Part 5 - Lost


  It was days before my father let me out of my room. As I walk through the halls I hear my father yelling at someone and I follow his voice. I look through the crack in the door and see him getting angry with one of his lackeys. "You mean to tell me you can't find this one little prophet?!" The girl straightens as she looks at my father and says, "Sir we are trying, perhaps we could use someone they trust to get close to them?" my father's head snaps up and his face turns red with anger as he yells, "Are you suggesting I use my daughter as bait?!" The dark woman stumbles backwards at the force of my father's angry voice.


"Of course not sir, I was only offering a plausible opinion. I would never think of putting your daughter in danger." Crowley nods and then looks back down at his desk as he says, "You're not as stupid as you look, but I will not place Sorcha in danger." 

"Yes sir." I hear her say and then I watch as he dismisses her and she vanishes. I wait a little bit then silently tap on the door. "Yes?" I watch as he looks up from his desk just in time to see me walk through the door. "Isn't this a surprise, did you finally decide to leave your room?" He says as he sits down at his chair. I nod as I walk over and curl up on his lap.



He wraps his arms around me and as he caresses my hair says, "I hate when we fight, makes me feel like I'm abusing you in some way." I smile as I hold tight to him. "Sometimes I wish I had been born normal; that me and you were normal human beings without a care in the world." I feel him kiss my forehead as he says, "It would be nice to be able to live a normal life, I agree with you there; but I kind of like being the king of hell." I let out a sigh as I play with one of the buttons on his suit jacket. "I was thinking how about I give you another chance at freedom as you call it?" I pull away and look into his greenish brown eyes a smile snaking across my face.


"Are you being serious?" He smiles as he says, "I am, under one condition," I smile and stand up as I say, "Whatever it is I'll do it. What's the condition?" He folds his hands together and says, "I need you to have fun." My smile grows as I say, "Thank you," 

"Your welcome." I nod as I say, "Where am I going?" 

"Don't you worry about that my dear you just need to pack." I nod as I say, "Thank you again daddy." I kiss his cheek as I leave the room and head back up to my room to pack. I walk over to my closet and as soon as I open the door I see Dean's leather jacket hanging on the door hook and tears threaten to pour from my eyes.



I quickly look away and pull out my suitcase and some clothes. I quickly pack my clothes and then take one last look at the jacket. I feel something pull at me and tell me to take it with me so I walk over and trying not to think about it I pack it in my suitcase. When I am finished packing I put on my converse and head downstairs. I walk to my father's office and open the door to see him talking with someone, a young Korean man. 

"Daddy?" I say as he turns to look at me. 

"Oh where are my manners, Kevin this is my daughter Sorcha." Kevin turns and looks at me his eyes wide with fear. "You're Sorcha?"

I look at him confused as I say, "How do you know my name?" He looks at my father and I say, "Dad, can you excuse us for a moment please?" He raises his eyebrow but walks out of the room saying, "I'll be right outside." 

When I hear the doors close behind him I say, "How do you know about me?" He looks into my green eyes and I sense the pain in his brown as he says, "Dean," My eyes widen and I look down at the floor. "What did he say?" 

"Just the basics, that you were Crowley's daughter and that you have his jacket."

My heart clenches and I look back up at him and say, "Well I guess that's what would stand out more. Why are you here?" 

"Your father brought me here, against my will." I smile as I say, "Yeah he tends to do that." 

"Can you get me out of here?" Kevin asks his eyes pleading with me. I look down at my hands as I say, "I can't. I wish I could help but I can't." The young Korean man's face turns white as he says, "Why not?" I feel something twist inside my stomach and tear falls from my eye as I say, "I can't see Dean." 

"Please," I open my mouth to say something but immediately close it. "Please," I glance back at him and my heart sinks.

I look back at the office door and say, "I'm sorry daddy." I reach down and lifting my suitcase up I hand it to him and say, "Hold this. I'll take you to Dean then I'm gone."

 "Thank you!" he says his eyes widening. I put a hand on his shoulder and seconds later we are standing in front of a random door in the side of a hill surrounded by abandon buildings. All of the sudden I hear a male voice and I take the suitcase from Kevin and say, "I've done my part, good luck." I turn and start to walk away when I hear, "Hey!" I ignore the voice and just keep walking. I try to teleport but I can't, I start to move faster down the road; when all of the sudden Dean is walking beside me.

