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CHAPTER THIRTY SEVEN : "i hate you."

— doah pov.

taerae<333

babe
delivered

where are you
delivered

did you leave yesterday?
delivered

are you okay?
delivered

i'm really worried taerae please
answer me..
delivered

taerae have i done something?
delivered

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taerae<333

babe everyone is worried
delivered

please answer i beg you
delivered

even your parents don't know where
you are... where are you babe?
delivered

love?
delivered

please...
delivered

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taerae<333

taerae
delivered

it's been seven hours
delivered

please answer my calls
delivered

i just want to know if you're okay
seen

taerae?

what

are you okay?

meet me in 10 at the park
next to the campus.

oh okay
seen

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i panic and get up, causing renjun and donghyuck turn to me in worry. "did he reply?" renjun asks.

i nod. "can you drop me off at the park next to the campus?" i ask donghyuck.

he sighs and nods. "okay." he pats my head. "make sure to text me after."

i smile sadly at him and i follow them to donghyuck's car, that i actually forgot he got recently.

anyways, i sit anxiously in the back. it's been a whole day and i haven't seen him since the day he went missing i don't think it'll end out well.

hao had told us everything from what happened last night, from the 'drugging' to how he fell asleep on the sofa. i was still shocked at what he said, especially jungmin being.. nice. shocking, really.

i never knew how much something like that was even possible. i couldn't even believe it. sixteen university kids enjoying a birthday party could all go through this, from one sickly mother? and the fact apparently sunwoo was there too, broke me.

i still don't forgive jungmin, even if she was nice. and hao never opened her message that day either. she was horrible to me, really horrible. no matter what i'd still dislike her as much as i did from the beginning.

the thing with me is, no matter how much someone apologises, if they attempted to ruin my life then they're the worst. and if they attempted to ruin my brother's life, they are also the worst. she could be having some sort of weird character realisation but i won't be nice to her.

but with sunwoo, i don't even know.

and with taerae, i don't even know either. one day of not talking to him felt like years to me. it was weird and out of the ordinary, completely. i was wondering if i did something wrong that night or if i pissed him off.

we heard from gunwook that gyuvin and haerin somehow sorted things out too. it was all a misunderstanding apparently. i wish it was that easy to solve relationships these days.

but it's the fact he left that made me upset. he left when i started crying, he left before people got drugged and he never came back to check on us or even ask if we're okay.

i just want everything to be better for us, we only didn't talk for a day and i feel like he's just broken up with me and murdered my brother or something. i'm really hurt.

"we're here." renjun sings from the front. the ride was super quick which ruined my small amount of somewhat peace, besides the overthinking though, of course.

the anxiety i haven't felt in a while crept into my skin and mind as i struggle to even look out of the window. "i'm scared." i say.

donghyuck turns from the driver's seat and holds my right hand. "it won't be the worst. it's either about the bruise or the fact he got traumatised by his grudge-holding aunt." he smiles.

"that was the worst advice ever." renjun laughs. "doah, just tell him how you feel. you've done it before."

i sigh. "i.. okay." i open the car door and walk out straight away. i had to sort things out.

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— hao pov.

j

hey it's jungmin, so i just want
to tell you something

go on..

it's about sunwoo

tell me

you know the whole thing about
donghyuck and me drugging and
kissing him at that party? it was
obviously my plan but sunwoo had
some sort of involvement too

all i got told is that he let you in

i hate confessing this now but for
the past few weeks i've been texting
sunwoo almost everyday

are you dating him

💀💀 no that's not what i'm
trying to say

oh my bad, carry on

yeah i drugged him and then he
opened the door for me and shit
but with every other small thing
happening to doah, sunwoo was
also involved in including yesterday

explain further

u sound like a teacher

i kind of am

right anyway... i'm not saying this
to expose sunwoo but i think it's best
if you know and i can't tell taerae bc he
blocked me and i don't talk to doah but
he has a big part. he's the reason doah's
dad is back and doah's dad is not a good
person. not what everyone says he is

what happened with sunwoo's
mum and that whole family shenanigan?

