The drive back had been dead silent. Judy had sat between Sam and Dean in the front seat while Nikki and Crowley had sat in the back. Dean had handcuffed Crowley so he couldn't smoke out, even though he had promised Nikki he wouldn't Dean didn't trust the demon.

The trio felt awkward knowing that Crowley was resting in the back seat, his head tucked against Nikki's neck while Dean drove.

Nobody said anything.

Watching Crowley be locked up in the basement was the worst thing for her. Nikki felt angry, she knew the Winchesters didn't like Crowley, but he was in pain and they were treating him as if he wasn't detoxing from human blood.

She couldn't bare to watch.

Judy had been Nikki's shadow since her return. Finally the elder snapped.

"Why are you following me?"

She stopped in the hallway headed to her room in the bunker. Judy crossed her arms and frowned.

"To make sure you don't do anything else stupid, stupid."

Nikki rolled her eyes and scoffed. Whatever if Judy wanted to follow her around then fine.

"Fine, you wanna watch me take a shit too?"

The sarcasm dripped from her tone causing Judy's face to scrunch in disgust. Deep down she had been worried tremendously about her cousin, who was like a sister to her, when she couldn't get a hold of her.

"Stop following me around I'm not gonna do anything stupid."

She spat before slamming the door to her room. Judy's hands rose a bit as she wanted to strangle the older woman right now. She was concerned why couldn't she see that? Releasing her breath Judy groaned before she slowly lowered her hands. Breathing in slowly Judy closed her eyes and tried to think of anything other than strangling her cousin.

Turning on her heels Judy made a be-line for the basement. Sam and Dean didn't catch her headed there so there was no complaints. She had a few choice words to say to Crowley for putting her cousin through everything.

Pushing open the heavy door Judy stopped. Crowley sat there in chains sweating profusely. His leg was bouncing up and down while he face was white as a ghost, but tinted with red around his eyes and nose.

He was detoxing.

"Hello chipmunk, what do I owe this fine pleasure of seeing your visit?"

Judy's eyes narrowed any pitty she had for Crowley vanished. She didn't really care for his nicknames that he had given everyone, they were annoying. Walking forward she kept her resting bitch face.

"I want you to break your deal."

Crowley arched a brow. His breathing heavy she noticed once she got closer.

"Break my deal?"

"With Nikki. Break your deal with her."

Crowley chuckled his hands folding together, his leg still bouncing.

"No can do. If I were to break my deal, I wouldn't be a man of my word now would I?"

"You're not a man anyway. You're a demon who's been using her -- "

"Using her?"

Crowley snarled cutting her off. His face turned to anger causing red flags to go off for Judy.

"I never! How dare you accuse me of such a thing!"

"Then what the fuck do you call kidnapping her for weeks? We all know you kept her there to fuck her knowing that she'd give into your wants because she cares about you!"

"And I care about her!"

Judy scoffed taking a step back. She crossed her arms over her chest glaring at the floor.

"That's bullshit and we both know it. Demons can't care it's the blood and once you're clean of it you'll go back to your old self and try to kill us all and hurt her."

"This started long before the blood. That night she kissed me on that bridge -- "

"Oh knock it off! You haven't seriously liked her since then!"

Her eyes snapped back to Crowley's form. He was frowning the anger still there but his eyes were hurt. Judy caught this causing goosebumps to rise over her body.

"She was interesting to me. Annoying, yes, but interesting. After that night I wanted, no, had to figure out more about her. That's when I went digging. There wasn't much on her at the time, so I decided to use what I knew and find her again."

Crowley bit his lower lip while adjusting in his chair. He gasped feeling a pain shoot through his body causing his breathing to become rugged again. Judy just watched while Crowley withered in the chair trying her best to not feel bad for the stupid demon king.

"Once I found her again, I knew there was something strange about her. She was smart, witty, dare I even say bonny. Much different than those two baffons you hang around with. So I kept coming around. Trading information with her... it slowly started to become an excuse just to see her again."

"Wait a minute. Is that why we constantly had cases? Did you -- "

"I may have thrown a few your way just so I could see her, yeah."

Judy frowned, but continued to listen.

"When it finally came down to we wouldn't try to kill each other I knew she was different from all the other hunters I had ever known. All the people that would come try and make a deal with me. She wasn't like them. There's some self loathing there I know, but she never asked to change anything."

Crowley said looking up at Judy.