"Hey!" he says grabbing my arm forcing me to stop. "What the hell do you think you're doing here?" I keep my eyes on the ground as I say, "Look I just brought your friend back, now I want to leave." I try to walk away again and he stops me. "Why, would you help him? You're dad's been after him since he became a prophet!" I bite my tongue and shake my head. "So you're not gonna say anything?" 

I look up into his green eyes and say, "What do you want me to say? I'm a Cambion? I'm an abomination? My genetics are evil therefore I should be evil too?" He clenches his jaw and I slowly reach down and unzipping my suitcase pull out his leather jacket, and handing it to him say, "Here, this is what you really want from me."

He takes it as I reach down and close my suitcase. "You don't have to worry about me telling my father where you are. I'm probably disowned by now; just make sure you keep him safe."

 "Where will you go?" Dean asks finally finding his voice. I avoid looking into his eyes as I say, "I don't know, I may go find Benny or I may find Meg. All I know is that I'll grow and I'll forget." I see Dean look away and a hint of sadness flickers across his face. "What?" He looks back at me his gorgeous green eyes filled with sadness says, "Benny's dead."


I start to feel light headed and I sway as I say, "What?! How?!" 

"Sam was in trouble and I couldn't get him out of purgatory." The sudden realization hits me and my heart drops. "So you sent Benny in to get him out?" Dean nods and I fall to my knees my tears trying to form in my eyes. "Meg's dead too." My heart stops and I look up at him. "What?"

 "She was helping us and she sacrificed herself to save our lives." I look back down at the ground and the tears start to pour from my eyes, "What killed her?"


"I don't think you want to know the answer to that." My head jerks up as I stare Dean down, "WHAT?!" Dean swallows a gulp of air as he says, "Crowley," My heart breaks in my chest and I grip the sides of my head as the tears cascade down my face. "I'm all alone now," I say as I think about all the good times I had shared with Meg and Benny. Seconds later I feel a hand on my shoulder and I jump back. "Don't touch me!" He jerks his hand back and I quickly force myself to stand. I grab the handle of my suitcase and start to walk away from him. "Come on where are you gonna go?" He calls out after me.


I freeze as it hits me; I have nowhere to go and no one to go to. I reach into my suitcase pocket and pull out a demon knife and I toss it at Dean's feet. I turn back toward him and letting my suitcase fall to ground I say, "You're right, I have nowhere to go." I motion to the knife as I say, "So kill me." Dean's eyes widen as he says, "I'm not gonna kill you." 

My heart clenches as I say, "Why not? Isn't that what you do Dean, kill Demons?" I walk over to him and pick the knife up and holding the sharp point to my heart I say, "I'm a Demon so kill me." 

"No! Dammit Sorcha I'm not gonna kill you." 

"Fine I'll make it easy on you." I say as my eyes turn black and I slap him.


"Kill me Dean!" He grits his teeth and I can see the anger and rage filling in his face. 

"I'm not gonna kill you." He says his green eyes peering down into mine. I clench my jaw and nod, "Fine if you won't do it, I'll get your brother too." I push past him and head back toward the secret door where Sam is watching us from. As I near him he stares at me wide eyed. I hand toss him the knife and say, "Please kill me." He stares at me in confusion and says, "Why do you want to die?" I look down at the ground as my green eyes force themselves through and say, "Because I have nothing left to live for. Everyone I care about is either dead, stabbed me in the back, or doesn't care about me at all. Please just kill me."

Sam runs a hand through his shaggy brown hair and says, "I can't." More tears push through and I nod, "Fine, I'll just find hunters who will." I hold my hand out for the knife and he stares at me confused before he hands me my knife. "Thank you anyway." I say as I turn and start back toward the highway. Dean is still walking toward me when I pass him and say, "Goodbye Dean." He grabs my arm and says, "Don't do this." I stare at him my face completely devoid of any emotion. "Why not." I jerk my arm out his grip and start back toward the highway walking right past my suitcase leaving it there lying on the ground.


I take one last look at the demon knife and then drop it on the ground as I walk away. Seconds later I am aware of someone lifting me over their shoulders like a sack of potatoes. "What the hell do you think you're doing? Let me go!" I scream out as I thrash around.

