Laf stayed with me the night. He brought a pillow and blanket and slept on the floor.

It helped some. But not much. I was hoping that I would see John in my dreams tonight, but they were blank.  I couldn't form anything in my mind.  I was hoping I would at least get to see him in my nightmares.

But no.  There was nothing.  

In the morning though, I wake up.  I look to the foot of my bed, the blankets bunched up at my feet, and see him.

But he was there.  Not as the faded person I saw before in the hall and in the park.  He was there physically.  Not mentally.

This startles me.  I don't know why, but he was dead.  He shouldn't be standing right there in front of me.  No, that wasn't logically possible.

"Alex," John starts.

"I. . . you. . ." I couldn't form words.  Nothing made sense.  I wanted to pinch myself, but at the same time if I did and this was all a dream I wouldn't want it to end.  I didn't want to know if this was a dream at all. 

It couldn't all be a dream.  Those tricks.  John playing tricks on me.  I would kill him.  Again.  But I wouldn't have it in me.  I would break down and die myself.  I wouldn't be able to move forward if he was playing tricks on me.

"Come. . ." he whispers to me.  I do, I follow him out the door of my room.  I hesitate when I get to the doorway looking back at Laf on the floor. 

We won't be go forever.  I roll my eyes.  It's not like I was leaving forever.

I follow him the door of our apartment and don't feel any regret.  He lead me outside.  I was still only in my pajamas, but its not like I was half naked.  I was wearing sweatpants and a black shirt.  Although it was really cold outside today.  I wrapped my arms around myself looking around.

Everything was the same.  The distorted stop sign teens though was fun to mess with.  The flower store with the closed sign.  The bar right across the street.

I watched as John walked further and further away from me.  He wasn't waiting.  He knew that I was going to follow him either way, and he knew that.  Thats why he kept walking.

I followed him the park.  We stopped by a tree.

"Alex," He started.  There were tears in his eyes. "I know you know this, but I love you.  I really   do-" He started but I cut him off.  I didn't care if this was a ghost or a dream it was John and that was enough.  I kissed him.  Kissed him passionately, softly, longingly.  It didn't even take him a second to think about what was happening.  He kissed me back.

There was no one out on the streets.  We were all alone, and I kissed him.  He took a few steps back and I followed him not breaking our kiss.  He fell back into a tree and I fell with him.  We kissed for what felt like forever.  And I wanted our kiss to go beyond forever.  We melted together, we held each other.

I cried though.  I cried and cried and cried.

Sorry this took so long to get out!

Only like two more chapters!  Wow!

Thanks for reading!

~Author