Raima

I was in the balcony... looking out to the endless sea from my Beach side bungalow...its 7:00 AM..a regular day..and my usual habit of watching and reading people taking their morning strolls...interacting bitching...and what not... well to be true....I have seen people even in the night but night strollers come her do things they want to hide... This city never sleeps...just like me.....

2 yrs it has been full 2 yrs since I stepped into this city the city of dreams MUMBAI.....I have always heard that this city is generous it accepts anybody and everybody....making them its part....but this city took something I am looking for ....this is why I am here....and I am not leaving till I get what I want .....till I will have all the answers... ... its going good.....I know it will take time to bear results ....but I will wait.....wait for that one apology....for that one person to be on keens with folded hands .....all I crave for is tears and pain...I sound like a sadist...Oh I am... ...yes... they who know me call me heartless...stubborn...rude...and not to forget Bitch!!! But no one dares to fight me.....because I am a Bitch.... I don't forgive...for me there is no right and wrong...right is what makes me happy and wrong...which upsets me...I let out a laugh hearing my own thoughts....but my thoughts are broken with approaching foot steps ...I know who is it.... its my PA Snehal...she stands and safe distance ; ''Rini....Arjun's manager called.....they are asking for a meeting''

I smiled ...2 yrs are bearing fruit...this is what I have been waiting for...I turned and looked at Snehal...she gulped ...I just let out a sigh....she is my confidante but she shivers every time she meets me....I took a seat and gestured Snehal to sit....she sat shaking her legs...finally I decided to end this silence ; ''Asking!!! are they ???.....wait for them to request''

Snehal looked at me all confused; ''This is what you have been waiting for ....2 yrs Rini.... 2 yrs we waited for this one opportunity....then why this delay''

I smiled at her query....she always had been this hyper....I got up walked to Snehal took her hand between my palms; ''yes Snehal.....I have been waiting for this ...you know this I know this ....Arjun doesn't.....Snehal....something I have learned all these yrs is to be a need ...an irreversible....irreplaceable need.... And to be available on your will....and not at others. This is when people realize your worth....''

Snehal wasn't satisfied she looked at me with lot of questions; ''What if they don't come back....we will be back to square one...'' I watched her ...I love this girl....what ever had happened in the past....she never left my side....she knows my best and worst...I caressed her face... '' Snehal...they will come back... they need us ...trust me ...''

Snehal smiled; ''Rini....Arjun is a good man....don't you think its wrong to use him....plus you are tearing apart ''

I couldn't stop the tears that rolled down my cheek....even I was good...innocent ...harmless who cared...and now I don't.... I wanted some answers; '' I am not harming Arjun....I am using him and I am not sorry....Snehal my definition of wrong is something which doesn't benefits me...Any ways don't give them any clear answer....let them come back....somehow I enjoy when people request ''

Snehal smiled and got up; ''your mom called....speak to her....don't punish her ...she is too is hurt'' I just nodded ...Snehal walked off leaving me again with my loneliness ....anger....I know Mom is shattered ...but I don't have answers to her questions....what do I do....anger takes over me again recalling the 3yr old incident....I just smash the vase kept on the table and scream for the maid....

Nitin

'' You will be jumping from the terrace on the vehicle....and then you will running on the top of the vehicles to reach the van of the goon.....'' I was just looking at the stunt director ....and my mind was asking me...what am I doing....my career was soaring high....I have won almost all the best actors award for this year...I loved this job...but something was at a miss....i never thought of doing a meaningless movie....but my manager says I should try...fine who refuses good money...they signed me for a bomb...I hell care....all I care is money....I looked at the stunt director nodded and got ready for the shot...