"She just wanted to be friends and I knew I wanted more than that."

Judy stood there silent. She was trying her best to wrap her head around everything Crowley had said. It was a lot to take in so soon. The fact that Crowley had just spilt his bleeding heart out to her was cause for concern. This wasn't the Crowley she had known. This was the Crowley that had been locked away with Nikki for weeks on end.

This is why Nikki was acting so differently ever since she had called for their help.

"You're fucking broken, and you've broken her too you piece of shit."

She huffed. Another wave broke through Crowley's body.

"You think I don't know that!"

He yelled the pain rushing through his body like a crippling hot iron feeling.

"The last thing I ever wanted to do was hurt her! But I couldn't let her leave, I couldn't!"

"You controlling, manipulative, piece of shit!"

Judy shouted slapping him across the face. Crowley gasped letting his head fall to the side. He could taste the blood in his mouth where his teeth cut through his inner mouth from the unsuspecting attack.

"You will break the deal with her! You'll break it and never contact her again! You won't even look at her, you understand me! And if you do, I swear to fucking God if you ever even look in her direction again, I'll make you wish you had overdosed on blood!"

"Judy! Hey, hey, hey!"

Sam shouted rushing into the basement. Hearing her screaming at the top of her lungs as Sam was passing through the hallways he came running. Rushing in he grabbed Judy up by her thin waist and carried her out of the room kicking and screaming.

Crowley's head lifted back up as the back of his hand ran across his mouth. He closes his eyes trying to keep his emotions in check.

'I'm so sorry, Kitten.'

Nikki's eyes snapped open. Her shower was interupted by Crowley's voice in her head. Eyes widening she quickly shut off the water. Leaping out of the shower she nearly slid and busted her ass, but managed to catch herself before she went down.

Something was wrong. Crowley, he sounded -- what was happening. Rushing into her bedroom she grabbed her deep red fluffy men's robe and threw it over her soaking wet body before dashing out of her room barefoot.

She raced down the hallway hearing Judy yelling and screaming with anger. Coming into the library Nikki stopped seeing Sam and Judy standing there arguing.

Sam had pulled Judy out of the basement and carried her back upstairs getting as far as the library before he couldn't deal with her struggling anymore.

"What the hell is your problem!"

Sam snapped. Judy pushed away from the tall man stumbling a bit but keeping upright.

"My problem is that asshole in the basement! He used her! He used her and she'd going to get hurt!"

She snapped. Sam ran his hands through his hair and exhaled through his nose.

"Look, I don't like him either, but did you ever think that maybe he's not?"

"You're fucking serious right now!"

Judy turned away from Sam before turning back around to face him.

"He was down there lying right to my face! Saying about how he's always cared for her, how he would throw cases our way just to get to talk to her -- he's been planning this from the start! He knew that if he got close to her, she would make a deal with him that he could use -- and she did!"

"Okay, yeah, maybe you're right. But, has he ever tried to use her in the past? This is big Judy and Nikki is stubborn like Dean, if you try and tell her this without proof she's -- "

"He told me! His words!"

Sam rubbed his chin. Judy was all worked up over this. She was a lot like them in a way when it came to family. But so was Nikki.

"Judy, you told Dean to trust her. To trust that she knew what she was doing. That no matter who she was with she would always be herself."

Judy's mouth closed. She had told Dean that and now here she was going against everything she had told Dean. Shaking her head in anger she held out her finger toward the basement.

"I don't trust him! That's who I don't trust!"

"But you trust her trust in him right?"

Judy's arm fell to her side. She spat a string of curses as she turned her back on Sam again. But it was only when she turned did she freeze in place. Sam's eyes gazed to where Judy was looking and seen Nikki standing there with wet hair and nothing but her robe.

Nobody said anything, nobody could think of anything to say. Sam and Judy didn't know how long she had been standing there or how much she heard, but by the look in her face she had heard more than enough.

"I -- "

Judy started to say as Nikki walked toward her. She stopped beside her cousin, her arms wrapped tightly around her midsection.

"Maybe you need a break from all of this. Go find Cas. I'm fine."

Judy was baffled. She didn't reply as Nikki moved past her and Sam both not bothering to look at either of then as she disappeared into the basement.

Defending the steps Nikki briskly walked to Crowley's room. The door was left open so she slipped right inside closing the door behind her. There Crowley was looking like a hot mess while he was detoxing chained like a prisoner to his chair.

