TW; Abuse/Neglect, Drug use, Talk of overdose, slurs and violence

October 31st, 20xx, No crying

He was born completely silent
The doctors thought he was dead, his mother horrified

Nysis, oh sweet Nysis

He lived the dream until age seven
More arguing
More cigarettes being smoked
More money being spent

He tried to block it out as best he could, being the black sheep in a family that expects you to live up to their standard sucked ass

But he made it work
Waking up everyday and looking semi presentable

You'd think he would try and be a perfect angel for his families sake right? Nope, he could care less about what nonsense his father screamed or what furniture was broken that day

Nysis locked himself in his room most of the time, making friends in the dark corners of his bedroom and talking to the ceiling

Middle school was hell
Kids can be mean and adults don't seem to realize that..

"Fag!"
"Freak!"
"Weirdo!"
"Emo trash!"
"Why don't you go jump infront of a bus, nobody wants you here anyway!"

He had no friends whatsoever until 5th grade, his life and routine thrown off the rails when a girl named Ana decided to sit with him in the bathroom and eat lunch

They were inseparable, practically joined at the hip

each other's first kiss (that backfired hard)
First real friend
First person they came out to

He poured his heart and soul into her
Trusting her with everything

She even knew about his dad
How he threw things
And drank

She knew things he didn't even know about himself

Ana was his rock, his shoulder to cry on and the reason he didn't kill himself after his mother died

Lil flashback
"Could Nysis please come to the office, Nysis to the office"

Ny looked over at Ana with fear and unease
They've only been in school for an hour, he hasn't even done anything yet!

She nodded and stood up, walking out with him

The teacher didn't bother to say anything because she would've ended up in the office for arguing anyways

She held his hand tightly as they walked through the hallways

He got to the office and immediately knew something was wrong

His aunt
And father
In the same room
And nobody was bleeding yet

Nysis stiffened in fear, anxiety building in his chest as his aunt put an arm around him and lead him out

Ana having to wait as this was a private family matter

She sat him down and took his hand
His father sitting next to him with a cold expression

"Nysis sweetie..? Um.. mamas in heaven" she spoke softly, the words took a moment to register in his mind before you could see him shatter

He covered his mouth,
Ripping his hand out of hers

"No- no you're lying-"
She shook her head

"I wish I was hon.. they found her this morning.."

"Was she comfortable?"

"Yes, they found her in bed, she-overdosed and died in her sleep..."

He took a shuddering breath in
Holding back tears

His father took his stuff and walked out of the school to the car, Nysis was excused from classes for the next week and a half

They were supposed to go to the end of the world together

But all good things must come to an end

One day Ana stopped answering
She stopped calling
Didn't show up to school
Left every group chat
And even deleted her accounts on every social media platform Nysis had her on

She disappeared without a goodbye and without a warning

This caused him to spiral
He completely ignored his siblings,(who didn't acknowledge he existed in the first place-) got into more fights-
He was even arrested for three counts of arson and assault to his father

Nysis didn't care anymore, he had no friends, no more family, he was alone

Completely alone

Dear old dad treated him like shit on a daily basis
Yelling at him
Manipulating him
Sometimes even physically hurting him

But he let it go on
Because Ny simply didn't care

He lived life ready to jump off the edge
He was impulsive, rude and cold, sometimes even his cat didn't want to be near him

He did drugs, sold them, got into underground fights, manipulated people and hated every moment of it

Scars running up and down his smooth skin, the beautiful tan he used to have fading away after he stopped taking care of himself

Ny was underweight, mentally unstable and partially suicidal most his life

Kicked from school to school
Eventually kicked out of his own home, although he was quite happy about that toss on the curb

He never met himself properly express emotions, easily getting attached and then beaten down, his first and last relationship at the time was very abusive, she cheated, yelled, threw thins at him and stole

But Nysis couldn't leave, she had him trapped, he was still young and so much had happened..

And the worse hadn't even started yet..