You need to cool it man here smoke this I made out through muffled hearing things are like that nowadays I've just been so goddamn out of it since what happened it's been a good couple of weeks she seems to be doing well for herself working same as usual she's not seeing anyone according to Quincy which is good me Quince have been getting along pretty well these past days me and cece talk on the phone from time to time she often tells me how sorry she is how everything went down but I told her I know she was only trying to help cant blame her it was bound to happen we were just waiting for the timer to run out did you here what I just said ? Lawrence started up again no I groaned rubbing my throbbing temples he sighed stroking his beard look kid I know your too old for me telling you what to do but I really think you oughta get out the house y-you kicking me out I slurred trying to focus my vision cmon Dal look at yourself this isn't healthy you rarely sleep you don't eat and you stay up all through the night going god knows where doing god knows what now I gave you your time to grieve or whatever it is your doing but I think it's time you stop I mean seriously kid your practically ki- alright alright Jesus could you stop talking for one fucking minuet 

I waited for him to yell again but instead he calmly said ok and left me on the floor with the rest of my half drunken bottles wise ass I burped staring at the paint blotches on the ceiling  watching them slowly form into figures but that to went away after a while ironically I thought reminding me of my own situation things are like that nowadays smoking the mornings away and throwing up yesterdays I ain't proud of it of course but I've come to terms with it and you know what ? it ain't half bad I mean it's better then wasting away on these streets like most of these crackheads right ? ah who am I kidding I'm probably just as worst alright now let's see if these bad boys still work I huffed dragging myself off the floor stumbling a little at first before finally gaining my balance making my way over to the steps being in my room almost felt foreign to me since I practically lived in the living room has it always been so yellow I wondered looking around the illuminated room damn almost forgot this I sighed picking up my neglected journal off the night stand flipping through the pages stopping at my very last entry

June 24, 1972

I didn't sleep much last night i just coudn't get bill off my mind she hasn't answered any of my calls so that's fucking great  man  I'm so fucking stupid  she probaly hates me now i know it  fuck i miss her forget this i'm gonna go see her whether she wants me or not

- dal

Jesus relax kid  i mumbled  skimming through a few other pages filled with doodles  and  stuff a i noticed about bill  i smiled reading over a few of them hazily green eyes lighter tint when tired or sad  loves sweets to death goregeus beyond  words is she an angel ?  course she is stupid  I read a little more going through old entry's I  made before  leaving out  instantly feeling  bored  so I decided to venture off to the fridge praying Lawarance went groccery shopping  yes i cheered  grabbing a box of ice cream and whipped cream getting ready to pig out  that is until i figured out  Lawrance's crazy ass taped the drawers shut  like i wont use my hands i huffed walking out of the kitchen bumping into no other than Lawarance hey wh'yd you lock the drawers stupid ?  shits fucking broken i see you found the ice cream  you got a date or somethin ? you smell fucking terrible as a matter of fact  i do Dal ole boy  oh yeah what's this one called ?  sheila  she takes spin classes every friday and she's a mussoose if you know what i mean he smirked wriggiling his thick brows great now i can't even eat  this i  frowned  tossing him what was left  awwe i'm sorry Tuck  that woman just gives me fever  something serious

I get the picture you going out  yeah why ?  nothin man can you promise me you'll stay out of trouble ?  not just for my sake but for your  sentence days are getting shorter  for you to go b-  alright alright  is that all ?  yeah kid go have some fun but not too much he smiled pointing his wrinkly finger  sure old man catch ya later  stepping out into Florida's usual heat  yup nothings changed  well butter my biscuits and call me Suzanne is that  dally  ?  hey Will I chuckled giving  him five long time no see how uh are you ok  ?  haven't heard from you the last time I dropped you off  yeah I'm fine just uh been trying to lay off  this heat for a while ha I  feel you it seems like it just gets worse day by day he sighed  dabbing his red cheeks with the back of his hanker chief   so how are you and the old lady got any dates planned  ?  I winced a little letting  the  all to familiar sting flow through me we're on a break  oh no I'm  sorry  here I  am running my big mouth it's fine man really

he nodded  turning on the radio

* Play the song at the top *

I  know a club around here  called the roof top best beers in town hot beer ? heh yeah sounds like a real party  right  he chuckled stopping at light  ah what the hell  won't kill  us right  ?  us ?  yeah me and  you pal  really ?  he smiled excitedly  yeah you deserve it  hauling  people around all day  in this death trap  watch it  I'll have you know this death trap used to bag  all the ladies back in my day  key word used to wow you sure are nice I'm never nice that explains it  he muttered  lowly pulling into a brightly lit parking lot covered  with sweaty drunk people alright my man we're here lets go get  some booze he grinned rubbing  his hands together  walking up to the brick building covered  in nothing but neon lights  instantly getting bombarded with drinks good evening boys welcome to the roof top margaritas ?  a kind of old woman spoke pushing a tray of drinks further in our faces don't  mind  if  we do  you two enjoy yourselves she smiled  seductively disappearing into the back  leaving  ole Will in utter shock  go after  her  I  smirked  nudging him a little  pfft  a fox like her  ?   I'm not her  kind  he shrugged  sipping  his drink  ah come on Will don't  think like that  any  br-  I  mean  woman would  be glad  to have you  I  smiled  patting  his shoulder  it  honestly  physically hurt  seeing Will  completely  shut  down over  a  skank  with saggy  tits  who would  only  drink all of his money  away  and  leave him in the  end  but who am I to judge  huh ?  thanks kid  he  smiled  looking like his old self  no problem man hey uh I'm going to the bar  you  want  somethin ?  no go on ahead  I'll  catch up later  he smiled   shooing me away  see ya Will I chuckled shaking my head  

