May's POV (Elena)

I lost track of the day, ilang araw na ba ako dito? After that confrontation I decided to stay away from everyone. I decided to leave this world in peace. This small room is where I should live out my remaining days. I have learned many things since I started this new life. There is more to life than desk papers, new business proposals, documents and work.

You cannot call what you have in hand success when you aren't happy. I have learned the bitter truth of life when I was forced back to the twisted kind of reality. Love cannot conquer all especially not death. I would have not realized this if this didn't happen... A memory flashed inside my mind as a bitter smile carved into my lips...

"Elena, matagal nating pinlano ang engagement party na 'to. How can you move the engagement date without even telling me?" Luke angrily complained when he entered my office.

Napasabunot ako sa buhok ko bago ko hinarap si Luke. This engagement party can wait, but not the Lazaros' I need to make sure the Lazaro will merge with our company, not the Rodriguez!

"Not now, Luke. I need to tend to Lazaro first," I simply said while putting on my glasses to begin signing the paperwork, but Luke grabbed my pen forcibly, causing me to frown at him. "Luke, I have no time for—"

"We will talk Elena," he sternly ordered.

This was the first I have seen such a conviction in his eyes... Usually he would just let things go but I seriously have no time for this. Tumayo ako sa upuan ko and decided to walk out.

"Hanggang kailan ba ako makikipag kompetensya sa kompanya niyo Elena?" I can feel extreme pain in his voice

Shit, I don't know anymore. I'll be doomed if I lose the Lazaro. We need them for this expansion. I can't allow a single mistake in running the company. I felt Luke's hand gripped my wrist.

"Listen Luke. That engagement party can wait pero hindi ang mga Lazaro, malaking asset sila sa kompanya at 'di ko hahayaang mapunta sila sa mga Rodriguez," I explained, frustrated. "You know this is important to me, Luke."

"Elena, we've been preparing this for years, and you're just going to suddenly change the date because some business partners have backed out?"

"They are important to our company Luke!" I answered in disbelief. "Are we seriously going to fight over this?"

"Am I not important to you Elena?" sagot niya puno ng hinanakit.

I let out an exasperated sigh. I am toot tired for this. "I seriously have no time for this."

"You're doing it because you know I love you and that I'll never leave you, is that it Elena?"

I didn't like the tone of his voice. Isisnusumbat niya ba talaga sa akina ng pag-mamahal niya?

"Are you threatening me now Luke?" I glared at him. I still can't believe he is being this unreasonable. "Kung aalis ka then just go!"

His eyes reflected sadness and pain that I immediately regretted what I just said. No, this was not what I was trying to... This wasn't supposed to be how it ends. What am I saying? What if he leave like mom? I shook my head while massaging my temple and decided to leave Luke. We will only fight if we continue this. There's just too much, I can't... I don't know what to do.

"I'm a lawyer Elena and you know how much I hate losing in an argument but damn," I heard him let out a deep sigh and pulled me to a hug. I bit my lower lip trying to stop my tears from falling. "I don't mind forfeiting this case for you. I'm sorry babe and I love you so much. No matter how long it takes I will wait for you... I will wait. I will never leave, I'm sorry."

I splashed the water in my face to come back to my senses. Yes, he was true to his words but even if Luke will accept me in this body it will only cause him pain. He doesn't deserve to suffer just because of me. He deserves better. I never thought of dying and I have taken life for granted.

I almost forgot that every one of us is going to die sooner or later. I would've spent my life more ... humanly. There's too many I should have. I should've lived my life in the present and not let myself be trapped in the past. Maybe, just maybe I could have held your hand much longer Luke. Kinuha ko ang face towel ko at pinunasan ang sarili saka dumeretso sa study table ko.

I forgot that in this world, like seasons and trends everything is temporary, even our lives.. And sooner I know you will learn to love the new Elena and when that happens I hope you will be happier. I'm sorry, I know deep inside me. I have already realized when I made this kind of wish that you would be part of my sacrifices. I'm sorry because I know in the end I still wouldn't be able to choose you. I don't deserve you.