"Oh Crowley..."

She whispered approaching him. Crowley's eyes turned up seeing her coming toward him. He but his bottom lip and looked away.

"You shouldn't be here."

He tried to spit, but his words came out in a quiver. Her eyes softened as she stopped in front of him. Bending she dropped to her knees before him, her hands coming up and cupping his cheeks ever so softly. He had no choice but to look at her.

"How can I even imagine to stay away when I hear your apology to me?"

His powers must have been slowly returning. So the detoxing was working. Still Crowley was reminded of the painful words and actions caused by her cousin.

"I'm breaking our deal."

"No."

She said sternly. Crowley's eyes widened her tone held such a bite to it.

"You'll do no such thing. I know Judy wants this to end, but I don't. I don't want this to end."

Her thumb trailed over his scruffy cheeks. The feeling of his hair causing goosebumps to form over her arms and a shiver down her spine.

"You'll get hurt."

"Not by you."

She pushed back. Shuffling on her knees she leaned up her lips brushing against Crowley's. He kissed back while a fire ignited inside of his stomach.

Desire.

Her tongue darted out and into his mouth where Crowley gladly welcomed it. A moan pushed past her lips as she leaned in more into him. Her hands moving around to the back of his neck sliding over his collar and into his sweaty mop of hair.

Pulling away for air Nikki inhaled deeply and rested her head against his chest. Her hair wet against his already damp suit. Crowley struggled with every fiber of his being, but he couldn't bring himself to do it. He couldn't bring himself to actually push her away.

Not after she had made her feels so clear to him. Because if he did, he knew that would end up hurting her more than he would ever want to do.

Judy hadn't even bothered collecting her shit as she took her truck keys and stormed to the garage, Sam hot on her heels.

"Hold on just a second!"

He begged following after Judy hoping to get her to stop. She did everything else but stop. Getting to her truck she lunged open her door in the fit of anger that she was in from the conversation she had with Nikki earlier.

"You heard her."

She spat. She was so angry she couldn't even think straight. It wasn't often she became so angry that she couldn't think, but when it did happened it was best but nobody stood between her and her objective. Which right now her only goal was to get as far away as she could from Nikki.

"She doesn't want me around! She told me to go find Castiel so that's what I'm going to go do! Between her, you, Dean, and Crowley, I just want to pull my hair out!"

"Look I get it, I really do. But you're not thinking straight. Cas is currently doing something with the Angels. He tracking Metatron and you don't need to be in the middle of that right now."

No matter what Sam head always seem to be the voice of reason. But Judy was also always a voice of reason as well. There was times where she could be level headed and be that same voice of reason, but today was not that day, and today was surely not the day that she would be listening to Sam Winchester.

"I don't care! At least it's Castiel maybe I can be helpful! He's always at least listen to why I had to say!"

She said she climbed into her truck. Slamming the door closed behind her Sam moved over to her window which was real down. He placed his hands on the open window ledge leaning inside of the truck watching as she put the key into the ignition and turned to start it. As the truck roared to life Sam just stood there trying to think of anything to say to keep her here where he knew she would be safe.

"Judy please."

He begged unable to think of anything else to say to her. Judy kept her eyes on her white knuckles that griped the steering wheel with such a deathly hold.

"Sorry Sam, but I can't."

She said as she put the truck into drive and took off out of the garage. Sam stood there helpless watching his friend leave their underground bunker.

"Pet?"

Crowley's voice cracked. Nikki looked up at him, her lips kissing the sides and palm of his cuffed hand. Peering up she seen his glistening eyes. She was situated on the floor between his legs. His detox still in full swing.

"Yeah?"

"You remember my question?"

She arched a brow. Crowley had asked a lot of things, he was going to have to be more specific if he wanted her to figure it out.

"About being pregnant?"

Her cheeks warmed. She recalled. He was pretty deep into his addiction then when he had asked if she would be okay with being pregnant with his child. His half demon, half human child. Nodding her head she brushed her lips across the hot skin of his hand.

"Yes. I remember."

Closing her eyes for a moment she looked back up at him again.

"What about it?"

"When I sober up. When I'm no longer addicted to this human blood. I want to have a serious talk."

Her eyes widened. Crowley wanted to talk to her about having his children? What?

"There were things said and asked when I was under the influence. I want to make things right -- explain."

