sry for the v late update ):

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Later that night, Jungkook found himself sitting on the bed, staring at the wall. Lyza was still in the bathroom, getting ready for bed.

A wedding. A fucking engagement ring laid in the drawer of his nightstand next to their bed. It's not like getting a dog, or booking couple vacation, no this was a fucking bond for life he was supposed to be pressured into with a girl he didn't love.
Lyza wasn't a bad choice, she was pretty, incredibly nice and probably one of the best wives the world had to offer.

Even though Jungkook sucked at being a boyfriend, she always tried her best not to show her disappointment in him and this relationship. For Taejeon's sake, she kept her mouth shut and the smile basically glued to her lips. If anyone was strong in all of this, then it would be her.

And of course Jungkook planned on marrying her, someday. That's what people expected from them, a young couple raising a kid - at some point they just had to. But it seemed so unreal, so far away; until this very day.
It became dangerously real this evening and Jungkook felt like crying.

The worst of all was that he had no one to talk to, Lyza could obviously not know about this. And Taehyung? Well. Jungkook didn't feel like telling especially him that he was going to marry someone else, when all he wanted the past few days was to be cuddled up to his best friend, receiving kisses and touches.

He couldn't tell him.
Or should he?

"Kook", Lyza ripped him out of his thoughts as she sat down on the bed, wearing nothing but a tiny nightdress. "You're awfully quiet since my father talked to you. Are you sure you're okay? I know he can be harsh sometimes, especially on you", she said worriedly and reached for his hand.
Jungkook nodded, "Sure. I'm fine", he said, eyes shifting anywhere but her eyes.

"You don't look fine", she spoke softly.

"Then stop looking!", Jungkook snapped and pulled his hand back, turning away.
She let out a sigh, grabbed the blanket and sat down next to him. "Let's talk", she hummed.

Jungkook shook his head, "Why? I'd rather not."

"Jungkook", she groaned, "This isn't going to last if we won't stop being like this. I know there's someone else, I know you'd rather be with her right now. Please, just talk to me, tell me what I'm doing wrong. I'm doing everything I can, I let you go out with Tae all the time, I work, I take care of Taejeon as much as I can. I just don't know what I do wrong yet I'm sure you already would've left me if it wasn't for Taejeon that you're staying. Is it because I gained weight? Am I not pretty enough anymore? Is it because we barely have sex? W-we could try. Taejeon's with Tae- we have the house to ourselves. Just tell me what I need to do to get this right, Kook. I love you", she quickly looked away, blinking the tears away that built up.

Jungkook gulped.

"I love you too".. I'm just not in love with you anymore

"You're pretty, you're not too fat.".. I'm just more attracted to my best friend a little more

"There's no other girl".. Because there's a boy

Lyza covered her face, feeling like she was about to break into tears every moment. "I'm so sorry Lyza, I'll try to be better. It's not your fault, you're perfect. I'm just not. EVERYTHING about me is so fucking wrong and I don't understand it and I'm so sorry I got you pregnant. You deserve so much better."

The girl looked at him for a while, trying to process what he said. "Nothing's wrong about you."

With that she shyly got on his lap, put her hands at his cheeks and they shared a long look. "Maybe it's just one of those bad times a couple has to go through to come out stronger", she hummed before she softly placed her lips onto his and they melted into a kiss.
Jungkook shut his eyes, a little hesitant at first. This felt wrong. He should be kissing Taehyung, not her.

But just having Taehyung's face in mind made him melt into the kiss, letting out a whimper. Lyza was a bit confused at this but she tried to ignore it. Her hands traveling beneath his shirt, pulling it over his head while he grabbed her dress and pulled it off as well.

The couple continued kissing, Lyza on top and Jungkook with his eyes closed. But at some point her hand reached his boxers, pushed in and started to carefully touch his length.

And Jungkook didn't feel shit.

Her hands were quite cold, a bit shaking. He realised every movement because he just couldn't get into it. There was not a single moan, no whimpering. Nothing. Just emptiness and uncomfortableness.