i don't know everything but she
wanted to get back at doah, but
since she was at a party she asked
sunwoo and i to help only ruin

umm i heard her say something to you
about the 20 years ago thing

oh right that. no doah's dad didn't
drug her he just let her drink a whole
bottle of pure vodka and she went insane
from there, she wanted to get back at taerae's
dad so she slept with sunwoo's now known dad

so sunwoo was just a revenge plan?

that's what she told me yeah, but
it seems that she has a whole grudge
against that whole group. she thought
having doah and sunwoo date would help
her have a better relationship with her dad

girl how tf do you know all this

she told me. anyways, so since taerae and
doah are together she's using the fact
sunwoo liked her to get her revenge

she sound so childish i'm sorry

she is trust me. i can't say any more
but just know everything she's doing
is only from a grudge in the past

ohh okay thank you, do you want me
to tell them?

yeah but don't say you heard from me
i'll tell you more soon just wait

...okaayyy

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— doah pov
- 3rd person.

she notices him standing silently. his hair slightly messy, glasses, airpods in, a grey shirt and grey sweatpants. but she was in her pyjamas, looking like a mess (according to doah).

doah turns around and makes eye contact with donghyuck and renjun who send her a thumbs up. she looks down at her phone and she receives a message from her brother, even though he was right there. "call me if anything happens. we love you."

she smiles and looks up, waving at the two before turning around and finally walk towards taerae. doah was never nervous to talk to him these days, and she couldn't tell if he was sad or angry.

her smile fades as they make eye contact, his usual moon eyes, huge smile and dimples turned into dull eyes with no expression looking at her.

she clears her throat and walks towards him, when she finally reaches him she takes a breath and looks up at his face. "what's up? are you—"

"why did you never tell me about the bruise jungmin gave you?" he immediately says, his tone seeming angry.

well, that was unexpected for her.

"um, what?"

"you heard me. why did you not tell me doah?"

doah was taken aback. especially from his tone of voice. "how— how did you—?"

he sighs. "not what i'm bothered about. why didn't you tell me. do you not trust me?"

"i never said that." she deadpans.

"but it seems like it. you told me you would tell me everything about what she does to you." he says.

"i know but i didn't think it would be a big d—"

"doah." he says. "it is serious. i even asked you if she was, and you said no."

"you can't expect me to tell you everything, though. you have to understand that." she defends.

"i know that. but why do other people know besides me?"

doah's face turns into a frown. "i only told my brother..."

"but besides him, other people know."

"like who? i only ever told my brother."

"apparently sunwoo knew." he says, expression still not changing.

"i didn't tell him shit!" she scoffs.

taerae then scoffs. "well i wonder how he knows."

"well it's not me? i never told him about that."

"okay then." he says dryly. "but you lied to me."

doah was beyond appalled. "you know i didn't do it on purpose."

"okay, but about jungmin? she was physically harming you, and you only told donghyuck and he didn't do anything about it?"

"i told him not to. i didn't want anyone to worry about me—"

"doah i fucking care for you. so much. more than anyone, maybe not donghyuck yet but you not telling me makes me more worried." he begins to change emotion.

doah sighs. "okay i'm sorry for making you worry, but you need to know that jungmin threatened me."

"she's full of threats, and never acts on them. what did she tell you?"

"nothing.." she lies, then begins to change the subject. "but why did you run away yesterday?"

taerae's mouth goes dry. "after what jungmin did, i had to. i couldn't believe it."

doah's temper then suddenly started rising. "all of your friends got fucking drugged. i got drugged. and you didn't even bother coming back?"

taerae's eyes widen. "what?"

she scoffs. "sunwoo's mum drugged us with those cloths like kidnappers or whatever uses." she explains. "you left, taerae. we were all suffering. all of us."

he runs his hand through his hair in frustration. "i didn't know it was going to turn out like tha—"

"neither did i." she says, arms crossed. "but your ass leaves, knowing how bad things could happen?"

"for fucks sake doah i left because sunwoo left. he looked scared and i—"

"okay but your crazy aunt was out here breaking into the house too, along with jungmin." she cuts him off. "didn't you even think?"

"let me finish. i was scared for sunwoo, do you not know how much manipulation and pain he's been going through because of his mother?"

doah shakes her head. "no, but—"

"exactly. of course i'm going to be worried for my friends too but sunwoo worried me."

"okay." she says.

he sighs. "i didn't know about you guys getting drugged."