She understood. There were things that Crowley may have said or went about in the manner he hasn't have wanted to do, but had done so because of the blood.

"Okay. But let's focuse on one thing at a time first. We gotta get you better first."

She reminded though there was no need when it was rather obvious that Crowley needed to get back to being his old self before they could possibly do anything.

Judy had drove for almost two days -- not altogether mind you. But she had been driving around state by state until she had picked up wind of where Castiel might be located.

Sure enough her sources were right.

It was a tall office like building. Parking the truck in the lot she walked up to the building only to be stopped not much farther than inside the main lobby.

"Can I help you?"

A woman questioned. Judy, dressed in two day old clothing and more than likely smelt like it as well, looked at the receptionist.

"I'm looking for Castiel?"

It was almost instant the woman's eyes widened a bit before she looked down at some type of log book.

"I'm sorry, but, who are you?"

The question was simple but the tone of said question was anything but that. Arching a brow Judy opened her lips.

"Judy. I'm a friend of Castiel."

The woman looked through her book.

"You don't have an appointment. I'm sorry I can't -- "

"So he is here."

She said thoughtfully. The woman looked up at her wide eyed once more.

"No, I mean -- "

"Judy?"

The deep and familiar tone called out causing Judy to turn around. On the second level stood Castiel surrounded by other people. His face was obviously full of surprise seeing her standing there in the lobby below.

"Cas."

She said smiling. The angel looked at her oddly. He was more than likely wondering what she was doing here.

"Why are you here? It's not safe."

He questioned. Judy rolled her eyes.

"I'm here to help. Hunter remember."

"I have not forgotten. Come. This is no place to talk. Follow me."

He said. Judy followed him up so many stairs until they were who knew how many floors up. As she walked she realized that everyone was looking at her and watching as she walked behind Castiel. Arching a brow she kept her questions until he brought her into a large office room and shut the door behind the both of them.

"It is not safe for you here."

"Why was everyone looking at me?"

Castiel sighed. He around her toward the desk.

"They're angels. They know of you and your cousin."

"Angels? All of them?"

She was astounded by the amount of angels that Cas had roaming the building.

"Yes. They're working with me to help stop Metatron. As I said it's not safe for you here you must -- "

"No."

"No?"

"No! I'm not leaving if it means I can help!"

Cas frowned. It was apparent that he wasn't thrilled with her being here and was doing his best to get her to leave.

"It's too dangerous -- "

"That's not helping me leave."

Cas sighed. He turned around before turning back to face her.

"You are my friend, Judy. If something were to happen to you because I could not protect you, I would never forgive myself."

"You don't have to protect me! I'm a hunter! Angels, demons, angry spirits -- doesn't matter I've delt with them all before. And Megadouche ain't gonna be much different!"

Cas was quiet. She was always one for high spirits. She was unique, different, she was like no other female human he had ever met. Dare he say she even had a place in his heart like the Winchesters -- but because of that he couldn't put her in danger.

"If you will not leave then perhaps I can put you in the research department..."

Judy smiled. She knew she had won.

Weeks had passed. Crowley had finished his detox and was back to being the same scheming asshole everyone had come to know and love. He had assisted in getting the First Blade just as he promised, but then things went wrong.

Sam and Dean had tried to kill him, and in turn he vanished with the blade and Nikki -- another wonderful kidnapping -- and had went to handle things with some of his minions.

But when his demons turned on him, he expected bad, but not Abaddon showing up with leverage bad.

"Crowley!"

Crowley's head snapped to the frightened call of his name. Never had he expected to find not only Nikki, but the person who looked like his son as well standing before him.

"What's this then?"

He questioned seeing Nikki being held by two demons, while Gavin stood there looking startled around the room. Abaddon turned her head toward Crowley and grinned.

"Leverage. Took us a while to get them both, but having your lover and son seemed like it would be worth the effort."

She explained. Crowley scoffed shaking his head.

"I loathe the little bastard. This won't work."

He said causing a glint to show in the demon woman's eyes.

"Oh, then perhaps the girl?"

She said lifting her hand and squeezing the air. Nikki screamed out and dropped to her knees. It felt like her insides were burning and the pain was unsustainable. Her arms wrapped around her stomach as she felt another rush of pain snap through her and she felt like she was going to puke while she cried out.

