It feels weird not having my medicines and glass of water on the top of the bedside table. Even not attending my sessions with Mr. Zamora.

They used to be my morning routine. But it's not weird laying beside my danger. My beautiful danger.

I smiled as I faced him, my right hand on his hair, pushing it upwards.

I want to see his face while sleeping, 'cause it looks serene, like there's no one going to harm him. Like there's no worries we're facing right now. I just love how he looks when he's sleeping.

Gumalaw ng bahagya ang mata niya, maya-maya lang ay nagmulat siya. He looks at me with his eyes smiling, ni hindi ko alam kung paano 'yon ngumingiti, but literally, his eyes are smiling at me, like it recognizes me as the only one who can see them, and they are happy about that.

Those brown eyes who almost look like wood.

I smiled at him. "Good morning..."

He smiled back. "I really like your morning voice," his voice is hoarse. "Good morning to you too, princess,"

He gave me a peck on my lips not minding my morning breath.

"I'd like to wake up to this scene every morning, forever," he chuckled and pulled me closer to him by my waist.

I smiled again. I'm facing his bronze broad chest. I traced his skin there. I felt him shudder under my touch. Ngumiti ulit ako.

He kissed me on top of my head before I felt his body relax.

But weirdly, I didn't like how his body relaxed under my touch. I like it shuddering, begging for my touch, or almost terrified like I'm a fire about to burn him alive. I like it trembling beneath my hands. I like it scared of me.

Just like I am with his touches.

"Love..." he trailed.

I heard him whimpering when my touch went down. We were both naked under the maroon duvet.

Hindi niya ako pinipigilan. Instead, I felt him tighten his hold around my waist. I felt his pubic hair on my hands as soon as I reached his abdomen.

He stiffed beside me.

Yeah, that's it. I like it like that. Always ready for me.

I got impatient. I pushed him to force him to lay on his back. I straddle on his lap, just enough for my ass to feel his cock behind me.

He looked at me, eyes sleepy and desiring for something.

I go down to reach for his face and kiss it hungrily. He gladly returns the kisses with the same intensity.

I want to take control of him. I want to make him feel what I feel whenever he's on top of me. How I tremble under his cruel touches. How he is ruthlessly and knowingly that scares me so much. I want him to feel the same way whenever I touch him.

My hands roam around his body, finding parts of him that feels terrified of me, terrified of their master. I want his parts to know that I'm the only one they fear. I want them to recognize my touch and be afraid of it.

His hands are on both sides of my hips, putting them in place. But I don't want him to put me in place. I'm the one who's in control now.

I shove his hands away on my hips and put them on top of his head. I pulled away from the kiss and reached for the red silk tie on top of the bedside table.  I used it to tie his hands above him. I made sure they were tight enough to hold him.

I looked at him as I finished tying him. His eyes are half-hooded, looking at me in submission.

Yeah, that's right. You must know when to submit to your master.

"Love..." his voice is hoarse.

I pressed my right forefinger on his lips, the other one pressing on his chest for support as I mouthed 'shh'. He only looked at me, his eyes begging me to touch him.

I smiled in my head.

"Put your hands in place, I want them above your head. You're not allowed to touch me, understand?" I said, trailing my hands on his cheeks.

He nodded and I smiled.

I started kissing his jaw, his throat, his chest. I want them to familiarise themselves with my lips. It must be the only thing they can allow to touch them. I am the only one who's allowed to touch every part and every inch of him. I want him to know it.

I adjusted myself to kiss his abs, down to his abdomen. I lick and kiss his skin there. I want them to know that I'm gonna devour them if they disobey me.

I cannot feel his hands on me. His submission only made me hungry for him.

I go down to kiss the length of his cock. The duvet is still covering us so I shoved it away until it drops on the floor.

I heard his hisses and groans above me. His moans are like singing lullabies in my ears. God, I love it.

His cock is ready for me, It's hard and pointing at me like it recognizes me. I put my hands around it, placing it up and down. I licked his tip and kissed them as I hand job him with my right hand, while my other hand is caressing his left thigh.

I heard his moans and his hisses as he pushes his hips upwards to fuck my mouth. But I put his hips in place.

"Damn, love. You're driving me crazy," I heard him hissed but he didn't move.

Hindi ako sumagot sa kanya. Instead, I fuck him with my mouth and my hand, harder. Binibilisan ko ang pagbaba at ang pagtaas ng bibig ko tuwing hindi siya gumagalaw sa ilalim ko, pero kapag gumagalaw siya ay binabagalan ko. And that made me earned a groan from him every time.

