That day, Austin decided to move to 'my mansion'. His reason? I don't know.

Nanatili akong tahimik sa loob ng sasakyan. Austin's sleeping on my shoulder with his right hand on my left leg. We are on his limousine, we are at the back. Si Manong Victor ang nag-ddrive.

Pagkatapos noong tagpo namin sa red room niya ay pinagpahinga niya na muna ako bago siya nagdesisyon na umalis.

I sighed then lean my head on his head that was on my shoulder.

He looked like an angel while sleeping, contradicting his aura when he's awake. He was like a beast attacking anytime.

Noong butler ko pa siya ay natatakot na ako sa kaniya, pero hindi naman na takot na takot talaga. I'm just scared of how he looks. Lalo na nung may peklat pa siya sa mukha. It looked hot but scary at the same time.

Masakit pa rin ang ibabang bahagi ng katawan ko. Ikaw ba naman kasi birahin nang birahin, hindi ba sasakit ang katawan mo? I can still feel my feminity ache. He's a monster in bed.

But I'm still wondering. I'm feeling this warm feeling whenever I'm around him. Especially noong butler ko pa siya. I tried to ignore that feeling, pero bumabalik lang nang bumabalik.

It seems like it's getting deeper day by day. But not that I don't like it, I actually did like it. I don't know. I keep denying it, pero kapag mas lalo kong dinedeny, mas lalo lang lumalalim.

Tinapik tapik ko ang pisngi niya ng tumigil ang sasakyan. Unti-unti naman siyang nagmulat at tumingin sa akin. His brown orbs met mine; it smiled at me. He kissed me on my cheek before he sat properly.

"Narito na tayo, Senyor," rinig kong sambit ni Victor sa unahan.

"Okay, please tell them to carry our luggages to our room. Thank you," sambit ni Austin.

Lumabas na kami ng sasakyan saka naglakad sa mahabang pasilyo papunta ng mansyon.

Loob lang ng mansyon ang nakita ko, mas maganda ang nasa loob kaysa sa labas. Pero kung titignan mo sa labas, mukhang simple lang siya na bahay. Medyo malaki naman, pero mas malaki ang loob.

Naghahalong itim, pula at ginto ang kulay ng mga pader. Victorian style ang mansyon. Ang gate naman ay kulay itim at ginto. Napapalibutan ang mansyon ng mga bulaklak at mga dwarf trees.

I can't help but to be mesmerized with the scenery in front of me. It's like I'm in a magical movie. Ang mga paru-paro na nagliliparan sa paligid ang nakadadag sa atraksyon ko sa mansyon.

"Wow..." I trailed.

"Did you like it?"

"Like is an understatement, Austin. I really, really, really love it,"

I heard him chuckled behind me then kissed my hair.

"I'm glad you did. Let's go inside, madam," saad niya saka ako hinapit sa bewang para alalayan sa paglalakad.

Gosh, I'm not crippled?!

Hinayaan ko na lang siya hanggang sa makatungo kami sa loob ng mansyon.

Pagkapasok namin ay nakita ko kaagad ang mga maid na nakahilera sa paligid ng lamesa. Naroon na rin ang mga pagkain namin.

"Uhh... hindi ko pa naman huling araw, Austin. Ang dami ng pinahanda mo,"

I looked at him but he just glared at me.

He rolled his eyes. "Don't say that. At saka kaya ko 'yan pinahanda kasi baka gutumin ka sa gagawin natin mamaya,"

I scoffed then hit him on his shoulder. "Seriously?!"

"Yeah, seriously," he winked at me then chuckled.

Pero seryoso, ang dami ng pinahanda niya. May isang buong manok at kung ano-ano pang mga gulay na naroon. Feeling ko nga ay nasa fiesta ako sa sobrang dami.

Siguro ay aayain ko na lang ang mga maid na sumabay sa amin.

Inalalayan ako ni Austin sa pag-upo. Magkatabi kaming dalawa; siya sa kanan, malapit sa kabisera, ako naman sa kaliwa.

"Isabay na lang natin sila Manang kumain, hindi ko naman 'to mauubos," saad ko saka kinuha ang kutsara sa kanan ko at ang tinidor naman sa kaliwa.

