danιel
I'm at an appointment with dan. This is how I want to reveal this to him... but... the ultrasound isn't working and Dan is just on his phone.

"I'm sorry ma'am. You miscarried..." I hear.

"No... no!" I quietly protest.

"You... were pregnant?" Dan asks.

"Yeah... don't hurt me!" I cower.

"Stop I'm never hurting you! You say that all the time and you know I'm not going to hurt you."

"I can't help it Dan. You know what happened to me and obviously ptsd comes from that." I push his hands off of me.

"I know but I'd like you to not make me sound like a bad person." He snaps.

"I'm not... trying to... it's just reflex..."

"It makes me so sad when you say anything."

"If you are so upset about that then just leave!"

"Fine I will"

нoѕυн
we get to the hospital and after filling out papers and explaining symptoms I'm given an ultrasound.

"Sorry ma'am you miscarried... 20 weeks too.. must be rough..." the tech looks at my sympathetically.

"Wait... I was pregnant? I had no idea..." I look shocked.

"You didn't know..?" Hosuh questions.

"No... I had no clue that I even could be."

"I knew... you had a glow and were more tired than usual... and our baby... gone... I can't..." Hosuh covers his face.

"You knew and didn't tell me?" I gasp.

"I thought you knew!" He wipes tears away.

"Obviously not! I would have told you if I knew.... that really breaks my heart that you wouldn't tell me something like that..." I tear up.

"I thought you knew..." he shakes and his voice becomes soft.

"No... if you knew that you didn't stop me from regularly drinking. That's extremely harmful to embryos..." I hiss.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry I really thought you know..."

"Leave! I cant... believe this..." I cry extremely hard. Hosuh shakily leaves the room after hesitating to comfort me.

ѕтepнen
I couldn't let my dreams go of being in a movie and on tv or even having a real album! So I did what I thought was best... abortion.

I come home and Stephen has a big smile on his face. Something must have happened in one of his video games.

"Were you going to tell me?" Stephen holds up my pregnancy test... ohhh...

"No... because I'm not pregnant anymore...." I say cautiously.

"What do you mean?" He deflates.

"I got a job offer to be in a movie and tv show and someone wants to make an album with me... my dreams are finally coming true and then i found out I'm pregnant? I couldn't let my dreams go by because of a mistake." I defend.

"You still could have had your dream! (Y/n) my dream is to have a family and you just ruined it!" He shakes with tears.

"I'm sorry Stephen but you've never told me. And as much as I'd love to have a child with you. Not right now! I'm about to get to a whole new level." I raise my voice.

"You could have done both! CGI exists for a reason and it could hide your pregnant stomach. Do you ever think about anyone but yourself?" Stephens voice is loud and raw.

"Yes! I'm thinking about us. Right now if we had a child we'd have to move and neither of us have close to enough money to buy a bigger apartment or house and so these jobs would have gotten that. So sorry I seem selfish."

"I can't believe you (y/n).... you didn't even discuss this with me... that child was part me... and I would have liked to at least have a small fight for it to be kept..."

"It's my body Stephen. I want children but after these jobs! It's only five months and then we can try again." I rest my hands in his shoulders and smile.

"No! I can't be with you anymore because of that... knowing you did that to our kid..." Stephen shakes his head.

"So you're breaking up with me..." I step back with tears.

"No... yes I am... you want to continue with your career and I'd like to settle down with you... if you come to the same conclusion then I'll take you back if I'm still as in love with you..."

"I see... I'd argue that I do want to settle down but my big break just came... and I've been waiting since I was 18 for this..." I hug myself.

"I understand... I'll... see you around I guess..." Stephen sighs.

jay
I haven't found a good time to tell Jay... he's been busy recently and I don't want to bug him.. and I'm now slightly showing... it's surreal feeling.

"You've been staring at me for like an hour..." Jay looks at me weirdly.

"Sorry! I'm just thinking of a way to tell you something." I smile.

"Tell me what?" He squints concerned. I open my mouth to tell him but I feel the urge to go to the bathroom so I hurry over there to the bathroom and all I see is blood... so much blood...

"(Y/n)? Are you ok?" Jay comes inside and looks shocked at the scene.

"I need to go to the hospital..." I shakily say as I feel myself about to pass out. Jay helps me to the car and I pass out.

When I wake up jay is nowhere to be found but there's a note... it reads 'why didn't you tell me sooner? I can't be with someone who hides stuff from me. As much as I love you I can't stand this.'