Angers a secondary emotion, it comes with sadness. With hurt.

It didn't feel secondary as it enveloped my entire being. John was wheeled away. I was left there helpless. Blood, holes in the wall, shattered glass and bend chairs. The police wouldn't let anyone leave the building. I was stuck sitting in the horrific room for hours. Lafayette and Hercules sat next to me the whole time. There weren't any words shared between us. The trauma was setting in. The horrors we'd never live down, never be able to fully escape, it was sticking in the brain.

The way John turned. The papers he was clutching. The way his eyes silently begged me to help. How his body fell limp.

I cried the whole time I waited to be let free. I wanted to get to the hospital. I had demanded helplessly to know what hospital they had taken the injured people too. I asked at least ten times over the first responders and they were fed up.

It had been hours when we were finally allowed to leave. Hercules decided it was best for him to drive me to the hospitals because how hysterical I was reacting to what I saw. Neither him or Laf had see the ground-shaking look on his face. They didn't see the way he fell. The blood pouring ut of him. The look on the gun-mans face just before he was about to shoot.

The memories. The constant images flashing through my head, taunting me constantly.

(maybe i'll come revisit this later 😋)

"No!" I heard myself scream. I didn't hear anything else, only my voice, I felt my knees hit the floor, I felt myself touch John's face; I don't remember doing any of this. It was all in a haze. My head was pounding, heart racing, palms sweaty.

The police came in and took the gun from the man. It was one of my classmates, Charles lee.

Charles lee.

I could kill him with my bear hands. I look at John's he was shot in the side, I was hoping-no praying-that he was going to be alright.

"I'll be right back," I say, "Lafayette, Herc can you watch him I have some unfinished business." I get a nod in confirmation and let go of John's hand.

The police are holding back Charles.

"Kid stand back!" The police man yells at me.

I don't listen, I walk closer and closer till I am face to face with Charles.

"You shot him!" I yell but he has a smirk on his face.

I clenched my fists. The police had been to focused on catching him that they didn't even realize someone had been shot.

"Shot who?" The police man handcuffs Charles and lets him go. He rushed over to Laf and Herc, and John.

There was a police man at the door, and either way there was no point in Charles trying to escape even if he wanted to.

"Son! Are you alright?" I police man ran to John, this filled me with rage, even more then I had before.

"You effing shot him!" I punch him in the stomach. I wish I was stronger, I wish I was able to hit him harder but I couldn't

"Argh!" Charles can't do anything with his hands bound behind his back, and falls to the ground hitting his head hard. I slap him a few times before a police officer has to pry me off of him.

"He shot him!" I yell kicking. I was small enough for the police man to lift me up off of him.

He puts me down in the corner so that I can cool off.

The ambulance shows up, and I remember. I shouldn't of forgotten him. I ran over to the paramedics that lift his small figure up onto the wheeled stretcher, and start to take him away but I climb into the ambulance with them.

He looks like he is barely conscious at this point

"Sir, we are going to have to ask you to leave," They said.'

I need a lie and fast but what can I say? I'm his brother maybe, no they would never believe that, his curly chocolate brown hair with the slightest hint of red, and his tanned skin, compared to me with not tanned skin and very, very dark hair. Then I got the though.

"I-I'm his boyfriend!" I say. The doctors look at me in a strange manner then they close the doors.

They were working on him, the ride to the hospital was fifteen minutes but it felt like it was fifteen hours, each second was agony seeing the pain in John's face or hearing his pain; His groans as the doctors work on him.

"He needs medicine,"

"He needs to go into surgery,"

"We need to go faster to save him,"

"He is losing too much blood,"

"Were loosing him,"

I heard everything but ignored it all, I was praying to God in the moment. I was praying that he would spare John's soul.

When we make it into the hospital they rush him into emergency surgery. I am forced to stay out in the waiting room for however long it took.

I took out my phone, but before I could even send the text she called me right away.

"Where are you? Laf and Herc were wondering the same thing when I called you and you didn't respond so I called them. I was notified by the school. I wish I was able to come to you but your collage is too far way,"

"That kid, he was taken to jail right?" I ask not caring about what she asked me.

"Yes, where are you?"

"I'm at the hospital, John was shot..." I say, feeling myself get all anxious again.

"Oh my, that's terrible, Is he alright?"

I open my mouth to respond but instead Laf and Herc come into the room.

"I don't know right now, I have to go I'll call you later," I hang up on her and get up out of the chair.

"How long has it been?" I ask, my muscles ache from getting up.

"Like two hours since you have left," I can't believe that. I check the time on my phone and it is already four.

"Hows John?"

"I don't know..." there is an awkward silence between the three of us. This was strange, we normally never had awkward silences.

The doors open on the other side of the room, and I see the doctor come out, "Are you Alexander Hamilton?" He asks me.

I feel all of the color that I had in my face leave. He didn't look like he was about to tell me good news.

I turn to Laf and Herc and they both sense the vibes he was giving off.

"Yes," I say, I didn't want to hear what he had to say, I wanted to cover my ears, to disappear.

"I am so sorry for your loss..."

Oh my god, even though I wrote this its still really sad! Poor John, and even poorer Alex, but don't worry I have a plan and it is going to be lams love story even though it seemed like it may not be possible!

Thank you so much for reading! I will update again today actually because I have nothing else to do!

~Author