Gavin watched horrified at the poor woman beside him. Crowley, on the other hand, was a whole different story altogether. His poker face fell so quick it was pathetic. His eyes focused on Nikki as she sobbed in pain, and then she threw up blood.

"Enough! Alright enough! You've made your point now let her go!"

Crowley barked only causing Abaddon's smile to widen as she released Nikki from the torture. The younger girl gasped as she withered against the floor for a moment trying to get her balance back together.

"Honestly now Crowley. Did you believe me a fool? All that human blood you took while being with her for the whole time? Your favorite human toy."

Abaddon said with a wicked grin stretched so far across her face Crowley wanted to smack it clean off her. Gavin bent down getting close to Nikki.

"Come on lass. Up we go."

He said quietly so as to not alert the two strangers. Nikki grabbed Gavin's hand as he helped her to her feet.

"Pathetic really that someone such as yourself would fall so low as to keep a human pet. What makes her so special Crowley? If I cut her open like a pig will I find out?"

"Lay a hand on her and it'll be the last thing you ever do. I'll see to it personally."

Abaddon sucked her bottom lip into her mouth and nodded. She was highly amused with the demon. His interest in the girl was funny to say the least.

"Well, I'll let you three have some alone time. After all, I'm sure there are so many questions each of you have for one another. I'll be back shortly."

She said rising from her chair Abaddon stopped and hovered over Nikki. Her hand coming out and taking her chin between her fingers. Leaning forward Nikki tensed as Abaddon's tongue darted out swiping closely to the other woman's lips.

Pulling away, Nikki seen the blood on Abaddon's tongue before it vanished into her mouth. Her eyes flickered to hers.

"Mmm. Maybe I will have to cut her open if she taste this good."

She teased before releasing Nikki altogether and walking out of the room, her minons following after her.

'Holy shit.'

Nikki thought to herself feeling her face was burning with embarrassment from the act.

"How did she get you?"

"Stupid ass bitch had me jumped when I went to go get ice! You honestly think you had me safe there!?"

The hotel room that Crowley had her locked up in was anything less than safe. She was a hunter for God's sakes, and it would have been better if he would have just left her with Sam and Dean after the whole finding the first blade bit -- but no! He had to drag her and the first blade away!

"I've had you safer than those bloody idiots have done!"

Crowley snapped, obviously not happy with her taken tone. She huffed and rolled her eyes.

'Says you.'

She muttered in the back of her mind.

'I did say so, kitten.'

"Get outta my head! I'm mad at you!"

She shouted whipping her arms around in the air. Abaddon's minons had gotten the jump on her while she was in a simple black tank top, long sleeve red and black flannel shirt and some black spandex booty shorts -- emphasis on booty -- and she had been shoeless.

"Who are you both?"

Gavin asked finally speaking up. It was obvious that he had no idea where he was or what was happening. Crowley sighed taking a seat at the arm chair that was in the room. While sitting down he attempted to explain to Gavin where he was and who he was.

Nikki stood there looking around the room trying to think of a way out and only started to focuse on the conversation again once Gavin turned toward her.

"Who is she?"

He pointed toward her.

"She's -- "

Crowley started to say thinking of a way to explain to Gavin just who she was to him. He had just witnessed his father beg their capture to stop with torturing her, something Gavin had never seen his father do for anybody.

"I'm his."

Her small voice called out. Crowley's eyes widened as he looked at her. Nikki was fidgeting with the sleeves of her long plaid shirt she wore. Crowley's eyes softened she could have sworn, but it had to be a trick of the light -- right?

Gavin looked confused between both of them, before turning to the woman who was almost his equal in age.

"So, wait, are you my step-mother then?"

Gavin's question caused Nikki to choke on her own air. Crowley rolled his eyes, his son a complete moron always able to ruin a heart felt moment.

"N-No! We're not married!"

She felt her whole face burn, Gavin's confused expression only causing it to worsen.

"So.... yer his mistress then?"

"No!!"

She snapped feeling dirty that Gavin would call her that.

"You'll have to excuse him, darling. He's not the brightest crayon in the box."

Crowley said catching her thoughts.

"This is the 21st century. Here a bastard and mistress aren't what they were back in the day. They're not frowned upon... well, depending on the mistress part."

Crowley gave a shrug. Gavin gave his father a curious look as if trying to wrap his head around it all.

Nikki felt awkward about the whole situation now. Crowley turned his eyes to her and held out his hand.

'Come, love.'