"no shit. you ignored our messages for 24 hours." she hisses.

"i was scared." he argues.

"and left me worrying to death?"

"you leave me worrying to death everyday. you're being hypocritical."

doah scowls, "me? not telling someone private worries doesn't even compare to not replying to a text message, multiple of them."

"exactly. it doesn't compare, doah. yours is way more serious."

"but why did you leave?" she says.

"why did you lie?"

"answer me first." she demands.

he sighs. "when i saw jungmin reveal that bruise, i couldn't." he explains. "it hurts to see that."

"she called you my abusive boyfriend and when it gets revealed you walk away? renjun even asked me if she was telling the truth." she scoffs.

taerae ended up being speechless. "i'm sorry.. i didn't think about that at the time."

"for fucks sake taerae you're confusing me. i just hate feeling like this."

"and i hate feeling like my girlfriend doesn't trust me. please just tell me why you lied to me." he says, eyes becoming glossy. "why?"

the subject change back to this hurt doah; she started to cry. for the first time in ages, she usually cries in situations like these.

"taerae you know i couldn't tell you so easily." doah cries, stepping closer to him.

he steps back. "i just don't understand why you're not telling me why."

doah chokes on a tear. "i can't— it's horrible."

he scoffs, "doah you promised me you'd tell me everything you're going through."

"i know i did and i'm sorry. i should've told you but i couldn't bring myself to—"

he cuts her off. "i understand it's not easy to open up and that's fine but why are you telling me so late? why did i have to find out from someone else who knew?"

"taerae listen—"

"i hate you." he spits. "just hurry up and tell me doah. i can't look at you knowing you lied to me for so long." his sudden change of demeanor scaring her a little.

"you— you don't mean that—" she says in shock, her mouth agape. "you don't hate me." she tries to walk towards him.

"i know i don't—" he mutters. "doah just— look— tell me." he says, now he was the one starting to cry, tears cascading rapidly down his face. "just tell me." he says again.

both of their tears forced out, and they started talking emotionally, completely different to their confusing half-argument earlier. this was when the two finally realised they should've just explained everything.

"i didn't tell you because someone had been texting me besides her, telling me to not tell anyone or they'd do things to my family." she explains. "i only told donghyuck. i don't know who told you but—"

"jungmin told me." he interrupts. "she told me she gave you the bruise— the bruises." he corrects.

her eyes widen. "you know? about the other ones?" her voice shakes.

"she told me. why wouldn't you tell me doah? i care for you so much." he cries.

doah managed to get closer to him again. "i'm sorry. i'm really sorry. i don't want to worry you, i don't want to see you sad or hate jungmin."

he holds her shaking hands. "how long has this been going on for?" he asks.

doah pauses, gulping before making teary eye contact with him. "since the start, really." she sobs. "since the time i knew i liked you."

he exhales. "that's been almost two months ago. when did it end?"

she pauses again. "maybe a few weeks ago."

"why does the bruise on your hip look so new?"

doah stops and only manages to stare at him with no words. "uhh..."

taerae looks at her, gripping her hands a bit harder. "doah?"

she stays silent, causing taerae's eyes to change into a softer, sympathetic look. "doah..wait.. who?"

she gulps. "my.. my d—"

taerae doesn't waste any time before he hugs her, leaving doah to start sobbing into his chest. "babe... i'm sorry."

"i'm sorry." was the only thing she could say. "i couldn't bring myself to tell you."

he sighs. "i'm so sorry for shouting at you.. i didn't really realise."

"it's okay, i guess. your points were pissing me off though." she jokes.

"we can sort it out doah, i'm really sorry. i was just angry. i didn't know about this. just please, tell me next time."

doah hugs him tighter and her tears dampen his shirt. "taerae.." she mumbles.

he releases the hug and looks at her wet face. "yeah? you okay?"

"i..... love you." she says shyly, looking away but still crying.

taerae was still crying yet he immediately brushes his fingers into her soft hair. "i love you too." he whispers, pulling her into a soft, emotional kiss. "please stay with me."

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sorry this is also messy, i'm exhausted and wrote this with a migraine

fun to know i convinced everyone they were breaking up this chapter LMAO

what if they break up next chap tho???😧