one more thing... The bunny smile.

Jungkook nonchalantly made himself comfortable on the seat that Taehyung had just vacated, flashing a mischievous grin at Jimin. The younger man rolled his eyes, but before he could say anything, Jungkook draped his arm around Jimin's waist, pulling him closer. Jimin's initial response was to hit him with his elbow, but Jungkook persisted, refusing to let go. Taehyung, Jimin's childhood friend and brother, couldn't help but smile at the two, finding their bickering rather endearing.

"Hello, Jungkook" Taehyung introduced himself. "I'm Jimin's childhood friend"

"Hi, well I guess you know me already, I'm this midget's boyfriend"

Jungkook returned the greeting in a careless way, much to Jimin's chagrin.

"What did you just say?" The pink-haired boy shot a murderous glare to the one giving him a toothy smile.

"I love you" Jungkook voiced with a grin stretching his lips, while the said calmed the other one with an eye roll, he focused his attention back to Taehyung now sitting across the table. While Jungkook trapped Jimin in a possessive back hug. Even an elbow hit didn't make the guy budge and he remained there satisfied to keep his boyfriend next to him. 'Cute' Taehyung thought and smiled at the two.

"So how did you guys meet? I want to know and you promised to tell me everything" Taehyung rested his face in the cups of his hands staring at the couple forth. The shine over the glasses of his irises glittered like that of a child. Jungkook couldn't help but notice the unblemished purity radiating from the young man before him. He found himself captivated by Taehyung's untainted appearance, free from any trace of drug use or smoking. His eyes scanned Taehyung's body, revealing flawlessly smooth wrists and no visible tattoos. Even Jimin, who sported a "Never mind" tattoo on his ribs, couldn't compare to the innocence emanating from Taehyung. Jungkook's confusion only grew as he continued to study the young man's impeccable and unsullied demeanor.

Is he really innocent? No way he can't be. Or he wouldn't be on Venom's radar.

It's a disguise, such a perfect disguise. Venom won't be chasing to kill him if he was not guilty. So hard to read, ain't you Kim Taehyung?

"Well, Canada, as you know I went for my student exchange program, I meet him there" Said Jimin smiling lightly and grateful for Jungkook to stop his naughty acts in public yet he didn't know of the boy devolved deep into his thoughts.

"Details"

"We shared a lecture and he caught my sight, and then I caught him staring as well-"

"I-I wasn't staring okay, I was just-"

"Interested yeah I know" Jungkook teased on leaving Jimin to jump in the conversation.

"Well, we never talked or anything until one day he followed after me-"

"I couldn't resist, you looked so damn good in those tight leather slacks-"

"Shut up, he came for notes and followed me inside the elevator, guess what it was broken" Jimin blurted out trying hard not to go red in the face, and Jungkook's teasing hands slipping down and down his back weren't helping.

"Yeah, you were so interested in staring at me that you skipped the warning note"

"I-I, But you read it you could have pointed it out"

"Why'd I let such a chance slide away?" His hot breath against the shell of Jimin's ear left the pink-haired boy give out a shuddered exhale, his eyes rolling close feeling Jungkook's tattooed hand rest between his legs with his thumb giving oh such sinful but gentle caresses against the sensitive budge growing into a bigger tent by now.

"Just like this, I touched you before devouring you like a beast right then and there, do you remember Babyboy?" Jungkook whispered to Jimin who bit his cherry-red plush lips against the sharpness of his teeth holding onto his boyfriend's muscled arm.

"Um, I'm here too" Taehyung interrupted the duo to let them know they were in public.

"Jungkook behave" Jimin pushed Jungkook back in his seat leaving the boy to titter feeling satisfied to see his impact on the former.

"Well, actually before I could even kiss him, he passed out"

"Wait what-"

"Fear of closed spaces remember?" Jimin stated with a hint of embarrassment.

"Oh Jimin"

"Well, Of course, I was saved by none other than the mighty Jeon Jungkook, and he took gratitude by keeping me at his place for a week till he was satisfied to know I was okay"

"I would never have left you like that" Whispering to the pink-haired boy's ear, Jungkook snuggled close stuffing his face in the crook of Jimin's neck.

"Thanks, Jungkook for taking care of my Chim, You guys are so cute, I love it" Taehyung exclaimed expressing his satisfaction for Jungkook as Jimin's boyfriend.

"Stay here, I will order us something" With that Jungkook stood up to go place their order at the counter.

"Hey bud, let me-"

"It's on me Taehyung, stay with Jimin for me" Taehyung sat back with a small smile kissing his lips. The two friends were left alone at the table to look at the third who went through the menu quickly getting his order scratched on the waiter's notepad.

"He's a dick" Jimin sniggered with soft laughter at Taehyung's conclusion.

"Yeah, I know"

"But a good one" Taehyung smiled averting his gaze to Jimin who stared toward his boyfriend with a smile—the warmest of all.

"Yeah, you are right"

No wonder both Jimin and Jungkook looked perfect for each other to Taehyung's eye and he was glad his brother finally met the right one.

