We all have some greatest fear. 

Some of us are seen as strong,

Seen as fearless

But that's all a lie.

We hurt.

We're just as clueless as the rest,

Perhaps much, much more.

But God, God I want to be strong

And face these fears of mine.

The only wall in my way

Is myself.

The self I do not want to return to.

The self that is just so...

Dark.

She's not me.

But she still haunts

And she grows.

Darker and darker.

Her skin turn a grayish color.

God...the things that she is!

A monster!

She's a monster and sadly

She's me.

She scares me Lord...

And stupidly I keep letting her.

I keep letting her grow with this fear inside

Keep letting her whisper,

The enemy used my greatest fears

He used me.

God Almighty in Heaven!

I Belong to You Yahweh!

I am no longer that girl

You told me so!

I am not growing darker

But you are making me brighter.

Surely You will see me through this,

You promised me that I will not be alone Jesus.

You gave me Your word God

And I will believe that despite the feelings 

That brew inside of me.

You promised that the enemy can't touch me.

That he won't be able to separate us.

Won't be able to pull me away from You.

I just need to look at You,

Go around that thing,

And continue on my journey to You.

Love always wins out.

In movies and books,

You are love

Love will win.

I just need to breath,

Look up at You,

And walk around 

And walk away

From me.