And that's when Jungkook couldn't help but to start fucking crying.
At some point everyone gets overwhelmed by his own mind and he just reached that moment. Too many emotions fed up inside of him, all the anger he felt towards himself all those years. It just all shot up when Lyza and him realised there was no boner, there was no twitching dick, no matter how hard she tried.

She used her hands, her mouth, she tried to move her ass on his hips.

Nothing.

Seeing her boyfriend's tears made her stop. The girl's face dropped, disappointment overcoming her.
"Jungkook", she said quietly, tears coming up as well. "Are you okay?"

He shook his head, "N-no. Just s-stop", he sobbed. "It's so fucking embarrassing."
She sat down besides him and quickly put her dress back on, pulling the blanket over her crying boyfriend. "It's fine, Kook, it's okay", she whispered, trying her best to comfort him.

"No, you don't understand", he hissed. "That's so-", he sobbed again, sitting up and pressing a pillow to his face which was all reddened and his cheeks swollen. "I've got the most beautiful girl from the whole college and I just- I am such a failure", he shook his head. "God, I'm sorry", he said and started putting his boxers on.

"Kook! Stop. It's okay, calm down", she said, voice cracking. "We don't need to have sex-, it's okay, you do love me, right?", she asked.

Jungkook hesitated.

And then his phone screen lightened up, his eyes immediately glancing on it when he saw he got a new message by Taehyung.
Lyza waited for an answer but Jungkook already had the phone in his hands,

Taehyung:
kook!! ❤ taejeon and i went shopping today and we bought matching socks for all of us!! you've got iron man ones, i got spiderman ones and Taejeon got captain america ones!! miss u. hope u had a great evening tho!!

"Jungkook!! I asked you a question. Who are you texting?"

"Taehyung", Jungkook mumbled, but put his phone away once he saw Lyza's judging face. "Why do I even ask-", she hummed.
Jungkook's tears were literally gone, his mind completely off-topic.

"Goodnight", she snapped and then laid down, facing the other side.
Jungkook sighed but then laid down as well, grabbing his phone again.

Jungkook:
ooooh that's greatttt i miss u tooo i had a horrible evening )):

Taehyung:
oh no why!! btw taejeon told me he's not mad about our kiss, he's just mad that we told him we don't do that and he felt lied to.

Jungkook:
just everything
& that's good tho, im glad

Taehyung:
tell me everything 💕

Jungkook:
lyza's parents suck
and i weren't able to get a fucking boner when lyza tried everything on me

Taehyung:
well her parents.. yknow i hate them too but you also know why there's not much we can do about it. they saved ur life kook
and why the fuck do you even try to sleep with her that's nonsense yall are always fighting. i dont understand

Jungkook:
i tried bc she's my girlfriend

Taehyung:
maybe she shouldn't be that.

Jungkook:
tae! can u like be there for me & not shoot against my girl as always

Taehyung:
"my girl" lmao

Jungkook:
..

Taehyung:
you're just not attracted to her.

Jungkook:
no shit sherlock

Taehyung:
if i didn't knew exactly that you're very very easily able to get boners, id tell you to see a doc but you're fine you're just not into her

Jungkook:
you're not helping taehyung

Taehyung:
oh you want me to help?

Jungkook:
yeah

Taehyung:
fine let me show u the ONE thing you should get boners for

Jungkook:
for you?
someone sounds hella jealous

Taehyung:
pfftt. haha. no. never. i wouldn't. i mean why would i.

Jungkook:
ur making my life so much harder than it already is

Taehyung:
im pretty good at making things hard for you ;)

Jungkook:
tae stop omg

Taehyung:
why. it's the truth.

Jungkook:
..
what are you doing rn

Taehyung:
studying, so you can't say im lazy anymore

Jungkook:
yea nvm
ill be right back

Jungkook never felt more thankful in his whole life before that his girlfriend always fell asleep pretty quick.
Because right now, Jungkook had a problem down his pants and all he could think off was Taehyung wearing glasses, looking smart.