Chapter Fourteen

I stare up at the ceiling with my mind spinning round and round as I think over all of these possibilities on what the hell I am supposed to do now, and all this thinking is giving me a unwelcome headache.

This is really stressing me out.

You wouldn't be so stressed out if you hadn't of met Selena in the first place my self conscious makes itself known.

I really wish that fucking voice would just disappear.

I look down at Selena who has her head resting on my chest with her arm wrapped over my stomach, her hand clenching my shirt tightly like she's afraid I will leave if she doesn't hold on to me. I have my arm wrapped around her holding her close to me.

Although I hate saying this, but maybe I do need to stay away from Selena. Her being around me is only putting her life at more risk. I know if she continues to be around me her days are being numbered.

"Justin," Selena whispers my name.

"Yeah?" I reply.

"I-I can't sleep." she stutters.

"I thought you were already asleep?" I say, rubbing her back. Selena shakes her head against my chest. Then I hear a quiet sob escape from her lips. "Are you crying?"

She doesn't reply, so I take that as a yes.

"Why are you crying?" I ask.

Selena looks up at me and her eyes are red and puffy. It's obvious that she's been crying for a while now. How could I have not of heard her? Now I feel like shit.

"I can't even feel safe in my own house anymore." Selena says, her eyes glistening with tears that are threatening to fall. "I'm constantly looking over at my window because I feel like Liam is staring at me. Every time I hear a noise it makes me think it's Liam. I'm scared to even be alone. But I'm even more terrified that if I fall asleep you'll leave me," Selena pauses as a tear slips down her cheek, "and I only feel safe if I'm with you. In your arms."

I place my hand on her cheek and let my thumb wipe away the tear that had slipped down her cheek. My eyes look into hers and I find myself getting lost in them.

"Don't think," Selena's words from earlier play in my head. "Just kiss me."

And that's what I do.

I lick my lips before I lean my head down and have my lips press against hers. I leave them against hers for a few seconds before pulling away. I look in Selena's eyes and I can tell she's taken back. But I get taken back as well when Selena puts her hand on the back of my neck and brings my lips back down to hers. I part my lips and our lips move in sync.

I try to ignore the unfamiliar feeling I feel inside me and the rapid beating of my heart, but I can't ignore the multiple sparks I feel going off around us and the electricity that I feel running through us.

I deepen the kiss, desperately wanting and needing to feel that electricity to continue running through us. I grab onto Selena's sides and pull her body on top of me to where she's straddling me. The kiss gets heated real fast as Selena kisses me roughly, her hands on my chest.

After a few minutes I have to pull away to catch my breath, resting my forehead against hers. She's breathing heavily just as hard as I am, our chests heaving up and down.

"I'm not leaving you," I breathe out. "I never will."

"Promise?" Selena says, her voice shaky.

"I promise." I'm always that one person who breaks their promises with somebody, but this promise I just made to Selena, it's a promise I'm going to carry with myself to my grave. I don't plan on leaving her anytime soon.

Selena cups my face in her hands before her lips are crashed against mine. I hold her close to my body, not daring to let go.

I find myself taking in a breath when Selena grinds her hips down on me sending a wave of electricity through me. My jeans suddenly become tight, and it's not because they're still a little damp from Selena spraying me with the hose. Selena kisses my jawline, her fingers running down my chest. My hands grab ahold of her hips as she grinds herself down on me again, the tightening in my pants growing.

This girl will be the death of me, literally.

I wrap my arm around Selena's back and in one quick, swift movement I have Selena down on her back in the bed with my body hovering over her. I connect my lips with hers as she wraps her arms around my neck, holding me down close to her.

And on cue, my phone starts ringing over on top of Selena's dresser. I try ignoring it, but the loud obnoxious ringing makes it almost impossible.

"Every damn time." I say, moving myself off of Selena and walking over to my phone.

I look at the caller ID and it's Ryan. Of course, who else would it be at a time like this? I slid the answer button over and press my phone up to my ear.

"This better be good Ryan," I say into the phone.

"Where the fuck are you?" Ryan shouts angrily into the phone, hurting my eardrum.

"Out." I reply.

"Exactly where are you 'out' at?" For some reason, I get this feeling in the pit of my stomach that Ryan may know what I'm up to.

"Don't worry about it." I snap. "Now, what did you want? I was in the middle of something."

"You think Alfredo and I don't know what you're doing when you suddenly disappear? We know you're sneaking off to be with Selena." And I'm right.

"Ryan," I try to talk but get cut off.

"Get rid of her, or I will." Ryan's words wave a huge red flag in the air.

Before I'm able to say anything the line has already disconnected. I sigh and place my phone back on top of the dresser.

"Was that, Liam?" Selena asks. I could see the fear in her eyes.

"Ryan. He wanted to know where I was." I reply. I climb back into the bed beside Selena and wrap my arm around her.

I really just wanted to go asleep now. I'm exhausted over worrying about everything that's happened today. I have no idea what I'm going to do about Liam, I don't know how I'm going to be able to protect Selena all the time, and I have no fucking idea what just happened between Selena and I.

We basically just made out on her bed and god knows what would have happened if my phone wouldn't have went off when it did. I can't tell if what happened between us is a good thing or not. I know for a fact that I've never felt that way before and I would be lying if I said I didn't like the feeling of Selena's lips against me and that I didn't feel any type of connection between us. So, I guess that's a good thing? The bad thing is that if I'm becoming attached to Selena I'm more and likely going to find myself killed before I know it because I can already see myself putting Selena first before anything.

It's times like this I wish I never ran into Selena, but then I also wish I could have met her before my life turned completely upside down.

"What happens if Liam decides to try and hurt me when you're not here?" Selena's question comes out of nowhere.

This is what makes my brain hurt. I can't be with Selena twenty-four seven to protect her. There's going to be times when I have to leave her, and I'm afraid that when those moments come that's when Liam is going to make his move.

"Like I promised, I'm never leaving you. That's a promise I'm going to keep. I'm not going to let anything happen to you. As long as you're with me Liam won't even think twice about hurting you." I reassure her.

"I hope so." she replies.

I put my hand under her chin and turn her head to where she's looking at me. Her eyes lock with mine and I can't help but notice the sparkle in her eyes.

"Do you trust me?" Selena nods her head. "Then don't worry about Liam. I'll always protect you."

I lean down and press my lips against hers. She immediately kisses me back, her lips soft against mine and gentle.

I could really get used to this.

I pull away and Selena lays her head down on my chest with her arm wrapping around my torso and her leg laying over mine. I kiss the top of her head and rub my hand up and down her arm.

Instead of thinking about how I'm going to keep Selena safe from Liam, I fall asleep to thinking about Selena's lips against mine.

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~ Author's Note ~

YAY! Justin and Selena finally kissed! And they started getting a little frisky ;)

I would have made this chapter longer, but I decided to save what's going to happen next for chapter fifteen.

(P.S. - I LOVE seeing all your comments and i am so glad you guys are liking this story so far! xo)