My shot came out perfect.....The director and producers were chanting my praises like holy hymens... as if I am some god....but I loved it....my shoot was over I changed into my favourite v neck black T-shirt and jeans ....as I glanced at my refection .....the face girls die for....the look every guy desired....crowd roars for me....they keep standing for hours waiting for my one glance....this is all I wanted....I desired to be king and I am the one....Nitin the super star....The Youth Icon....heartthrob....and a lot more....I came to the glamour world at the age of 22....I have struggled...fallen...I was bruised...was spat on face....kicked a no. of times.....I wanted to give up.....but she never let me do that...she healed all my wounds with a single touch....the feel of her tender skin still tingles my breath....only she can make me smile....I still remember few yrs back it was a famous director's party...his birthday bash....and I was celebrating being the new member of 100 cr club....she wanted to stay back....yet I pushed her to come with me....I wanted to attend for my benefit...plus I loved flaunting her....I smiled thinking about her ... Ah! she is beautiful....more than the word itself....I walked in the party with my arm looped around her....it was a star studded affair....she was nervous....I kept her close...many gave us a mocking look.....They found it strange the way I held on to her.... Like a priced possession....I knew that ....some appreciated and others were jealous of our commitment....I felt hungry eyes prying her soft body...I held her arm tightly to warm them...this was my message to the world she was mine...I pecked her cheek gently...she blushed....one was the stars Praneet .....greeted us and asked my permission to have a dance with my heart....I wanted to kill him....but I behaved Like a gentle man and allowed her...Praneet was getting cosy with her....I felt her discomfort....she tried moving out but he gripped her waist tight...that was it....I couldn't take more....i punched him...smashing him to the floor...she pulled me aside to stop there were gossips...whispers I hell cared...I don't spare when it comes to her ...and next day ...I was on the cover page..... ''Bollywood gets its Bad Boy'' .... That cry baby Praneet made a fuss of the night....I hardly cared....when it was about her ....I could fight the almighty... But she did not give me a chance ....and left me alone...My staff gossips .she was a bad influence....she kept me in check...but the truth is its not just my struggle it was hers to....she made me what I am today...without asking anything in return...yet sometimes I feel she never understood me...I loved her....and she loved my mistakes more....she loved to pinpoint them...reprimand me....yet I loved her ....but she left me...

Now I just want to be the undisputed king of this industry....I am.... almost...only one stands in my way....Arjun...he doesn't deserve to be there...he was born with a golden spoon...Son of a famous star...and engaged to the daughter of the wealthiest producer cum financer...his path had been easy....and then the media calls him a gentle man...bloody fake ....I want to de throne him ....and I will.....I wanted to hire Raima heard she is the best media manager ...but she refuted me...nerve of her....she came in the industry 2 yrs back...became the partner in the most famous entertainment channel/magazine...only God knows how.....how and what she did accuquire such a big share in such famous channel...she should be someone powerful...she meets no one.....only her dummy...her PA is the one people see...one day that snooty female will lick my feet...I will claim the throne without her.....and then I will find my love.....bring her back to me ....I miss her so much.... ''Sir you car is ready....'' My manager bought me out of my thoughts ...I smiled at the refection of mine...the bad boy was back and I walked out

Arjun

My morning again started with my parents quarrelling....this had been going on since I understood the difference between talking and shouting ....initially I would sit in the corner covering my ears but now I hardly care....the day I don't hear them screaming and throwing cus words at each other is the day I get worried of their well being...sounds funny to you...but this is my reality...we look like an ideal family to the world but inside we are just fake like the movies...don't know when will I find my happily ever after...But after all this what keeps them together is their love for me...My parents had a love marriage...marrige I am scared of it now....I am Arjun...just like my name I was taught only to target th bird's eye...and I do that...the reigning star of the industry....movies sell by name....they call me born star...I doubt that...I try to give my best...that's because my dad wanted me to be ...the king of Bollywood...

My Dad he was one of the most sort out actor of his times....girls would flock him...he loved all that..tast when he met my mother and fell for her simplicity and her free spirited nature.... They got married soon and I was born witin a year...everything was fine...My mom was all in the awe of being married to a super star....Super Star...that where the problem was....my dad could never leave the super star staus behind at the sets...it would come home sitting on his head...he expected to be treated like a king...slowly mom started getting irritated...she felt trapped suffocated....after all it wasn't a movie...gradually even minor discussion started resulting in fights....I hated all that...but slowly it became a part of my life...But is this what I really want ...No