She heard him call her in her mind. Her feet moved against the floor and soon she found herself in his lap, which did nothing to ease her embarrassment.

'I've got you, darling.'

She felt his fingers skim across her lower back ever so slowly sending goosebumps up and down her spine.

She glanced to Gavin feeling his eyes on her. He started asking more questions, which Crowley had more than happily answered. She didn't know how much time passed, but she was a little amused with Crowley's obvious banter toward his son, and his son's stupidity.

It was shortly after the doors opened did Abaddon walk back inside and Nikki shot to her feet. Crowley's lingering warmth still there on her body.

"Follow me, boys and girls."

She ordered. Nobody knew where they were going but she had taken them to a different room. A smaller room with white walls that looked like a smaller hotel room.

"Call them."

Abaddon said tossing Crowley his phone. The four of them stood there while Crowley called Dean.

Nikki felt her heart sink when Crowley started talking about her, the brothers were obviously worried about her. Then she noticed a word. One of Dean and Sam's words that meant it was a trap.

'He's not going to betray them.'

Her heart sped up, Crowley's eyes flickered toward hers hearing her thought. After the phone call Crowley slipped his phone back into his jacket pocket.

Abaddon couldn't help but smirk.

"Your friends are on their way. They think they'll beat me, but they're going to die."

Abaddon said causing Nikki's eyes to narrow. Crowley and Gavin stood in the back of the room a little, though Crowley had slowly walked more toward Nikki to become closer to her.

"You won't win. Don't you know by now that when it comes to the Winchesters the bad guys never win?"

Abaddon smirked. Crossing her arms over her chest she looked from Nikki and over the woman's shoulder to Crowley.

"What an odd pet."

And with a flick of her wrist she sent Nikki flying across the room. She yelled as she hit the double doors leading back into the bedroom. In a panic Gavin rushed toward her only to have Abaddon toss him into the bedroom with her powers and slammed the doors shut.

"Leave them be!"

Crowley snapped while Nikki struggled to stand to her feet. She jumped at the sound of a gun shot.

Nikki's eyes widened as Crowley grabbed his chest. The bullet lodging into his meat suit and he fell into the chair. He grunted unable to move. Her feet shuffled toward him before she even knew what she was really doing, only for Abaddon to grab her up and toss her like a rag doll across the room.

"No!"

Crowley shouted watching as Nikki screamed and hit the floor hard after the wall.

"You leave her alone! You have me and soon you'll have the Wincesters!"

Crowley spat only to cause Abaddon to laugh.

"I don't have you, not all of you yet at least. Your little human interest is the last piece on the board. Once I kill her, slowly, making you watch then I'll kill your son, and the Winchesters then you."

Abaddon chuckled lifting her hand and causing Nikki to be dragged back toward her across the floor. She screamed in panic again, her whole body in pain from the meeting with the wall.

Clenching her hand, she hit hard. Seriously what was it with demons throwing her against things with their powers?

Abaddon lifted her hand and Nikki was dragged back toward her. When she met with Abaddon she kicked the bitch in the knee causing a hiss to erupt from the ruby red lips.

"Wrong move, sweetheart."

She spat before taking her boot and smashing it against the down woman's face. Nikki yelped reaching out she grabbed Abaddon's boot with her hand, but that was a bad idea. She squeaked like a pig when Abaddon's boot came down and crushed her fingers between the floor.

She swore she had broken them.

She felt blood across her face. Had Abaddon managed to cut her face somewhere? Would make sense from the sting and the blood.

"Hey!"

The doors flew open and Abaddon turned to see Dean standing there at the ready to fight. She also noticed the first blade in his hands and removed her foot from Nikki's hand, allowing the woman to crawl over to Crowley.

"Darling -- "

"I'm here. Im right here, my King."

She whispered. Her face hurt and a few of her fingers she swore were broken, but she had managed to reach Crowley's paralyzed side thanks to Dean's sudden appearance.

"It'll be okay. We'll get out of this."

She whispered a smile upon her lips. Crowley wished he could reach out. He wished that he could pull her close and protect her, but he was helpless to do so, not with a devil's trap bullet embedded in his chest.

"Lemme get this out of your chest yeah?"

She whispered looking for something to use to dig the bullet out of his body. She hasn't even been paying much attention to Abaddon and Dean, until she heard the sickening tone of Abaddon's voice.

