The sky was dark already and the stars were shining when I finally was allowed to go home. The street was wet from the previous rain and the cold wind was making it unbearable to stay outside. I quickly rushed to the car and turned the heater on before heading home.

No one was outside and even the street where me and my boyfriend Jin were living, was filled with darkness. Looking at the clock, I saw that it was midnight already. The windows were dark everywhere and I was surprised why there was no light in our apartment.

Optimistically I got off the car and walked towards the house. Deep inside I was hoping that he was sleeping and not playing those games anymore. The truth was that I could feel myself becoming sick because of worrying about him.
Even though it was also very difficult for me, growing up for him seemed even harder. Jin was older than me, however he had his mind crazily set on never to become an adult. At least it seemed like that.

÷

It all had started almost a year ago when I was finished with university. Jin, the boy who was trying the final exam for the third time, was sitting next to me when we were waiting to get called in to get our results.
From the corner of my eye, I clearly noticed that something was wrong with him. He was more nervous than anyone else.
Seeing that we still had to wait for at least 15 minutes, I decided to give it a shot and try to calm him down.

"Are you okay?", I tilted my head so that I could look at his face.

"D-do I not lo-look like I'm okay?", he shook his head and turned his head around so he wouldn't face me.

Feeling sympathy out of sudden, I put my hand on his shoulder. His reaction was not the one that I had expected. Immediately he shrugged my hand off, not looking at me while doing that either.
My friend next to me gave me a waning glare to just let him be. But somehow I felt as if I was forced to help him.

"Take this.", I opened his hand to give him the candy.

"What is this?", he finally looked up at me and I noticed his red eyes.

"It'll help you calm down.", I tried to smile at him friendly.

Jin carefully observed the object I had put into his hand and even sniffled on it. His eyes widened and he started to look around before hiding the candy in his jacket.

"What kind of drug is it?", he whispered.

"Drug?"

He nodded as he looked around, careful that no one would hear us.

"I don't do drugs. And what I gave you is not illegal, yet. So you don't have to worry, just eat it. One of the professors gave it to me and said this was good for calming down. I think you need it more than I do. Or anyone else.", I mumbled the last part and it seemed that he hadn't heard it.

"Okay, I'll just trust you.", he shrugged and put the candy into his mouth.

And that was how we had gotten to know each other. The both of us had succeeded in the exam and graduated in the same year. A month later, on the day of our graduation, we had our first kiss. It was a beautiful summer night and we were walking towards a party when he suddenly stopped me.

"Melanie, I have to tell you something.", Jin suddenly sounded very serious.

"Okay.", I nodded happily.

"I'm just... I feel like I have to say this sooner or later anyway so I'll just go ahead. I am thankful. Like... you know how fucked up I was... I didn't get anything together and was just procrastinating the whole time, for the past four years but thanks to you.. I feel like my life makes sense again. So, thank you Melanie. For that, I will always love you in a kind of way-"

Not letting him finish I shut his lips with mine. Thankfully he kissed me back and there we were standing under the tree, which would always remind me of him, for what it felt like an eternity.

÷

Almost a year later I turned around the key. I was hoping so badly that Jin was in bed, sleeping. Or in the kitchen, waiting for me. Or doing anything but sitting in front of the computer and playing those silly obsessive games.
All of the hope I've had, vanished when I saw the dark room filled with only the light of the computer screen. And in front of the screen was sitting my procrastinating boyfriend. In the same clothes from the morning and millions of dishes right next to him. It was a mess and all I could think about were those fights we've had in the past six months.

In the past six months I had gotten a job. For Jin and myself I had rented the apartment. Almost everything of my wage was gone every month because of the apartment. With the rest of my wage we had to buy food and pay for electricity and the Internet. Jin had contributed nothing to all of this. He wasn't paying anything ever since we had moved here. While I struggled with work and my social life, Jin had been at home ever since,  playing his games.

I was aware that it was an obsession, but what I also knew, and what Jin never wanted to admit, was that he was lazy. He had blamed me that I had gotten a job so easily, thanks to my connections. But the truth was that I had been neglected by 99 companies and accepted only by the one I was working for ever since.

During these six months, Jin had done nothing. And all that time I kept on blaming myself, that it somehow was my fault. But slowly I realised that Jin was just heavy weight on my shoulders. Heavy weight which I wasn't forced to endure.

As angry as I never had been before I walked towards Jin, who didn't even notice me. I lifted up the screen and threw it on the ground. With widened eyes Jin stood up, shaking about what he was witnessing in front of him.

"What have you done?", he screamed.

"You're leaving tomorrow.", I said in a calm voice before leaving into the bathroom.

I took a hot shower to calm myself down. Relaxed I blow dried my hair when suddenly I had this weird sensation in my stomach. I decided to talk to Jin one last time and give him the last chance to change. And this time I'd make sure that this really would be the last.
I looked for him in the kitchen, in the living room but when I looked to the front door I noticed that he had left.

÷

Three years later I saw him again. I was on a blind date with a guy who I knew I could never grow fond of. And right when I realised that, I saw Jin standing on the other side of the room, looking at me. I felt the blood rushing to my cheeks as we were staring at each other.

