26th october,2018.
Friday.
1:16 a.m.
Dear diary,
Guess what's special today. It's my crush's birthday. I am the happiest person right now. I let my ego go off and sent him a follow request in insta. To my suprise he immediately accepted it and gave me follow request too. I accepted it. Yesterday was an awesome day because he was the first one i saw in the morning(in the pic). I neither got scolded by teachers nor engaged in fight with fellow students which i always do. Today at 12 at the midnight i thought of wishing him but the thought that he might think that i am flirting stopped me from doing it so instead i posted this quote in my insta story.

And guess what he was the first one to see the story. I don't know why but he texted me. I figured out that he wanted to speak because he started the conversation with a silly question. At first he sent me hmm and unsended it. Then he asked me whether i know this guy named zachary and our conversation went on for like 20 minutes with each text being sent with one or two minutes gap. I asked whether it was his birthday pretending that i didn't know. He said yes and asked me how did i come to know about it. I didn't want the situation to get awkward so i tried my best and managed saying that a mutual friend of ours said me about it he said fine and i wished him. He then texted me fr like 5 minutes. Our chat ended with a smiling emoji(😀)sent by me. I didn't want it to end but when he isn't interested to speak i can't force him to do that by sending all sorts of non sense texts right!? And more over it was like 1 at the midnight so i didn't want to do that. I wish he texts me daily like these so that we grow closer but i know this isn't possible. Now i am 75 percent sure that he isn't committed but i need to make it 100 percent so that i would come to a decision. Even if we don't work out as a couple it's fine but i want to be his friend for some reason. Not a friend but a best friend. I don't know why but i really wanna stay by his side in all his difficult stages of life. I don't know what fate has stored for us. Let's wait and watch.

~shivangi joshi .