"Too late Winchester."

Pulling the trigger Abaddon landed the bullet right into Nikki's back causing her to scream out. Crowley cried unable to hold her as her kneeling body slumped more into him. He felt her chest heaving against his knees, her head resting almost on his own chest.

'Nikki! Nikki! Stay with me!'

He screamed in her head only to hear what sounded like a small chuckle. Dean fought against Abaddon in the background trying to stab her with the blade.

'I think this is the first time in my life... where I don't wanna die, Crowley.'

He tries everything to move his body, but he just couldn't. He couldn't hold her, he couldn't help her, he couldn't do anything but feel the blood seeping into his trousers from the exit wound the bullet had caused at such a close range.

'You've made me... want to live... Crowley.'

Her thoughts were like a whine a cry almost. She was crying in her head.

"Dean! Hurry the bloody hell up!"

Crowley roared. Dean was currently pinned against the wall and the blade out of his reach upon the floor -- none of which Crowley could actually see.

"I'm trying!"

Dean shouted reaching out for the blade. Sam busted through the doors looking at Abaddon as she held his brother pinned against the wall. She glanced over her should and with a flick of her wrist Sam went flying to the other side of the room where he now had a clear view of both Nikki and Crowley.

Crowley's eyes locked with Sam's. The man scrambled to his feet.

"Sam! Help her!"

Crowley cried out having Sam bolt toward Nikki seeing her not moving. Sam grabbed her and pulled her back only to gasp and grunt out a strangled shocked cry. She was soaked in her own blood and was pale as a sheet. Her eyes barely open and foggy.

"Nikki!"

Sam shouted, holding her close to his chest. His hand brushed her hair back and felt the warmth was slowly leaving her face.

Abaddon screamed out. Sam glanced toward the two of them as a bright light filled the room. Dean had somehow gotten free from being pinned to the wall and had stabbed Abaddon right through the stomach with the blade.

And it was all over.

But not all was well.

Once the light cleared and everything was quiet Sam's eyes turned from Dean and down to Nikki's lifeless being in his arms.

She was gone. She was really gone. Abaddon had gotten to her before Dean could help.

Sam picked her up and laid her down on the hotel bed after Crowley had pulled the bullet from his chest with Dean's hunting knife.

Nikki laid there on the hotel bed. Her face bruised and cut from the torture she had endured for Crowley.

Crowley, and his son Gavin, stood not far from the bed. Sam and Dean lingering in the living area around Abaddon's body.

"You tried Dean -- "

Sam said only to have his brother throw the lamp across the room in anger. Gavin glanced into the living room startled by the man's outburst. Crowley, however, never pulled his eyes away from Nikki's body.

"It's all your fault!"

Dean roared not even phasing Crowley.

"If you hadn't played her, she'd still be alive!"

"Played her? You think that's what I did? Truly?"

Crowley finally spoke up looking over at Dean. Dean's shoulders relaxed ever so slightly when he seen the redness in Crowley's eyes, the tears that threatened to spill. Something he hasn't expected to see from the demon.

"If there is anyone here that's played her it's you! You were suppose to be her friend, and you both ended up leaving her when she needed you most!"

Crowley roared. This put the brothers back. They hadn't expected such a heartless creature like Crowley to have even given a damn about her.

But maybe they were wrong.

"Can you fix this? Can you bring her back?"

Dean questioned. Sam seemed hesitant by his brother's question. Crowley stood there for a moment debating. It wasn't a matter on if he could -- it was should he? He knew the consequences that could possibly bring. But she did this saving him, so what should he really do when knowing that he was partly to blame?

"I can, but -- "

"Then do it!"

Dean roared. Crowley narrowed his eyes toward the elder Winchester. He inhaled deeply, his chest rising with his breath. Looking down at Nikki just lying there pained him. She was dead, and there wasn't much time left for her. He knew she had to be out running her reaper, she was stubborn that way.

Leaning over Crowley kissed her chilled lips. His breath hitched as he pulled away, his hand on her forehead.

"Come back to me, darling. Come back, Nikki."

He whispered so close to her lips. The brothers and Gavin watched and waited. They watched as Crowley's hand smoothed across her forehead brushing aside some of her hair.

Black eyes sprung open as she looked at Crowley. Dean looked wide eyed at her while Sam quickly shuffled to his feet. Gavin didn't seem to know what to really do.

"Hey Daddy."