Small and big eyes
Brown to black eyes
White, brown, even fair complexions
Straight and to curly hairs
Diversity in one race

But why do I need to be your own model?
Why do I need to be noble?
Aren't ya desperate enough?

See, I ain't good enough
I ain't even great at your stereotype
I am on my own

She said, "Why you only got third?"
Well, this is my G spot, I might say
Why you bother for tapping it off?
Well, pardon my impropriety
Since my heart knows this only

He and She said, "Why bother in 99, when you are able to be in 100?"
Well, 99 is God's place
Can it be my own favorite spot too?
Sorry God, no disrespectful
Just put my words out of my mouth

You tried it
Compared me to other low-grade childs
So that could validate yourself
"See that kid can get first?"
"Why is it so hard to get first?"

I did it
I got your first
In my first grade of junior high school
But then I brushed it off
Just because I was depressed
You never know till this day
I got no friend
What I cared was your ambition
Even my attitude you will not interest

See, then I got eighth
You were mad like hell
Bombarded me with killing desire
Well, I planned to get ninth actually

I was scared
This got me insecure
Remember when I was second grade of elementary school?
Well, no need to remember
Knowing you will not recall it

I was scared like hell
You put me to bruises
Just because I knew nothing of my works
Were you that disappointed?
Was it better for me to disappear?
You painted me marks
And let people watch it
Were you proud of yourself?
If I knew what cursing was back then

Please don't do this again
I am Asian
I know
I am A-sian
I know
But I'm not your Asian
I can be your A on my own
I know you've changed
So, please change me to please myself
To be me
To be what I call human