"Taehyung?"

"Yes"

"I am your brother, you know I can see right through you" Taehyung stayed quiet as Jimin continued.

"I know something is bothering you it's not just your parents or Seokjin Hyung, so tell me. I'm here to listen"

Taehyung's face, once aglow with delight, swiftly drained of any vestige of joy. His features contorted into a grimace as he absently twirled the obsidian band around his index finger, lost in the tortuous depths of his thoughts, where blinding darkness enveloped his soul.

"Knowing you, I know you won't be fine unless you speak it out Taehyung, so tell me what is bothering you and we can sort things out together no matter how bad or embarrassing it you know, I won't judge you ever"

"I l-like someone"

"Oh wait- What!? Really, that's great Taehyungie~ who's the lucky girl? I want to meet-" Jimin cooed squeezing Taehyung's hand reassuringly but the boy never expressed a smile.

"She left" With just two words, Taehyung's heart was rent in two, the very core of his being shattered into a million jagged pieces. Jimin sat there speechless, unable to utter a single syllable in the face of such devastation.

"The drinks will be here shortly" Unnoticed by them, Jungkook retraced his steps and silently approached the two. He plopped down next to Jimin and ensnared his arm around his beloved's body once more, a gesture of his possessiveness.

"Thank you Jungkook" Taehyung instantly averted his gaze to the other forcing a weak smile and stealing his gaze from Jimin's worrying one trying hard to shake off any thoughts about Jiahn.

There was a long long silence that stayed between the three until Taehyung decided to break it first.

"So who tops?" The abrupt and direct question caught Jimin off guard, causing him to choke on his breath and cough violently. He turned to Taehyung with eyes wide and glistening, searching for the shy and timid creature he once knew. Where had that endearing little alien disappeared to?

"Guess" Jungkook pulled Jimin closer against his strong chest, a teasing smirk playing on his soft cloud-like lips.

"Well, you?"

"Jiminie? Your brother doesn't know you so well"

"You mean" Taehyung's eyes widened as he gazed at Jimin, who melted in embarrassment at the unreserved and candid nature of their conversation in a public background.

"I mean don't let your brother's adorable cheeks fool you, he ain't an easy guy" Jungkook voiced rubbing Jimin's sides gently who shook his head with an eye roll and a shy smile.

"Chim really!? I mean you are not an easy guy but damn I considered Jungkook a top since he looks... kinda fiercer" Taehyung once again cradled his face in the cups of his hands staring at the couple forth. The order was delivered with coffee cups placed down in front of the three, Jungkook grabbed onto the hot mug letting the warm liquid touch the sweet surface of his lips.

"I don't always top though, it's a flip situation" Jungkook almost choked on his coffee mainly almost ending up with the breaking news that a powerful mafia associate died choking on his coffee this morning why so? Cause his boyfriend explained their sex positions. Wow, how lovely.

"I see, so don't fall for the mochi face yeah, I'll keep the advice noted" Taehyung laughed hard watching Jungkook struggle to breathe, the evening went on lighter notes and even for some time, Taehyung could say he had a good time. The ride back home was quiet as he slowly delved back into the past memories. He was so happy and the boxy smile won't leave his smooth soft lips even for a moment. He met Jiahn at the café, he saw her every day at College ... A simple thought about seeing her brought warmth to his heart and the bare canvas of his life felt like being splashed with numerous bright colors, He felt lively.

Now he felt empty.

After their last meeting, Taehyung learned that she had dropped out of school. The news pierced his heart with a sharp pang of pain that lingered long after their parting. That night, he wept bitterly, unable to fathom why love came with such a heavy price. Despite the heartache, he knew that he had fallen deeply in love, his very first experience with such intense emotions. Though the old saying warns that first love seldom finds its way, he refused to give up hope. There remained a fragile thread tethering him to the edge of the cliff, and it was Ji Ahn's last words that sustained him.

We will meet soon Kim Taehyung.

He rang her up several times only to be met with one message.

This number you are trying to reach does not remain in the domain.

She might have changed her contact number or blocked him and stuff, right? Oh Taehyung, what to do now?

When he tried to get her residential information from the officials they refused to do so. Taehyung was aware that every student's information was confidential, yet in times of dire need, they would provide it. He scoured various social media platforms in search of her ID but to no avail.

At times, he wondered if she had merely been toying with him, with no real intention of ever meeting him. The frustration and helplessness of this uncertainty proved too much to bear, and in moments of overwhelming emotion, he lashed out, punching walls until his knuckles bled. However, the physical pain paled in comparison to the agony and self-loathing that consumed him.

He cursed himself for his inability to find her and make things right.

Only if I hadn't made that stupid confession so suddenly, She might be still here, right?

Maybe I freaked her out, She probably hates me now. The thoughts only drove his sanity to the edge.

 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔡𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔳𝔬𝔱𝔢 𝔠𝔬𝔪𝔪𝔢𝔫𝔱 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔞𝔡𝔡 𝔱𝔬 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯 𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔡𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔩𝔦𝔰𝔱𝔰.
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