A/N: Trigger alert. If you are triggered by anything don't read this book, it has a lot of references and scenes to do with self harm / suicide. If you are suicidal or self harm please get the proper help while it's a small problem, it will just get worse if you don't. Stay strong fireflakes xx

Robin's POV

Everybody looks at Alice in shock, even me and Raven who only thought she has a mental illness like depression. It does explain why she was wearing a straight jacket in a padded cell and why I seen her take all that medication but I normally consider insane to be the Joker, not Alice, I guess she's only been with me for a few hours though so she could just be hiding her insanity. We'll see.

"Dude..." Beastboy says unable to find words and Alice hugs herself.

"I guess you want me to explain." She says.

"We are your new team, you don't need to hide from us." I tell her and she nods.

"Ok then" she looks at us with a small smile but it's one of sadness, not the happy type of smile I so desperately want to see, "It all started when I was 10 At the time my hair was blonde and all I wanted to do was make people happy. Everyone loved me and I was happy too." She starts then tears up.

I look at her to say she can stop but she pushes herself and continues, "My dad was a drinker as was my mom and when I'd go home they'd ignore me because they didn't like me, I wanted to show them me though so after weeks of convincing I got them to see one of my dance classes. I was heading to my dance class with them when some guy popped out of nowhere, he shot them both a-and t-they used their dying breaths to t-tell me it was m-my f-fault." She says then a tear rolls down her cheek.

She wipes away the tear and hugs her knees, "I became depressed and started getting nightmares of that flashback where they blamed me, all I wanted to do was make them see me but instead I got them killed. I changed my look and a year later went back to school and nobody liked me anymore, I couldn't smile and I always cried. Everybody knew about my parents death and they- they laughed at me and told me to kill myself so that day I went back to my orphanage and attempted suicide." She says looking down at her wrist that is currently covered up with a long sleeve.

"They took me to a mental hospital and a doctor gave me medication, I was let out a month later then everyone at school bullied me more and said I couldn't even kill myself right so every night I'd cut myself then cry myself to sleep. One day I cut too deep again and I was sent to the mental hospital you took me out of. They didn't let me out and all I wanted to do was die so I tried anything I could to get out and eventually they put me in a straight jacket and locked me in that cell you took me out of. Those years I was in there alone with only my thoughts, they turned me insane, the voices." She finishes looking up at the team.

Alice's POV

I look up at the team and Robin is looking at me with lots of concern, Raven has a blank expression with her lips slightly parted, Cyborg is looking at me with sympathy, Beastboy is close to tears and Starfire is actually crying.

"I really didn't want to tell you but it would of came up sooner or later. I was hoping later." I say and Starfire hugs me and cries into me.

"I am so sorry friend Alice!" She says and I look at Robin with tears in my eyes but I hold them back.

Starfire lets go then looks at us sadly, "I must go wipe the eyes and wash the face in the room of bath." Starfire says then flies away and Robin looks at means he hugs me just before I break down and I burst into tears.

"Hey don't cry." He says and I try to stop bit can't.

"I-I'm sorry for being weak." I apologise.

Beastboy shakes his head, "you're the strongest person I know, I didn't think I person could go through that and still be alive." He says and Robin nods.

"You are very strong, you'll be great on the team." He Robin says and I break up the hug and wipe my tears away.

The doorbell rings and Raven nods, "I'll get it, Cyborg help" she says and the two go off and come back with pizzas and Starfire walks back in happy again. I wish I could just get over things like her and be happy again that easily.

Robin opens his pizza box and looks at me, "You said you'd eat at least a slice." He reminds me before I can decline the offer and I sigh picking up a piece of pizza and he watches as I eat it and he eats the rest. I forgot how good pizza was.