"Hi....I know that"his voice cracked a bit,he coughed and continued"I know that you hate when someone keeps nagging you ,but I am worried.....How are you?"

"It's fine,darling.I was checking an article for tomorrow when you called.I'm sorry if I made you worry,I was going to call."

"I know.Are you ok?"

"I'm torn between ok and heartbroken"she laughed a bit"I found out what the coroner hid"

"Enlighten me,babe."

"Tania was pregnant...."

Haven was silent for a bit too much,like he wasn't sure what words would be the best to use in this situation.He gathered all his thoughts with care and whispered:

"Simon's?"

"Yeah....and he was happy about it ,Haven.....He was happy"

Natalie's voice suddenly lost compusure,she could finally be vulnerable in front of someone,so she started crying quietly.

"Please don't cry,Nat....you know it breaks my heart that I am not there with you to hug you.It wasn't your fault that he left..."

"Who knows....I just think about how it would have been you know?I am over Simon,but I am not really over the whole situation."

"Do you want me to come over to talk?"

"I'm at Sonia's."

"OK.Say hi from me."

"I will.....I am coming to the station tomorrow.I will be quite agressive on your Chief so that you know.I need to find what does Thompson has to blackmail him.Who was the coroner again?It seems that it slipped my mind"

"James Rattlefield....You know?You should stop doing journalists' tricks on me because I can recall very good that I didn't mention his name,but the things I do because I love you ....You're my kriptonite,Nat."

"Sorry"she giggled like a school girl "You get to be with a much better looking Lois Lane though."

"I'm interogating a bartender at a local bar tomorrow,Do you want to join?"

"Oh,Haven,darling,you really know how to make a girl fell loved"

Natalie laughed and all her sadness hid for a while behind the feeling of comfort Haven gave her.She could really love this man forever only if she wouldn't be so afraid.

"The Drunken Bear,right?Tom Morisson?"

"You are good,you know?Simon was very secretive about this bar when we asked him.You got it in a few hours."

"The perks of being the fiancee of the source once."

"What is the deal with this bar?"

"That's where we went after we published our first articles in a magazine when we were young.We went at The Drunken Bear and danced on the counter.....we were drinking for Telma Jenkins and Louis Madmann....our lousy pseudonims from back then.Times changed,the owner changed.I wasn't there since I broke up with Simon."

Haven laughed

"Telma?What a sophisticated name.I should call you Telma from now on."

"Shut up"

"Meet me tomorrow at the station?"

"Yeah,I grill your Chief a bit and then we are going to grill a witness."

"Fine.Sleep well,if you ever sleep.I love you."

"I know,Haven.Thank you.For everything."

She ended the phone call abruptly like she always did when the word "love" ever came up,Haven knew this,but he did not care,he loved her and he always knew that his dangerous job might kill him one day.He never wanted to die without her knowing it.

Natalie stood up from the carpet and looked at the laptop screen from above.Her dirty and crumpled shirt gathered around her elbows,tightening her arms.She couldn't do it.She conviced herself she was able to do it.He did the same thing about her when he splashed her secrets all around Chicago.

Tania's pregnancy wasn't her secret to share,it wouldn't be fair to use this to get The Globe back on his feet.It would be like raising an empire on rotten corpses,eventually the destiny will fight back to you and all your dreams would fall and become dust.

Her eyes filled up with tears that fell down onto her ice cold cheeks.She didn't have the support she needed when she went to that clinic in order to regain Simon's love,but Tania will have someone by her side,even if Natalie was too late to save her life.Tania pregnancy will not be revealed by her;that would make her exactly the monster Simon was.She is going to be better that him,she will be smart and cunning about this.

She lowered onto her knees and deleted everything she wrote in the past hours.She will not be this person.She will be Natalie,not Telma.She will not fall into the sin of being morally grey for an article.She will try,at least...but what a white lie was that.....

She kept looking at the screen and started writing just a summary about this whole Thompson Affair,no big reveals this time.

".....Meanwhile,justice must be brought to Tania and everyone that mourn her these days...."

The only thing true....The only thing she really felt....oh!the liberty and the confinement of justice....

She took her phone out and dialed Ford.He answered quietly and faint.

"Sorry to wake you,cherie...But this is big,no time to sleep."

"Yeah,boss.What do you care me to do at this fancy hour?"

"I will send you an article.Sent it to print ASAP,It needs to be out in the morning."

"And you go me up for this?You could've sent an email you now,or a text messsage..."

"I need you to do something else....."

"I'm not breaking in!Last time I almost died by a Chihuahua attack."

"I need you to dig up some dirt."

"I can manage that.Who?When?"

"The coroner....James Rattlefield...I need to know what made him cover up the pregnancy."

"Tania was pregnant???"

"Yes."

"Simon's?"

"Yes....."

"I know we aren't really best friends,but I'm sorry.I'm here for you,boss,you know that right?"

"Yeah,Ford,Thanks.Now move your ass out of that cozy bed of yours and find some good stuff for me.I'm going at the station around 8,so you still have 5 hours left.Run!"

Ford hung up the phone abruptly,causing Natalie to smile a little to herself.What a strange boy.Strange but cute....SHe really cared about this little apprentice.

"Soniaaa!!!!"Natalie yelled from the door frame.

Sonia's long,heavy steps were shortly heard going up the stairs.

"Show me the masterpiece,Nat."

"I didn't write about it.I mean I did,but I deleted it.I couldn't do it....I'm really sorry,but I can't."

Sonia became red with anger.

"You know he would do it for you!He wrote in the damn Post that you had an abortion while you were criticizing a crappy politician for that Abortion Law.He ruined your reputation,Nat!....and not only you are helping him,but you alsokeep his name clean!"

"He did all this,Sonia.Simon did!Not Tania,not that unborn baby.It's not my baby.Do you think this is easy for me?I want to get revenge more that you can think,but I'm not him.By doing this I would burn my soul,give the ashes to the Devil and trade them for fame and succes.This is not me.I'm sorry for dissapointing you...."

Sonia's eyes lowered,looking at Natalie's feet.A spark of empathy struck through her spine and she aproached Natalie and hugged her.

"I'm sorry,Nat.I can be a bitch sometimes.It's your call.We are going down anyways.If you want to be clean and methodic about this I will not interfere,I may be your boss,but I'm giving you a clear pass for this,ok?"

"Thank you,Sonia.I really apreciate it."

"Don't you want to sleep a bit?"

"It would be a good ideea,yeah..."

Natalie's mind was torn and burning with thoughts.How can justice be 100% real?Why it hat to be somewhere in a grey zone?

She will not become the same thing that destroyed her.She will be kinder,more humane.She will not chase drama,she wil chase the truth.The problem was that the truth seemed to be chasing her too,but Natalie wasn't aware of this yet.....