"I even had to borrow a dying woman's body just to meet you," I whispered to myself as I looked at the scattered pictures and documents on my desk.

I gave up everything for this. I gave up my life, I gave up Luke... I gave up too much and it hurts to see those smile on your face. But even if it's already killing me inside. Even if it hurts, I can't just seem to hate you, Mom... Kinuha ko ang phone ko at napansing oras na para kumain. I grabbed my jacket, wallet, and key and went out of the motel I was staying in.

Nanlaki ang mata ko at nabitawan ko ang hawak kong susi sa biglang nag-eskandalo na humawak sa braso ko, "Walang hiya ka talaga! Akala mo ba hahayaan kitang mamatay ng mapayapa?!"

How the heck did she know where I am? 'Di makapaniwalang napatitig ako kay Yummie, how? Her eyes were welling up with tears as she lightly punched me. I noticed a familiar figure standing next to a black sports car. Of course, it's him. He is the only one capable of tracking me down. His stalking skills are still top-notched. Sinamaan ko ng tingin si Yummie. By the looks of his eyes, alam kong alam niya na.

"Huwag mo akong pandilatan! Hindi na ako takot sa taong malapit ng ma-ma-mamatay!" She cried as she mentioned the last word. "May nalalaman ka pang take care Yummie. Kailan mo ba maiintindihan na hindi kita iiwan, hindi bukas, hindi ngayon. Alam kong kailangan mo ako ngayon, ako nalang ang pamilya mo at hinding hindi kita papabayaan"Marahan ko syang itinulak at tinalikuran sila.

What are they doing when I'm trying to peacefully live my remaining days here? A moment of silence envelope us. Do I have to spell it out to her that I don't want her in my remaining life now?

"Sir Chase? Pwede bang iwan mo muna kami?" Yummie requested without looking back at Chase.

Chase stared at me for a moment before letting out a sigh as if raising his white flag. I know he is eager to talk to me but I don't want to talk to him or to anyone of them.

"We'll talk after, May," Chase stated before leaving Yummie awkwardly standing while fidgeting.

"Just leave," I ordered as I walked towards a near karenderya.

Nakabalik na lamang ako sa motel ay ramdam ko pa rin ang presensya ni Yummie. She was silent but I can feel her tailing me! Is she a puppy? Lumingon ako sa kanya and saw her intently staring at me.

"Anong ibig mong sabih—"

"That's the truth Yummie," I cut her off. She bitterly smiled at me, I can clearly read what's running in that brain of hers. "I wouldn't be making those unbelievable stories just to push you away and you know that."

She was silent for a long time before I saw her smile at me. A smile I can't understand. What are the meaning of those smile?

"Wala akong pakialam. Nangako ako sa sarili ko na kahit anong mangyari ay hinding—" she gleefully stated but I decided to cut her off.

"But I DO care Yummie!" I shouted in irritation.

She let out a deep sigh and held my hand. "Nasa katawan ka ng best friend ko kaya mapa-Elena o May ka man hanggat ikaw si May Gonzales, ikaw ang best friend ko. At hinding hindi ako bibitaw"

With gritted teeth, I sharply stared at her. "I've tried being nice but if you really want this kind of treatment then so be it."

She stared at me with teary eyes. If you'll learn the truth how will you handle it Yummie? How will you handle being part of the misery of someone else's life without your knowledge? You see the world as something beautiful, how will you be able to handle the reality? Will you be able to wake up from your beautiful fairy tale? Do you have that kind of courage? In the short time I spent with you, I already know you too well.

"Hindi mo na ako masasaktan sa mga salita mo May, tanggap ko na—" She was tightly squeezing my hand. I told you in that letter Yummie, I told you everything. Once I tell you everything, I know you won't be able to take it. You are that kind of person.

"I hate you Yummie," I saw her froze, confusion and pain was evident in her eyes. "The woman you call Mamita is my mother, Natividad," I coldly uttered and at the same time she unconsciously let go of my hand