I saw Austin's approval in my peripheral vision. Umangat naman ang tingin ko sa mga maid at butler na nasa paligid; hinihintay na umupo sila.

"Ah... okay lang naman po, miss. Busog nama-"

I waved my hand to dismissed her.

"No, I insist. Sayang naman 'tong mga pagkain kung hindi naman mauubos. Please, just take your seat," ngumiti pa ako ng bahagya para iparating na okay lang.

Nahihiya naman silang tumingin sa isa't-isa saka ngumiti sa akin. Pagkatapos ng ilang segundong pag-aalinlangan, napagdesisyon na rin nilang umupo.

Sabay-sabay kaming kumain. Nauna kaming matapos ni Austin. Pagkatapos namin kumain ay inaya ako ni Austin na pumunta sa 'kwarto ko'.

Pagkapasok namin ng kwarto ay agad niyang isinara ang pinto. He pinned me at the back door with my arms up at my head. He kissed my neck and smells me there. I closed my eyes to feel the moment.

"I didn't know that your kindness will lead me to a boner," he chuckled darkly.

I heard him stifle a groan. I opened my eyes at the moment I felt his lips untouched my skin. Then, I met his eyes. There were mixed emotions I can see there-Lust, love, desire and anything you could describe how you are darkly attracted to a person.

I am always aware of how shady his attraction to me. I have known his dark desires even before I met Adrian. I wonder if they will last. I wonder if he'll see a woman who was better than me, then he will eventually discard me.

I have known his desires, I've seen them, and it always ended up pretty badly.

Ngumiti lang ako sa kaniya pero hindi ako nagsalita.

I always thought that this is stupid. This surrender is so wrong but it feels good at the same time.

How can you love the one who hurted you so bad? Break you apart until you are nothing but a tiny little piece of dirt, then come back to collect you and build you again, and there you are, praising them for what they've done because you are stupid enough to haven't realize their facade.

He scoops me in his arms at saka naglakad patungo sa kama. He placed me at the bed like I'm sort of vulnerable glass. He was so tender and careful and afraid that he'll might hurt me.

Well, he did. And he knows it.

"It feels peaceful beside you, I just want to stay by your side forever," he mumbles under his breath.

He snuggled in my neck as soon as he placed me into my bed.

"Austin..." I trailed.

"Hmm?"

"Wala," I said in a monotone.

Agad naman siyang napatingin sa akin. I can feel his tense muscles beside me. He looked at me and I looked at him too, straight in his eyes. He studies my face then eventually sighed.

"You've got me a mini heart attack there, I hate it when you use that tone to me. I think you're angry with me or something,"

I am angry, no words can explain how I was cursing you. I wanted to say those words, but I remain silent.

I was angry, I was feeling all the bitterness and what ifs inside my head... before. But now's different. Really different.

Instead, I cupped his face and stare at his eyes. I stare at them finding hope for my hopeless attraction to him.

Yes, hopeless. I'm aware that he hurted me in ways I can't explain. But here I am, started to get attracted to the one who poisoned me.

I don't see him as the one who destructed me though. I see him as the one who crashed me, who built me, and that made him a god in my eyes. Hopeless right? It's stupid, I know. But we can't teach our heart to things we can't control.

He leaned on my hand like a hopeless kitten, with his eyes tenderly looking at mine. He closed his eyes to feel my touch and I smiled.

I wonder if he feels the same. I wonder if this attraction was just an illusion of him and eventually he'll wake up from his dream.

If that time comes, I'm not sure if I will be able to hold myself from crashing.

We slept together at my bed the whole day. We cuddled and snuggled to each other. And in my 18 years of living, this is the only time I felt peaceful beside this destructing danger.

We spent days on my room. Lumalabas lang kami kapag kakain. Wala rin naman kasi akong pupuntahan or gustong puntahan, kung mayroon man, it would be dangerous for the both of us, so we just stayed in 'my mansion'.

"When did you built this?" I said strolling my eyes to the detailed exterior design of the mansion.

We are here at the back of the mansion. I decided to roam around dahil ayoko naman ng walang ginagawa. I don't want to lay in my bed all day overthinking. Kaya inaya ko si Austin na i-tour muna ako sa mansyon kong itinayo niya.

"Before I even met your father," he said.

