The next day went pretty normal, went to school, had lessons, talked with the gang in the breaks, well mostly listened, then lessons again and after that you went home. Friday went similar, for one exception, Sam asked you to stay over for the weekend. Tucker wanted to join as well but Sam had an arm around your shoulder and told him that it would be girls weekend. He protested but Sam merely waved him off.

And so you ended up in Sam's room, your duffle bag in a corner while you sat on the bed looking at Sam who laid comfortably with a bowl of popcorn.

"You can relax you know?" she said as she eyed your tense features. It was a bit difficult to figure out what to do. When it was the four of you it was easy, just listening to their conversation and with Danny it was also quite easy since he.... Well you didn't really know why you were so comfortable with Danny. But alone, with a girl, it had never happened before and you didn't know what you should do. "I know..." you answered, "just never been alone with a girl".

Sam choked on a hand of popcorn and coughed before looking shocked at you. "You are gay?!" she questioned. You arched a brow, "No.... just never had any girl, or woman close... my mother has never been there for me and it was always me and my brother" you stated simply skipping the fact that there weren't many girls at the facility either. They didn't need to know about the facility or the fact that you never had any parents. Sam chuckled, "sorry, the way you said it made it sound as if you were crushing on me" she laughed. You gave a smile, "I have never fallen in love so don't worry about it" you said. Sam paused and looked suspiciously at you. "You have never fallen in love?" she questioned doubtfully. You were both at the age to be interested in boys, so Sam found it hard to believe that you had never fallen in love. "What about you?" you questioned, wanting to move the subject off yourself.

Immediately a blush appeared on Sam's cheeks as she cast her eyes to the side. "Yeah I have" she said sheepishly. You crossed your legs beneath you and looked at her, "want to talk or brag about it?" you questioned. She laughed nervously, "well, since we are both girls and such, I think I can tell you". "So you would have told Paulina?" you questioned. Sam's blush went away as a frown appeared, "heck no, I hope she chokes on her saliva. I meant that you are the first friend, that is a girl and that I can trust" she said but something flickered in her eyes.

Lies

You looked just as stoic as usual on the outside but inside you felt a flicker of confusion at the voice that spoke darkly in your mind, it had been quite a long time since it had uttered a sound again. "So, who is it?" you questioned, curious as to whom Sam had felt like she wasn't able to live without him, at least that was the explanation of love some books gave you. "It's Danny" she said looking away.

She is warning you

Something inside stung, like someone had a grasp on your heart. "(y/n)?" Sam questioned looking at you. You met her eyes with a smile, "must be nice to be in love" you said, pushing the uneasy feeling away. "It is nice, but it's also really frustrating since you easily get annoyed with other girls he looks at... not that that's with you" she hurriedly added.

Liar

"Really? That sounds annoying to feel". "Yeah, but in case of Paulina it is justified. Honestly I don't see what guys see in her" she huffed.

She is the icon of pretty, she has pheromones. Things you obviously miss

"Yeah, she may look beautiful according to the norm, but she has a personality so bad that even the devil didn't want it so he put it on earth" you agreed.

Every human has it

"I know right. Her lackeys aren't much better either, the jocks supporting her aren't helping either" she grunted annoyed. "She has muscle and beauty, now she only needs some brains since she obviously misses them" you huffed. Sam looked up and laughed, "exactly, some original personality would also add something they don't have".

You nodded in agreement, "they could use a year in a cave, maybe that will get their true selves out". "Don't even try, I think they would just come out of the cave even more pissed at people who are 'lesser' than them" Sam huffed. You shrugged and laid on your back, "isolation can do weird things with one personality" you said. Sam arched a brow, "how would you know?" "Internet" you stated dryly, even though you have been through it yourself. "You shouldn't believe everything on the internet" she said leaning back against her pillow. "True, but it seemed like a legit research" you hummed. "Did they use animals?" she questioned curiously. You shook your head, "it was a research performed in time of war, they used prisoners as test subjects" you stated grimly. "Wow, yeah...."

There was a long uncomfortable silence, deciding against breaking the tension you just closed your eyes and relaxed your body. "Back to the other subject, how do you know you love someone?" you questioned. There was another long silence before Sam answered. "You have a feeling of fluttering in your stomach I guess, you like it when you are near the other and with just little things they seem to brighten your mood" she explained thoughtfully. "That's a lot coming from a goth" you snorted. "Shut it" Sam hissed. Your hand shot up catching the pillow that was headed for your head. "Wow, your reflex is really good... you didn't even open your eyes" she said staring at you. Your eyes opened and looked at her.

Doubt, distrust, despicable being

"Do I?" you questioned playing dumb. "Yeah, normally you wouldn't catch something thrown at you when you don't see it" she stated crossing her arms. You sat up mirroring her position, "well I am not normal, neither are you, that's what makes us great" you huffed. There was a short, staring, silence before Sam broke and chuckled, "true, so want to watch a movie?" she questioned. You gave a nod and the rest of the night consisted out of movies and small talk, mostly Sam talking about stuff you listened to. Around 4 o'clock Sam had fallen asleep and you had shut off the tv and taken a seat on the spare bed which was laid out for you next to Sam's. A sigh rolled over your lips as you stared into the darkness of the room.

'Feeling fluttery, wanting to be close to the other.... Sounds awfully familiar, I should ask Luciel.... What am I thinking, Luciel understands the concept of love just as much as me' a smile crept on your lips, your eyes glinting in the little light penetrating through the curtains from the stars outside. 'Don't be ridiculous you don't. Love him? No, maybe not, or maybe you do. Either way, it has no benefits.

Love isn't about benefits.. but what is it then?'

You thought deeply, the minutes passing one after another. 'Love should feel wonderful at start, but later on it will give problems. That's what movies taught me. However, books say that humans are addicted to love because it is like a drug, and only a select few humans are able to attain happiness by finding the right partner that makes their life a whole. Or something like that' your hand reached up to your head while a pounding feeling went through your veins. The fear of a night terror crossed your mind but was dismissed considering it only happened when you were sleeping. 'No sleeping tonight then' you concluded and got up without a sound. Quietly your feet brought you before the window. In a swift movement the curtains were at your back while your eyes focused on the clear night sky.

'A beautiful night to fly' the thought popped into your head. Your eyes slid to the sleeping figure in the bed. You shook your head and turned back to look at the night. 'Not smart to do so'.