fifty-four: support can go a long way

"Harry, as much fun as it is sitting out here... I gotta work tomorrow." Niall says after a while passes, sitting back up and quirking an eyebrow as I let out a sigh. I reached out to pull him back down, now liking the sudden empty feeling of my arms. 

"Can't you just call in?" I ask him, more as a joke but I was a little bit serious. I wanted to just lay here forever, put off the conversation I knew was either going to make or break us. 

"I wish, but I don't think Mum will like that... Dad's got another appointment with the doctor." Niall says, his voice getting quiet and he's playing with his hands much like he always did when he was feeling anxious. 

"Is he still adjusting to his medication?" I ask, sitting up myself and grabbing his hands. 

"Yeah, they might be changing it again because it's not helping as well as they'd like. He's doing okay, but he could be better..." Niall says quietly, shrugging at the end before letting out a soft sigh. I give him the most comforting smile I could manage in that moment, trying to calm myself down yet again. I needed to tell him, I wanted to tell him... Hell, I wanted him to come with me... But I knew he'd never do that. His parents needed him and Niall wasn't one to let people down...

I on the other hand could make a career out of it.

"You'll let me know if there's anything I can do to help? I know your dad isn't exactly my biggest fan right now... but I'll do whatever I can." I offer, earning a small smile from Niall before he leans in to peck my lips. 

"You can start by taking me home." NIall says before standing up from the blanket. I let out a sigh of my own before joining him, grabbing Niall's hand after I scoop up the blanket. We walk slowly, taking our time to get to the car. 

"Can... Can I see you tomorrow? There's something I want to run by you..." I ask him once we reach the car. I toss the blanket into the backseat as I wait for Niall's answer. 

"I don't know, honestly... Why, what's it about?" Niall asks before climbing into the car after I had opened the door for him. I jogged to my side before climbing in myself, turning the car on once I shut my door. 

"I uh... My friend offered me a job." I found myself saying once I got into the car. 

"Oh..." Niall says slowly, quirking an eyebrow as he looks at me but I wasn't going to dive into this full conversation right now. It was nearly one in the morning, we still had a good half hour drive left... and this conversation was more than likely going to take us hours.  

"Yeah... I'll tell you more about it the next time we get some time to ourselves..." 

"Why not now?" He asks, earning a soft chuckle from me as I pull back onto the highway. 

"Because it's kind of a big thing and I don't want to talk about it when we're both fighting sleep. You said it yourself, Princess, you've got work tomorrow." I tease, chuckling again when Niall rolls his eyes. 

"If you don't tell me I'll end up staying up the rest of the night thinking about it. You should just tell me." Niall presses only to pout when I shake my head as my answer. 

"You'll just have to be patient, Princess." 

"We both know I'm not a patient person, Harry." 

"I know you're not, but this time I'm asking you to be patient for just a few hours. I promise I'll tell you everything when we get time." 

"You better... I really do you think you should just tell me now." Niall grumbles, continuing to pout as he crosses his arms over his chest. I let out a sigh, glancing away from the road and at him for just a second before focusing my attention back. I let out another sigh before I finally just give in.

"My old band is getting back together. We've got the chance for a record deal, full length tour, the whole rockstar experience. Jay's dad knows some people and I guess they listened to a few of our demos... and they loved us. I told him I would think about it." I say quietly, unable to being myself to look at him in that moment.

"It sounds like you've already thought about it..." Niall says just as quietly.

"It's the opportunity of a lifetime, Ni... But, I also don't want to go into it if it means that I lose you. I know we've only been dating a few months and that in any normal relationship it would be deemed odd or rushed that I know you're the love of my life already... But I do know that and that's why I'm not sure if taking this job is the right thing to do... I need to know that if I do this, I won't lose you in the process." I say, my voice trailing off as I keep my eyes on the road.

"I can't make this decision for you, Harry." Niall says after a few minutes pass and I risk a quick glance at him. His face was almost expressionless which made my stomach twist a little.

"I'm not asking you to.... I just need to know that we'll be okay if I do this." I whisper, gripping the steering wheel just a little tighter so I didn't have a full on freak out. I knew this conversation wasn't going to be easy, but I didn't think it would be like this. In a way, I expected him to give me am ultimatum, him or the job, but he didn't do that. Instead he sits quietly in the passenger seat for the rest of the drive and I tried not to let that get to me.

"I'll support you in whatever choice you make, Harry..." Niall finally says just as we reach his house.

"But?" I found myself asking, parking the car as I look at Niall who lets out a long sigh.

"But, I can't promise you things won't fall to shit. I'm not saying that by going you'll be dooming our relationship because even if you don't, who's to say things will stay the same? I want to believe that we're both strong enough to do this, so instead I'm gonna just promise you that I'll support you no matter what. I want you to be happy, Harry. God knows you deserve it." Niall says, giving me his best smile but I could tell it was a little forced. That familiar storm was building in his eyes, but I choose to ignore it this time. Instead I just lean in and kiss him, enjoying every second of it because that's how it always was with Niall.

He was the love of my life and I would do absolutely anything to keep him.

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The fuck kind of chapter ending is that?! Jfc, I fail at life tonight.

It's almost one again and this chapter didn't go the way I wanted and bleh

Anyways, I'm too tired for QOTC tonight so just comment your fave thing about narrys relationship in this fic or something lol

Dedication goes to victoriaarachel

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