Namjoon's POV

"Happy father's day, daddy!" Soojin and Jaesun yell in my face as they start bouncing on my bed.

I groan as I rub my eyes, sitting up and blinking to see my two overly energetic children at 8 a.m. bouncing. They giggle and I smile sleepily at them. It may be early on a Sunday morning, but I wouldn't trade this moment for anything in the world.

"Thank you. Why are you two up so early?"

"We wanted to wish you that before anyone else." Soojin states, matter of factly.

"Is that so?" I yawn, stretching my arms up. "Then you have accomplished just that. What should we do today?"

"We gotta go have fun, daddy!" Jaesun says excitedly. "Go to the playground!"

"I think I'm too big for the playground." I laugh. "Let's go out for lunch, then Harly can come over later if she's not busy so daddy can go out. Sound good?"

"Yup." Jin nods. "You gotta brush your teeth, daddy. It's kinda stinky."

I fake gasp. "Rude, but you're right. Go make your beds and then we'll get breakfast."

The kids run out and I have a moment to myself. Going out sounds so peaceful, especially since I plan on just going on a bike ride around downtown. With everything that's been going on recently, taking some time to just enjoy what's good in my life is just what I need.

I check my phone to see a text message that was sent about 5 minutes ago. It's Harlow, wishing me a happy father's day. My heart flutters, a feeling I haven't felt in a very long time. All over three words and a smiley face. I've come to the point where I can openly admit my feelings for her. I know that she is someone I want to pursue. I just hope I haven't fumbled my opportunity with her.

I quickly give her a call, not sure why my heart rate has increased so much. She answers, her voice so sweet and laced with sleep. "Hello?"

"Hi, good morning. I hope I didn't wake you." I start.

"No, it's fine. Good morning. Happy father's day."

"Thank you. I really appreciate it."

"What's up?"

"Um, if you aren't busy tonight, could you sit with the kids for a bit? I wanted to go out, get some fresh air."

"Of course. I'm not busy. My dad and I are going out for dinner around 4. What time do you need me?"

I let out a sigh of relief before speaking. "Maybe 6, 6:30?"

"Sounds good. See you then."

We end the call and I get out of bed to get myself cleaned up. I shower and dress comfortably. It's a Sunday and I'm not doing much. Going downstairs, I go into the kitchen where the kids have taken out some items for me to make breakfast. I smile, having them hand me different ingredients as we make our meal together. The entirety of our cooking is me taking in my children. This day is really made for me. This day is really everything I've wanted in life. I'm a father to 2 amazing kids, and honestly, it couldn't get any better than that.

After we cook and eat, the kids run upstairs as I clean the kitchen. They're up there for a little bit before they come back downstairs and Soojin is shushing Jaesun. I turn around to see them with their hands behind their backs. They're smiles are big as they giggle.

I dry my wet hands, raising my eyebrow. "Whatcha got behind your backs, hm?"

They show me, and my heart swells as I see the pictures they've made for me. Jaesun can't wait to shove them in my hands. "We made these at school, daddy!"

"I love them, buddy. Let me look at them."

Jae's is his handprint inside of a bigger handprint, that's supposed to represent mine. It says "I love you daddy" around it and he's made it colorful. Soojin gives me hers, and it's 4 people that she has drawn, and it says "I love you, you're the best daddy ever" in her handwriting. I see myself, her, her brother, and a figure that is clearly not her mother.

"Is this?" I point to the fourth figure.

She nods. "That's Harly."

I don't know what to say, so I just smile, taking the pictures and putting them on the fridge. "I love them. And I love you. Thank you so much. Go play for a little bit, okay?"

They both nod and run out of the kitchen. I sigh to myself as I look at the picture Jin made. She put Harlow instead of her mother. My heart pounds incredibly fast as I can't take my eyes off it. I'm falling more for her, and it's happening very quickly. I have to do something about this.

I grab my phone from my back pocket, scrolling until I find the phone number I want. I slide over on the contact and it begins to ring. I'm thankful when they answer, speaking in Korean. "Hello?"

"Baek."

"Joon?" My brother says in a sleepy voice, yawning. "You know it's getting late over here. Is everything okay?"

"Yeah, everything is fine, just needed to talk. It's only 11pm. You must've had a long day."

"You have no idea." He groans. "What's up?"

"It's about Harlow."

"Who is that?" I hear his wife saying in the background.

"My brother. I'll go in the next room." He replies to her, and I hear shuffling as I assume he's leaving the room. "Sorry. Okay, so what about Harlow?"

"I want her."

Baekhyun chuckles softly. "So, you've figured it out. I knew this was coming sooner or later. Well, what are you waiting for?"

"She's got somebody."

It's silent for a few seconds before he speaks again. "Do you love her?"

I take a moment to reflect on his question before I answer. "I think I do."

"Wrong answer." I'm taken back by his response.

"What?"

"When you love someone, there isn't anything to think about. You either love her, or you don't."

"I'm falling for her, and fast."

"Then you are falling in love with her. Just say that. You know, so there's no thinking involved."

I nod. He's right. The moment I can say the word "love" to her is the moment I know I'll be able to win her over.

"Tell her everything you feel. I know you, Namjoon. You'll hold onto it until it's too late. You say she has someone, so you need to hustle. You need to let her know before she's too far gone. Don't break 2 hearts. You owe her that much for leading her on in the beginning."

"You're right." I sigh, agreeing with him. "Thank you. I'll let you get some rest."

"Okay. I'll see you in a few weeks. Have a good day."

"See you. Have a good night."

The line goes dead and my phone ends the call. He's right. In the beginning, I was confused, and took her for granted. I did some things that lead her to believe that we'd be more, when at that time, I just wanted to feel someone there. Because that's what I was used to. That's different now. I want her because I need her. She's been there for me in the roughest time of my life, and I want to show just how much I appreciate her. I want to show her how I can love her because that's what she deserves.

I smile at myself as I think back on my brother's words. When you love someone, there isn't anything to think about. He's absolutely right, and I'm done thinking. As I stare at the picture on the fridge, the answer is solidified. My mind is made up, & I take pride in my feelings. I want to shout it from the rooftops as loudly as I can. I want to call Harlow mine, and mine alone. Because she has my heart. I love her.

I am in love with Harlow.

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Hiiiii! Omg, this was supposed to be updated on Namjoon's birthday but with working 2 jobs & doing online classes for college, I had no time to update. I really am sorry for that. I hope this makes up for it! I'm also sorry that it's kind of a short chapter.

But on the bright side! Namjoon has finally confessed how he really feels to himself. That is the first step to fully confessing to Harlow. And I'm so ready for him to tell her! Are you? This story is going to be ending in a few more chapters, and honestly, I could cry. Like my story 'Virgin', this has become my baby. I hate to say its the end coming, but all good things have to come to an end. And I promise to make the ending worth all the wait! 

I also have to take the time to thank each & every one of you for getting this over 100k reads! I can't believe that something I produced is getting so much love & support. You really do mean the world to me & I love you so so so much!!!! I will try my best to have another update for you all soon!!! Thank you so much again! ❤❤

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