Scanning  the mahogany  table  shoving my hand  in a bowl of  pretzels  which I hated  until  I met  Bill  Bill  damn I  sighed  putting my head down the last best thing that's ever happened to you can I  do something for you sir ?  ibuprofen ?  I shook my  head  still  not  looking at the stranger  hot  tati  ?  I  nodded  lazily lifting my head  there he is  she  smiled  rinsing  off  one the shot  glasses  she was easy on the eyes I  admit  but  she wasn't  Bill  my  Bill   you  new  around here  mista ?  she smirked  smacking  gum which I completely  missed  um yeah  thought  you and that cabbie over there came together  right  ?  Will  huh ?  William his name is Will  I  spat slightly annoyed  nothing irritated me more  when people used labels to judge someone they clearly  don't  know  shit  about  sorry  I  didn't  know she smiled trying her best to sound sympathetic  I'm Camille she said rather quickly  shoving her hand in my face Dallas hm I like it  thanks I mumbled finishing the rest of  my shot so uh what's the occasion ?  just  needed some air  ha I feel ya it seems like it heated  up yeah I nodded  not  paying her any mind  seeing waltz his way  over thank god  howdy  dal  and  young  lady  he cheesed  tipping  his imaginary  hat  clearly  stoned  yeah yeah her names caramel  are you ready to go ?  it's actually c- look sweet heart you seem like a nice and all and any dude would  take you out on a date in a heart  beat but  I'm not your guy alright ?  I  spoke swiftly handing her some money out of  my island shirt pocket giving her one last look before walking away leaving her  speechless hey  uhm  I'm sorry about uh my friend  h-he's real nice once you get to know him here he smiled handing her 3 pieces of random candy from his cargo shorts

Thanks she smiled  finally  setting  them aside any time caramel  its Camille she tried to call out again but gave up once she realized he was already out the door  hey my  favorite buddy  I'm driving alright buddy  he smiled  sheepishly sliding in the passenger side so where we headed next ?  home  awe pooh he groaned slouching down in the seat you sure ?  yeah you shouldn't  be driving around fucked up all night  awe your  one of a kind amigo he smiled for the trillionth time patting my shoulder sure buddy  I  sighed  trying my best to drive while Will passed out like a light two Lone cowboy's alone on the highway  riding all night trying to go they're way I sang a slight lullaby my mother would sing to me when I  couldn't sleep I always thought it was a funny song to sing but she sung it like an angel  Bill used to sing it to me when I slept over  and  every time I felt like that small troubled  kid  who could only  be  tamed  by his mothers love but all of that didn't matter anymore they were both gone and there is no chance of them ever coming back I  thought  dropping  Will off at his boot of an apartment  it's shame what the Cabbing business pays these days especially in this god awful heat  walking up my humid  driveway  slushing around  in the muddy puddles not really wanting to go inside which was brightly lit for some reason not good I sighed  turning the nob only to be face to face with a person I thought I'd never see Billie I choked  out watching the girl I love sobbing uncontrollably  h-hey now it's okay I  cooed  letting her collapse into my arms

Take a breath  she finally stopped breathing hard into my chest  shutting the door  behind  us  sitting her down on the coach waiting for her to gather herself  did - did  Lawrence let you in ?  she nodded  wiping another tear that had  fallen cece alright  ?  she nodded  Quincy's ok ?  she nodded  and  fat ass how's he doing ?  they're all fine she giggled revealing that gorgeous smile then what's wrong  ?  she paused for a moment grabbing my hands  me what'd  you mean ?  I'm the problem not you god  I'm such a fucking idiot she chuckled  shaking her head  Bill I smiled softly taking her hands what the hell are you talking about  our break up well break when I said  I thought we needed to take a break I lied you...did ? she nodded putting her head down why  ?  I don't know I wasn't thinking I  was just scared I would lose you why would you lose me ?  I  questioned  lifting her  chin so now we were looking at each other dead in the eye tell me well she sniffled  when I told you I was going to Al's birthday party I lied  the day before he asked me to come to the back of the shop and told me the boys had come by asking for  me said they were throwing a party  I tried to tell  him no believe me but he guilt tripped me were close him and I  he's almost like a father to me so I went I got  drunk and threw up and Jewels helped me and gave me some clothes

We talked  and  then h-he kissed me I froze for a moment heating up like a stove  waiting for her to finish I pushed him away and told him I had to leave I'm so sorry  she whimpered  crying into my chest again I never wanted to break up please don't leave shh I cooed rubbing her head I wont alright ever you here me ? it's not your fault she nodded  snuggling up against my chest  slowly drifting to sleep  fucking pigs I grumbled  staring at the ceiling I'll get them I'll get them all