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[ Sasha ]

I sat on my desk, my feet on the chair in front of me, it was an empty seat anyway. The teacher started to talk some sh*t that I'm not interested in.

"Hey Black, where were you?"

A Crimson red haired delinquent asked, this is Asher. I wouldn't say he's a loyal companion since he's most of the time hanging around other wh*res in school, those frog clowns that wore less clothes.

"Outside"

I simply answered, leaning back so that I'm comfortable. Also give a side look to annoy him.

"Well why didn't you get me out of the assembly?!"

"Your fault getting caught"

I snicker at him. He would always ask for me to help his *ss, he would also flirt from time to time. It's annoying, everytime he gets a chance to stick with me he would nonstop talk.

"As you may have heard, that after finals and the school activities that I stated earlier – school prom will officially happen"

The teacher says out loud making everyone cheer, meanwhile I just made an unimpressed face. Asher wiggles his eyes with a smirk plastered on his face, also looking at me.

"You're gonna wear a dress"

He states with a teasing voice, my eye twitched at his intentions to see me in a freakin dress.

"I'm not going"

I sternly state, then the teacher seemed to hear that I'm not going and clears his voice once again.

"Ms Black, you are going to prom wether you like it or not"

"What the f*ck is that b*llsh*t?!"

I shout as I slam my hands on to the desk, standing up also.

"Miss Black, language!"

"Whatever, I'm leaving"

I walk out of the door, slamming it shut and running outside. Flying to the cherry blossom tree and sat on the highest trunk and cried. I cried because Prom isn't fun for me, it's scarred me—it made me realize that I'm not worthy for anything. That everyone is fake.

And now I'm being forced to go to prom, They'll humiliate me again. There's no such thing as true love

"F*CK THIS SH*TTY B*LLSH*T SCHOOL!"

[Third Person]

She shouted at the air, her cover up voice dropped. She felt like she's drowning—her mind blanked tried everything to keep calm but she couldn't. Her breathing got heavier, she quickly flew to the bathroom as she felt her throat itched.

She slammed the stall door open and closed it as she threw up, water is all she had and she still vomited. She wished to just die here and then, her mind was toxic and sanity is slowly disappearing.

She flushed the toilet and cleaned herself—wiped off her tears and fixed her make up. She's back at it again, being the tough persona she built—she left the bathroom and roamed around the Academy.

She put in her air pods and played music—one or only a few things that keeps her intact. Ignoring the looks of the other students in their classrooms, she made her way to the cafeteria. Grabbing herself a grilled cheese sandwich, she took a bite—not bothered with the consequences later on.

"Miss Black, please go to the meeting room—I repeat, Miss Black please go to the meeting room. Immediately, Thank you!"

She was irritated, not wanting to walk—she flew to the meeting room. With the door open, she saw the principal, a few head teachers and the council students.

"Tch"

She entered, taking a seat on the other end of the table—she made herself comfortable also disrespecting the people in the room.

[Sasha]

"Now that everyone is here, we can start this small meeting"

The principal announced, others took their attention to the principal—Mr Oikawa.

"I'm sorry Mr Oikawa but why is Miss Black here?"

The Student Council President—Celeste asks, I raise a brow at her question. Is my presence here a bother? Yeah, probably—since we don't exactly have the best background since I break rules and would always end up in detention.

"I'll explain that soon, Ms Celeste. But please, let me start"

"I'm sorry for interrupting Mr Oikawa, please continue.."

"As you all may know by now that Prom will occur in the end of the quarter, there will be special events in it. Including a fashion show, a few games and the coronation"

This made the student council students more interested since it wasn't really normal when there's a fashion show and games in prom but whatever.

"However, we wanted to have a competition as well. We wanted you're ideas on the table"

Everyone started giving their ideas and the principal noticed that I wasn't very participative on giving ideas and called my attention.

"Miss Black, do you have something in mind?"

Instead of giving a verbal answer, I simply answered in sign language.

Yes, although I prefer if we talk later after the meeting

He understands and went on his way on hearing others ideas. This meeting is getting boring, I snapped my finger and a shadow raven formed on my hand.

"That's enough, thank you—going further into it as you may know by now that Ms Black is part of the whole prom situation. Why you may ask? Well, her Aunt sponsored this particular event. And I would like to show gratitude towards your family"

"That still doesn't explain things even more, Mr Oikawa"

Celeste speaks up in a rather rude manner, Mr Oikawa doesn't seem to be happy with her tone of voice.

"Ms Celeste, speak rudely one more time and I will not hesitate to remove you from your current position"

"Sorry sir"

She sits back down, her hands in fists and anger surrounding her. She's a brat and no one notices. Mr Oikawa sighs before continuing the talk about prom, Me—uninterested at the orders and rules being made I just simply listened.

"Miss Black, I want to talk with you in my office"

Mr Oikawa says as he finished the meeting, the council students went off along with the teachers earlier. He gestures me to follow him to his office on which I did, with the shadow raven floating on my shoulder.

He sits on the chair while I leaned on the book selves in his office.

"As you may know by now that you must attend prom"

He starts the conversation, I hummed in reply as I closed my eyes at his talking and just listened.

[Third Person]

"Your Aunt unfortunately couldn't come as a special guest in the prom and wanted you to be a representative of her"

"She wants me to represent her? What kind of b*llsh*t is that?"

"Language"

"She wanted you to start having a good reputation since other guests will also come since you're nearing the age to take over your family's company"

"Why are you telling me this? Isnt she supposed to be the.one notifying that?"

"Simple, she can't come"

"There's phones"

"Busy"

"Don't give me that 'busy' crap"

"Miss Black"

"WHAT?!"

"Language"

"Shut the f*ck up. Mr Oikawa"

He sighs heavily on the girl's stubborn and foul mouthed attitude, he can never remove this girl's swearing.

"What's your idea anyways?"

He asks about the prom competition thing that he wanted to have.

"Have a mystery person and everyone try to guess who it is. Whoever guessed it right will get a price"

"Brilliant idea Miss Black, would you mind if you explain this guessing competition?"

"Sure, as long as nobody will recognize me in a dress. I'm good"

"But I'm still not Happy"