"Please, fuck me hard, love. Fuck, please?" I heard him beg.

I looked up at him. His eyes were begging, and I liked it.

Hindi ako sumagot, but I started fucking him hard. Nabubulunan ako dahil sa laki at haba niya, but that doesn't stop me.

I hand job and fuck him with my mouth hard until I felt him stiffen, kasabay niyon ay pagputok ng semilya niya sa loob ng bibig ko.

I pulled away from his cock with a pop sound as I looked at him, making him watch me swallow his semen. Every drop of it.

He smiled at me while looking down.

I untied him and as soon as the tie rolled down his arms. He took over me.

We fucked at the bed like a horny caveman and cavewoman who just discovered sex for the first time. We swallow each other's fluid until my legs are shaking and I can't barely stand anymore.

Pagkatapos namin ay agad na kaming naligo at nagbihis. Bumaba na rin kami para kumain. He carried me to the table because my knees are shaking and failing me whenever I stand.

I'm not taken any birth control pills ever since. And I'm afraid that this will lead us to a thing that I am scared of.

I am barely an adult and I know nothing about taking care of a baby.

"What are you thinking, love? You are not eating your food," he asked. He's beside me eating.

"Nothing," I lied.

I finally eat peacefully with Austin beside me.

Hanggang sa matapos kami ay hindi ako umimik. I'm afraid of saying my thoughts to him. Just like, what if kung mabuntis ako ay gusto niyang ipalaglag? Anong gagawin ko? But I'm sure I'm choosing the baby over him, we can live together without him by our side, I am sure of that.

I am not ready for the consequences, but I'm preparing myself for any. I can barely stand on my own, pero kung ibibigay man siya sa akin, hindi ko ilalaglag ang responsibilidad ko.

We were in my room, snuggling. But my thoughts were somewhere else. The thought of having a baby suddenly bothers me and excites me in a good way.

"Are you sure you're feeling well?" he said, concerned.

He placed the back of his hand on my forehead and all I could ever feel was his touch, so I closed my eyes. I feel it touch my neck pero nanitili lang akong nakapikit.

"You're fine, you don't have a fever. What's wrong? Kanina ka pa tahimik. Did I do something?" he said, his voice a little bit shaking.

Ngumiti ako habang nakapikit. I placed my hand on his nape to pull myself to get closer to him. Agad naman niya akong hinawakan sa bewang para alalayan. I sniffed his neck, still my eyes closed. He smelled mint and musk at same time. It made my body relax.

"Tell me, love. What's the problem?"

Umiling ako at hindi umimik. I feel like not talking. I just want to be in his arms.

"Really? I know that there is, tell me, love. What's our problem, hmm?" he said as he started rubbing my back.

"We have no problem, babe. I just want to hold you," I said.

I felt him stiffen then I felt him kiss the top of my head.

God, I love how his body heated with mine. How our scents intertwine like they're acquainted with each other. Like our souls knew that we are meant to be together.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

I don't even know what's happening.

Days have been spent here, with Austin, in my mansion. After those files about Adrian and my Mother, we got nothing. Like we are starting back to basics.

But Austin still wants to investigate her and Adrian.

I want to open up my case involving him but I can't form my words. I mean, not that I'm scared. Maybe, I am. But I don't know, it seems buried deep inside me. Like I accept it happened to me.

"You look so beautiful in that dress, it perfectly fits you," he said behind me, looking at me in the mirror.

I met his eyes through the mirror then smiled. I'm wearing a red off shoulder mermaid long evening dress.

I'm trying the dresses he bought for me because I'm bored. I do this most of the time for my leisure. I don't know, I just appreciate how I look on every dress I wear.

He walked towards me, like a predator ready to devour its prey. He's looking directly at my eye through the mirror. It makes me feel intense. Frightened is my friend for a long while, while I'm with him, but in a good way.

Excitement rushed through my veins when he snaked his arms around my waist. I'm anticipating something: something dark and sexy, almost fierce and bold. But instead, he kissed me on my left temple.

I felt his soft lips against my skin by closing my eyes. I just to feel the moment while I'm with him. I want to feel his touches and kisses on my skin, how it lingers and almost drives me crazy.

I don't know, but something's telling me that there's gonna be bad going to happen so might as well enjoy the moment.

I don't want to spoil the moment so I hold his hands on my waist and lean on his hard chest.

I can't explain how I found heaven in hell. But I know for sure that I'm enjoying every moment with the devil.