"Hey Harlow, it's Namjoon. Give me a call if you get this message, we gotta talk about something."

I yawn as I nod to myself. Namjoon called while I was napping, so I missed the call. He texted me too.

Namjoon:
Hey, don't worry about coming over in a few days. Ji is taking time off work so you won't be needed. Will call you when we next need you.

I frown as I read the message. Something isn't right with this. I call Namjoon back, but get no answer. I don't leave a message, but I send a text back.

Me:
Oh, okay. If anything changes let me know. Hug the kids for me.

I look around, confused. This came out of nowhere and it's weird. But it's Namjoon. I trust him, so I'll let it go.

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His lips trail down my neck, shivers taking over my body. What the hell is happening? What are we doing?

"Wait, Namjoon." I breathe out, barely above a whisper. "W-we can't. I want to, but no. We can't do this. What about Jiwon?"

"What about her? We're separated and filing." He continues his kisses and I try pushing him away, failing miserably because I genuinely don't want him to stop. I want this so bad.

I finally shake my head, gaining the composure to add some separation between us. "No. This isn't right! This is just wrong. Jiwon is your wife and I watch your kids-"

He just chuckles. "It's fine. Jiwon isn't in the picture anymore. Romantically, that is. We've just fallen out of love with each other."

"I'm sorry." I look down at my feet, Namjoon placing two fingers under my chin to lift my head up.

"I'm not." He says in almost a growl, and I almost lose it. "It was coming. We both felt it, but didn't want to admit it. We finally came to terms and are deciding to end it. Honestly, this is what works best for us and we have an understanding."

"You really don't want to work things out with her?"

"No." He deadpans.

I'm truly lost for words. I had no idea that they had such a tumultuous relationship. I truly hope this isn't because of me. Because of me falling for Namjoon. Because of Namjoon falling for me. This isn't right. Nothing about this is. But why does everything that's so wrong always feel so right?

"Let me love your body." Namjoon continues, closing the gap in between us as his lips lightly ghost over mine. "Every single inch of your sexy, chocolate skin. Let me have you, Harlow. Let me be the dilf you were talking about in your sleep."

My alarm goes off and I throw my phone onto the floor. Ever since Namjoon texted me that they don't need me for a while, I've been having rather explicit dreams about him. I can admit that I do have a crush on him, but I would never act on them. I just wish my dreams would get the fucking memo.

It's been 3 weeks now and I haven't been to the Kim's home. It feels so weird not seeing the kids for that long. It seems as if I've been fired, but not really. This whole situation just feels odd. I miss the kids, and I miss Namjoon.

And then it dawns on me: fucking Jiwon. She has something to do with this shit. I hop off my couch and slide my flip flops on, grabbing my purse and keys from the table. I'm in my car in no time, headed to Namjoon's cooperation. I find a park then make my way inside.

As I approach the front desk, the secretary smiles at me. "Good afternoon. What may I assist you with?"

"I'm here to see CEO Kim. Is he available?"

"May I ask who you are?"

"I'm his kid's nanny."

She nods as she looks on her computer. "It looks like Mr. Kim left early today. But Mrs. Kim is here."

"Oh, no thank you. I needed Mr. Kim. Thank you anyway."

I now make my next mission simple. I just need to go to their home. Namjoon is there with the kids. I could've been there with the kids while he was at work. I miss them so much.

As I pull up to their home, I see the kids playing in the front yard and Namjoon sitting on the stairs watching them with a smile. His eyes slightly widen as he sees my car and the kids are already bolting toward me when I get out. I get down on their level and embrace them graciously. I missed them so much. I know Jiwon has something to do with me not being here.

"Harley, we missed you!" Jin says, cheesing very hard. "I even lost a tooth!"

I gasp, examining her small mouth. "Well, oh my goodness! Did you leave it under the pillow for the tooth fairy?"

"Uh, no. I gave it to daddy and he gave me a dollar."

I can't stop laughing at her. She's too technical for her age. Jae doesn't care about the conversation at all as he's clung onto me, not letting go. I'm able to pick him up as I rub his back and head toward Namjoon. He gives me a small smile and a nod. I put his son down and ask him to play with his sister so I can talk to him.

I take the spot next to Namjoon on the stairs and huff. "Decided today was a kid's day?"

Namjoon shrugs his shoulders. "Kind of had to with no one to watch them."

I frown at him. Hello!? What am I the nanny for? "Namjoon, why didn't you call me? This is my job."

And now it's Namjoon's turn to frown. "You have another job and didn't tell me, Harlow. We could've worked it out instead of you not telling me."

"Another job? You texted me and told me you didn't need me over for a while and that you'd let me know when."

"I knew it wasn't right. I knew it." Namjoon mutters to himself. I know he's thinking the same thing as me. "I should've called you again. I didn't text you that."

I nod, the pieces all coming together to one person. "And I don't have another job. Why would Jiwon tell you that? And how was it believable?"

Namjoon sighs, intertwining his fingers with each other. "You know I'm always trying to be a good husband. I want to believe my wife. But I knew inside that she was lying to me. You and I know each other and respect each other enough to tell these things."

"I'm irritated now. Namjoon, that's almost a month of pay I'm not getting. And I haven't been able to see you or the kids. I look forward to my days here."

"I know you do. Trust me, I do." He nods in agreement, looking me in my eyes. "I wonder why Jiwon would do that."

"I have an idea." I say, looking at him right back.

"Oh?"

Before I'm able to say anything, Jiwon is pulling into the driveway and getting out of her car. Her eyes hold a hint of embarrassment as I look at her with a narrow gaze. I know what she's trying to do. She's trying to get rid of me because of my knowledge of her double life. It isn't going to work and I'm going to ensure that Namjoon doesn't get hurt any further.

"Harlow, hi." Jiwon greets me. "What are you doing here?"

"This is my job." I respond coldly. "You know this."

She looks at Namjoon as if waiting on him to answer for me speaking to her the way I did, but he says nothing. Instead, his eyes are fixed on my glare toward his wife.

"Where is this tension arising from?" Namjoon asks curiously. "Harley, you're not like this."

"I'm not." I agree with him. "Let's ask your wife."

Jiwon's face holds fear, but I couldn't care less. She is hurting this family little by little the more she holds out on them. Without a word, she's racing back to her car. She starts it and leaves without once speaking to her children. The kids watch as their mother speeds down the street, confused. My heart hurts for them. It's so confusing for them to be this detached from the woman who brought them into this world.

My attention goes back to Namjoon, who has a gaze on me that I've never seen before. His eyes look a bit glossy until he blinks it away. The expression on his face is one of defeat. I don't know what to say to him, but he begins speaking to save me from thinking about it.

"Kids, go inside and find something to watch on TV." The children run over, hugging me before going into the house. It's just nature between Namjoon and I now. The birds chirping is the only thing giving us sound until he speaks again. "I don't know what to do."

"What do you mean?"

"I've been thinking alot about you the past few weeks. I know you wouldn't have quit cold turkey. And I was wondering why you didn't contact me."

"Your wife sent the message." I say as a statement.

Namjoon sighs. "Harlow, Ji is cheating on me."

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Hi! Okay, so I kept writing & writing & felt this got too long so everything else will be in the next chapter lol. And you peep the dream? Yeah I know. I'm a tease lol. There's gonna be smut in here soon, don't you worry! Thank you for reading 💕

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