Hidden Secrets

When you hide,

I feel like dying.

But show yourself,

It won't make things better,

Only more painful.

I've hurt you,

In more ways,

Than you could know.

Only I aloud myself,

To suffer the worse.

Don't you need,

To suffer,

Over a hopeless nobody.

If I could reverse time,

When I didn't exist in your eyes,

I would.

I hid things from you,

Terrible things,

Things too dark to even spell.

You make me stronger,

Which only kills me more.

The secrets are too much,

Too handle,

Right now.

I've been given a chance,

A chance to make it,

Alright for you.

By reversing time,

You ever spent with hopeless I.

But I was a dream,

I woke up back to numb.

I isolated myself,

From you.

You don't deserve me,

My hidden secrets,

Are too much.

Even for me.

It kills me,

You kill me.

It kills me physically,

You kill me emotionally,

I lose.

My love,

I have cancer.