 "You're not going anywhere!" I hear Dean yell out which makes me thrash around even more. "God Dammit Dean, Why won't you let me kill myself? Why do you care?" I punch at his back as I wait for his reply. "I swear Dean you better put me down!" I yell out trying to kick at him. 

"Calm down dammit!" He says as we reach the door. 

"Dean, you don't know what'll happen if you take her in there." Sam says as we near the door.

"I guess we're about to find out." 

"I hope it kills me!" I scream out as we walk down the stairs and into the old bunker. At first I felt a burning sensation fill my body then it disappeared. I felt my body become weak and 'human'. I stop thrashing as he carries me down to the cell room. He tosses me on one of the beds and then closing the cell door says, "When you calm down you can come out!" I quickly jump up and try to use my demon abilities but they don't come. I walk over to the door and kick it until my foot feels numb.

"Please just kill me! I want to be with those who love me!" I scream out as the tears fall from my eyes. I feel my legs give way and I fall to the floor and I stay there crying my eyes out. Every few hours I would bang against the door and demand they just let me go or kill me but they never answered. "I'm sorry I couldn't protect either one of you." I say quietly as fall to the floor and curl up into the fetal position. For the first time in my entire life as a Cambion I prayed, "Please God, I know you don't like demons or my kind but please kill me; I just want to die. It would make everyone else's lives better, please just kill me. Give my life to someone who needs it. Please," Suddenly I am aware that someone is in the cell with me and I turn to see a familiar face.


"Why do you wish for death?" He asks as he kneels down beside me his trench coat softly touching the ground. "Why wouldn't I? Everyone I care about is either dead or they don't care about me. It'd be better for the world if I just disappeared." The angel sits down on the floor next to me and says, "How do you know they don't care about you?" Tears slowly drop from my eyes as I say, "They act like they do but I know deep down they don't. I'm just a burden to them."

 "How do you know?"

"I don't, but I can see it in their eyes and by their actions." All the sudden Dean pops into my head and my heart clenches.

"You care for Dean?" I look up into his blue eyes and try to deny it but I just nod instead. "I see, is he the one that you care for that does not return your affections?"

 I wipe the tears from my eyes and say, "One of them, the other is my father. He promised me he wouldn't harm someone very dear to me, but he lied. I just recently found out that he personally killed her." Castiel reaches across and takes my hand. "I am sorry for your loss, but I would suggest talking to them about your feelings." I roll my eyes as I force myself to stand up.


"I can't talk to them. I just helped the prophet my father has been searching for escape from hell, and to make matters worse I brought him to the people my father hates the most. They are not going to listen to me." Castiel stands and for the first time since I had met him in Purgatory I see how kind and caring he is. "I still think you should talk to them." I roll my eyes and walk to the other end of the cell. "I wish it was that simple." When I turn back to face him he is gone and in his place stands Dean.


"What do you want?" I ask as I fold my arms across my chest. "I don't know you tell me? One moment I was talking to Sam and the next I'm down here." I tilt my head in confusion as I say, "I didn't do it. Don't you think that if I could teleport you here I would still be here?" he looks at me and nods. "Then who," 

"I did." We both turn to see Castiel standing a few feet away, "Cass, what the hell?" Dean says as he walks toward his friend. "You two are going to discuss what's going on between the two of you." 

"What?" Dean and I say in unison as we walk toward him. "You're not coming out until you do." Then he disappears leaving Dean and I alone.

I look over at Dean to see him bang on the door, "This isn't funny Cass! Open the dam door!" I roll my eyes and walk over to the cot and sit down while he yells at the door. After about thirty minutes of Dean's yelling I finally snap, "Dear god Dean, shut up!" He turns toward me and rolls his eyes.

 "Or what?" I stand up and folding my arms say, "So help me Dean I will make you!" He walks over to me and standing inches from me says, "Oh really, and how are you gonna do that?" Reaching up I grab his shirt collar and pulling his head down to mine press my lips to his. I could taste the whiskey and pie on his breath as I quickly let go of him and take a step back.

He stares at me confused for a moment then says, "What was that?" I swallow a breath of air as I say, "I had to get you quiet somehow." He clenches his jaw as he nods. "Dean, why do care whether I live or die?" he looks taken aback by my words as he shrugs his shoulders and walks away from me. "I don't know." 

