A Barrier

It's not just any old thing,

It's the barrier that separates,

Me from you.

Staring up at its cold metal rails,

Feeling a coldness form from inside.

It scares me how much I want to get to you,

To claw my way.

Breaking my bloody fingers raw,

By scraping and scratching.

Feeling the sobs shutter through my empty body,

As I think about all the times,

I've suffered.

From you I've suffered,

But it just makes me want more.

I'm addicted to the feeling that you give me,

It makes me feel alive again.

I feel immortal with you near me,

But you make me weak.

You're my hallucination.

You make me think I'm things,

That I am not.

I'm addicted to you,

But my addiction only kills me,

Painfully,

Till I only feel a slight pang.

The barrier separating me from you,

Is the only thing keeping me still.

Still alive.

No matter we you go,

Where you hide.

You can't run from the truth deep down,

Inside.