No one knows what resides in my heart....Like every young soul I wanted to be loved...I am still hopeful on this relationship of marriage...I have seen a beautiful one...Gupta Uncle my manager...he had been my dad's manger too...he is a sweet heart... ...He and is wife are so much in love together even after 30 yrs of marriage...I find it cute.... whatever I am ...its because of him...I follow all his instructions....he taught me honesty....humility and hard work....I will always follow that...and he is trying to approach....Raima the current media mogul....something is different about this female...she works with them who have no hope and is successful....last year she signed a contract with a struggling actress who could just manage B grade movies...don't know what and how Raima did.....the actress became a star....she keeps on praising Raima....I could see the respect in her eyes....but there are people who hate her to the core...one of the famous director wanted to meet her....his fault he went to her office...without an appointment....she made him wait of 7 hrs... according to the director...he left without meeting her...but if you believe the gossip mills...he met her and rubbed her the bad way....she threw a glass of water on his face...humiliating him in the worst possible way...I have minimum hopes she will agree to work with me....but one day I want to meet her....Why ??? I don't know.....may be because she is always behind the curtain....

Screech!!!! I took a deep breath hearing that sound....that's my fiancé Nivedita's car....yes I am committed and I plan to build my home with her...but don't know Why how much ever I try....I am not able to love her....she is just a commitment...which I am going to keep....for my Mom !....I ignore all her tantrums and snobbish behaviour....and people adjust to her for me....she is obsessed about being my fiancé....she just loves to flaunt me....I close my eyes in frustration....for once I too want to fall in love....let it be a heart break...but want to experience that feeling...

'Sir Nivedita Ma'am is waiting for you'....and that's my cutie pie my butler's 10yr old daughter Minu.....I smile at her...and she does the same...I know why she came with a message....she requested some books which her orthodox father refused....I got them for her...this is a deal between us...I gave her the parcel she looked around before giving me a hug; ''Thanks Bhai....'' I pecked top of her head...and watched her running holding the parcel hugging to her chest....this makes me happy....But smile vanishes as my eyes fall on Nivedita....well can't help it...I got up and walked down the stairs to meet my would be wife.

Sameera

Darkness....is all I see...I don't for how long it had been engulfing me...but I don't see a way out...it feels like running on a never ending dark road...I don't see the end or the beginning.... I am trapped....I miss him ....his arms around me....I loved waking up next to him....and now I am smiling between my tears....only his memories keep the hope alive....but again I heart is gripped in a icy fear...what if he really let me go....why isn't he looking for me.....I am waiting ....waiting for him to call my name...to pull me in his closed embrace....I loved when he rocked me against his chest...but this is gain a memory...he was mad at me that night....we fought ....we fought bad....he raised finger at my commitment...I couldn't take it...I left ....and now I feel I shouldn't have...my heart aches for him...and bad...I can feel a tear rolling down my cheek....it again took me back to a memory....I was 16 ...he was 18...same college we had been friends since kinder garden...I was walking home after my classes it was evening and dark..when I felt someone following me ...I started walking faster...so did my stalker...and in few minutes pushed against a near by tree...I looked all horrified that was Nitin....I couldn't understand his expression....his eyes had anger and lips were twitched into a smirk...I spoke between the tears... ''you scared me''

Nitin; ''You should be....have you lost your head...that to decided to walk back all alone through this spooky road''

I looked down all apologetic; ''Didn't wanted anyone bothered''

He smiled leaned and captured my tear between his lips and whispered on my cheek... ''I would love to be bothered when its you....and mind you...it should always be me...and no one...I will destroy everything if you leave me.... You are mine...just mine....'' I gaped at him like an idiot...he smiled and before I could say a word he laid his lips on to mine...I can't express in words...how I felt...I felt I was born again....but my bubble breaks again...I am not with him...he cannot hear me...may be he no more trusts me..this is why he isn't looking for me...I fear this darkness around me...but more than that I fear...losing my place in his heart

I sobbed...!!! ''You are a slut....hear me out Sameera...I thought you were different...but you are no different....'' These were the words he had thrown at me ....anger grips me...I will not forgive you for this Nitin...you hurt me bad....I scream my pain in the loudest possible way...but I know no one is there to hear me out....

Nitin POV

Nitin- ''Sameeraaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!........'''I scream out of my bed....she needs me... I need to find her

Raima

My room windows rattle vigorously ....and I am brought to present....it's a cyclone...it appears like my life...full of storms...tears...anger...my nights are never calm...how can they be....I need my peace....and I shall have it ....come what may....

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Revenge- ''you are responsible for my birth''

Love with a smile; ''Is it so...then I will be responsible for your death''