"Dean please," He looks back at me and says, "I don't know okay! I just know I don't want," he looks down at the floor as he says, "After last time, in Texas when I saw you tied to that bed bleeding and crying; I never wanted to see you like that ever again."


I look down at my hands my heart crying out for him, "So when you wanted to die, I lost it. I didn't know what to do." 

"Dean, why didn't you just tell me?" 

"What was I gonna say? Huh, that I was worried about the one person I'm not supposed to worry about?!" 

I look up into his green eyes and say, "Yes, if you would've told me I wouldn't have tried to kill myself!" He stares at me in disbelief as he says, "What?" Tears start to pour from my eyes as I say, "Dean I thought that everyone that cared about me was dead. Benny, Meg, I thought I was all alone." 

"What about Crowley?" I roll my eyes as I say, "My father probably has every Demon and Hellhound out looking for me, so that he can bring me home and torture me until he finds Kevin." 

"He'd do that to his own daughter?" He asks as he walks back over to me.


I nod as I say, "He is the king of hell. He has a reputation to uphold."

 "Well if you ask me that's kind of shitty." 

"Dean, I don't know what to do." I look up into his eyes as he says, "Well you can't leave. If you do Crowley will find you for sure." I lay my hands on his chest and say, "Then what do you expect me to do?" 

"Stay with me." I pull back and stare at him dumbfounded, "What?" 

"Stay here, with me." 

"Dean, I can't put you in danger like that. My father won't stop until he finds me, and when he does," I pause for a second then say, "Dean, I refuse to let him hurt you."

"He can't find you here, it's like this place is invisible to evil creatures. You're safer here then out there alone. Dammit let me protect you!" 

"Dean, you can't," I walk past him to the door and say, "No matter how long it takes he will keep looking for me and the minute you walk out that door he's gonna come after you." 

"I can protect myself Sorcha," 

"Not against him. Dean, he's my father; I know him better than anyone." I let out a heavy sigh as I say, "You have to let me go Dean." I watch as a tear falls from his eye. 

"I'm sorry but I can't." I nod and then knock on the door, "Cass, can you let us out now?"

After a few seconds the cell door opens and I hug Cass as I walk past him. "Thank you, it's good to know I have people that care about me." Cass nods and I walk past him, up the stairs, to see Sam sitting at the table looking rough. "Are you okay?" I ask as I near him. He nods as he attempts to stand up. "Sam!" I yell out as he falls to the floor. I rush over and lift him back up to his chair. I feel his forehead to see that he has a fever. "Come on Sam." I say as I attempt to lift him up. "Where's the shower?" He looks at me confused and I smile, "It'll help bring your fever down." He points down the hall and I slowly start to carry him down to the shower.


"Take you clothes off." 

"What?" I smile at his expression and say, "Sam I'm over three hundred years old, I'm pretty sure there isn't anything you have that I haven't seen." He smiles as he says, "Yeah, but I'm pretty sure Dean isn't going to be happy about this." I smile as I say, "Yeah, well he can get over it. If it makes you feel better I'll turn around." He nods and I smile as I turn my back to him. "Okay," he says and I turn to see his lower half covered in a towel. I walk over to the shower and turn the cold water on. "Get in; I'll be back in about twenty minutes." 

"Why are you helping me?" I smile as I say, "Cause, you're my friend." I turn and walk back up to the front room to see Dean and Kevin talking.


Dean turns and seeing me starts walking over to me. "You decided to stay?" He says a hint of hope in his voice. "I know what you and your brother are doing, the trials and all that. I know of a way to make it easier on Sam." Dean's eyes widen as he says, "Sorcha, I," I hold up my hand as I say, "Dean, I want you to do the trials. There is a fifty-fifty chance that I will be sent back. If I do then at least I'll know you guys are safe." 

"And if you don't?" I smile as I look down at the ground, "I'll figure that out when the time comes."

I see the hint of hope grow bigger as he says, "So you can help Sam?" 

I shrug, "I can't cure him but I can make it better for him. These trials weren't meant for humans, so I don't know the extent of his reaction to them." 

"Cass said he was beyond his healing abilities." I nod as I say, "That's because Cass is an angel. Now where is the kitchen I want to make Sam some medicine and also something to eat." He smiles as he leads the way to the kitchen. Even if it's just for the moment i will stay here and help Sam get better.  

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