Nakakunot ang noo kong napatingin sa kaniya. "Did I heard it right? Before you even met my father?"

He briefly nods. His eyes straight forward, parang nag-iisip.

"So... you're my stalker even before then?"

"Yeah, you could say that,"

"Huh? How? Like how did you met me?"

This time he focused his eyes on me. It's less intense, he's looking at me like I'm the only woman living in the universe.

"Remember one time when you attended one of the business party? The event happened in your father's mansion?"

Tumango nang maalala ko. That one's a hell of a party. I can feel the pressure in my father's shoulder when he's talking with the businessman and businesswoman around Asia. Our guest before were the biggest tycoon around the Asia. Kasama rin naman kami roon, pero hindi mo pa rin mapigilan na hindi ma-pressure.

"I was guarding one of the tycoon. Leo Anton Sanchez to be exact. We were scattered around the area, because you know, if you were richer, he was richer,"

I nodded. He's right. He's one of a hell of businessman.

"And you were there sitting on the table. Like damn, you don't know how you look under the light. I feel like crunching every men who were gawking at you," he rolled his eyes after saying those words.

I chuckled.

"So, I decided to apply for the position, your butler. And I start to build this mansion, because there's no way in hell I'll lose you. You can call me insane, even crazy for that. But that's me and my love for you,"

He stepped closer to me and pulled me gently by my waist towards him. He kissed me on my forehead.

Hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko ngayon, hearing his confessions. I mean, yes, that's insane and ridiculous. But I'm starting to get scared on how dark it is. Like, it feels surreal. Sino ba naman kasing nasa matinong utak ang mag-iisip ng ganoon?

Well, I'm here now, might as well enjoy the moment until it last.

Lumayo siya ng bahagya sa akin, but he's still holding me by my waist. I smiled at him then tiptoed to gave a peck on his nose, he smiled back.

Mas matangkad kasi sa akin si Austin. I'm probably 5'7 and he's 6 foot and 2 inches tall. Hanggang baba niya lang ako.

"And one more thing, my love. We found out something about your mother,"

I stiffen. "What do you mean?"

"Can we get inside first? I don't think this is the place where we can talk about it," he sternly said.

I nodded then decided to go inside with him. Hindi ko napansin ang mga maid at butler na bumati sa amin. Diretso lang kami hanggang sa marating namin ang kwarto ko.

I'm tensed on what he is about to said. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nakakaramdam ako na parang may mali, na parang may hindi maganda ang kutob ko, hindi kay Austin, kundi kay Mommy.

I immediately see the folders resting above the bed. Wala iyong mga label. Plain lang na folder na may makakapal na papel sa loob.

Austin opened it, and I'm shocked on what's inside.

It's my Mom and Adrian. Adrian's wearing a blue cap. Kahit na hindi masiyadong kita ang mukha niya ay alam kong siya 'yon. I have memorized his features inside my head.

They are talking basing on the photos. There are three photos of them talking. And I don't know why.

"Why was she with Adrian? Ano... Bakit? I don't understand," I said.

I picked one photo and made sure na hindi ako nagkakamali, si Adrian talaga 'yon... and si Mommy.

"What the fuck is this?"

"We found this a day ago, after I... got you,"

But I think 'got' or 'get' is the right term. More like abduct.

"Paano mo 'to nakuha? Like, of course, your men, but why?" I said not looking at him, instead I'm looking at the photos, not believing that they are in front of me.

"I've been investigating Adrian Jade Fernando since I found out that he's the one who got you,"

I want to say that he didn't get me. He saved me from him. But I choose to keep my mouth shut.

"And, just a day ago, we found out that he's talking with your Mom about something we don't know... yet," he said.

I nodded. I put the pictures down the sheets then looked at him.

"We don't know yet, my love. But we'll found out soon," he gently said before stepping closer to me.

He caressed my hair. I sighed then lean my forehead on his chest. He snaked his arms around me before I felt him kissed the top of my head.

"We will find out, love. We will, okay?"

I nodded again, unable to form words because the information he gave me suddenly exhaust me.

I don't know. I'm feeling bad about this. Ang sabi ni Adrian ay hindi pa siya nakakakuha ng lead. Pero ano ito? Hindi ko maintindihan.

But I have to trust Austin. As he have said, we will find out... soon.