i'm sitting here
all alone
in the bathroom
thinkin' bout
broken wedding vows
and old love

i hate it that you left this family
and only think about yourself.
i hate it that you can't just talk
and get your shit together.
i hate it that i have to celebrate
christmas two times
i hate it that no one understands me
and that i feel lonlier than ever.

i hate your fights
i hear it all.

i wish you could have been happy
and i wish that love wouldn't mean divorce to me.

and sometimes it hurts too much
i don't know what to do
what to say

and now i'm praying to gods that i've never talked to
maybe someone will understand.

[stuff that hurts]