you cried to me for so long

the apologies were endless

for ignoring my existence

for never calling back

for not being there

not being there in times where I needed you the most

i was broken hearing just what you went through

knowing this

only this

i would have forgiven you for everything

but you refused

you only held me tighter as you told me you shouldn't be forgiven

so tight

between my sobs

and

your arms

i couldn't breath