My date had left but I couldn't move. I knew that Jin would come to my table and I was just waiting for it. The chair was moved closer to mine and Jin sat down. He ordered another coffee when I finally felt his gaze on mine.

In a way he hadn't changed at all, I still loved him. But in another way he had changed completely. Not only his appearance was as neat as I had never seen before, but also the aura around him was a completely new one which I hadn't experienced before.

"Melanie. It's a pleasure to see you again.", his smile seemed genuine.

"Why are you suddenly sounding so posh?"

Jin laughed before replying: "I guess I've changed. Thanks to you."

"Thanks to me?", I was perplexed.

"Yes. When you left me I was a complete mess. I think for about 9 months I was kind of homeless? I had nowhere to go to-"

"You could've come to me!", I interrupted him, suddenly feeling very regretful.

"Melanie, you would've kicked me out again. And I'm thankful I didn't come back. I guess I needed it to realise what I was actually doing with life. So I met my fiancé and got a job and now we just bought an apartment. How have you been doing?"

"Nothing new.", I gulped as I tried to ignore my feelings for him since he was engaged.

÷

The next morning I woke up next to him, in his bed. My head ached from all the alcohol we had consumed last night and I was scared about his reaction when he woke up. Quietly I tried to flee and told myself that it was better if our paths would never cross again.

"Where are you going?", he mumbled.

I stood still and hoped he'd fall asleep again. But the opposite was the case. He sat up to look at me struggling with putting on the dress.

"You don't have to leave. I don't want you to leave. Let's have breakfast.", he stood up and grabbed his pants.

"Jin, I should leave. We both know this was a mistake, we should just tell no one and forget it."

Jin narrowed his eyebrows as he looked at me in disbelief. He came closer and caressed my cheek.

"No. It wasn't a mistake, we should tell everyone and never forget it. I want you back and you want me back. We both admitted it last night, it's all settled.", he pecked my cheek.

"Jin, stop it! You're engaged."

"Oh.", Jin looked at the ring on his finger and took it off just to throw it away.

"Jin, stop it!", I screamed running after the ring to pick it up but Jin stopped me by grabbing my arm.

"I'm not engaged. I just wanted to make you jealous.", he laughed as he put his arms around me.

÷

Soon later we were officially together again. This time, many things had changed. Our previous relationship was kind of led by me, Jin loved me more than I loved him. This time it was the other way around. I had fallen so deeply in love, I knew it was already too bad for me. I got to the point where I didn't care about myself anymore but about him. And Jin knew that. And Jin succeeded in exactly what he had wanted.

It all started with him cheating on me. He was as obvious as anyone could be, he wanted me to find out about it. Even though all these girls wanted him, he just used them to make me jealous. And he succeeded.

I felt as helpless as I never had before. I blamed myself for his cheating. It was me who just wasn't good enough, was what I told myself always. He was slowly killing me with his actions and he knew it.
It had been his plan all along, it was his revenge for how I had left him. With a crazy passion he had planned all of this.

I fell into depression, I lost my job and my friends. Everyone had told me to leave him but he had me under his spell. I wondered how our love had become so violent. In the last days I only thought about the beginning of our relationship. He used to be my teddy bear. I had found comfort in him and he had found comfort in me. In the first few months I had gotten to experience what happiness was like. But I wouldn't feel it anymore, it had been the first and the last time.

I was paralysed by the man I loved with all of my heart. And even though he loved me too, he hated me even more. He didn't realise how much he hated me and how much he had let me suffer before it was too late.

From the sofa I was watching the sunset. Classical music was playing in the background and I realised out of sudden that even though the day was ending I was still in my pyjamas.
I decided to take a hot bath before Jin would get home.
I was laying in the bathtub for a very long time when I suddenly felt the water rising. I couldn't tell if I was sinking down into the water or if I had forgotten to turn it off. Soon, my face was underwater. I couldn't move, neither could I breathe. From a distance I could hear Jin's angelic voice calling out my name. I smiled at the sound of his voice. Suddenly the door was swung open and Jin screamed as he saw me. He lifted me up, yelling I should wake up but I was gone already. Tears were running down his cheeks as he desperately tried to bring me back to life. It was in that moment that he realised that he, himself had lost control over his hatred. But it was too late.

He killed me.

+ damn that was dramatic and weird right?? but well, the album itself is super creepy and so I thought... at least one chapter has to give off this creepy vibe.
SO!!! I AM SO SORRY THIS IS LATE
It's funny because I told myself jokingly that I HAD to finish all the open stories until my birthday and guess what... it's my birthday haha (cries because I don't want to grow older). I really don't know if I would've updated if it wasn't my birthday because.. teddy bear just didn't give me ideas really for a story but phew I tried and I hope it was okay.

So thanks to everyone who has read this book!!!♡ it's FINTIO now and I hope y'all enjoyed it.
Melanie's new album is supposed to come out in autumn so maybe I'll do another book then lol!!
Until then, thank you so much and I only wish you the best xx