It was quiet during the hospital visiting hours. Rachel laid in bed bitting her nail then spitting it out.

"I always said that was a bad habit." Reid commented making her jump and her head snap up.

"You're, You're not supposed to be here. No, no, no. You need... you need to go, go, go, go." she shook her head grabbing her buzzer

"Rachel, Rachel please. I just wanted to say I'm sorry...I'm so sorry." Rachel got out of bed but dropped to the ground. she groaned as it pulled on wires she was connected to. Nurses rushed in to help her.

"He's, he's not supposed to be here, He's no, no, please get him out." Reid moved back in tears and then left.

The next day, Reid sat quietly at his desk when JJ arrived. She saw her friend in a state

"Spence, what happened?" she asked crouching in front of him.

"It's all my fault, JJ. What happened to Rachel..." JJ cut him off

"No it is't the man who did this Kyle Dane it's his fault. He did that to her, not you." she told him

"It doesn't matter. In er eyes I'm just as bad. I hurt her, I dismissed her in what she was thinking because yes I had began to fall for Maeve. She knew that and she was hurt, the arguments, the secrets the lies it drove her to want to forget it all, just for one night and he took advantage of her. If I had just been honest, maybe she wouldn't have been there, maybe she wouldn't have had so much, maybe she would have listen to the voice telling her to stop instead of replaying everything that went wrong.

JJ she was raped and in that moment, when all she could do to protect her self was to mentally log out, she was with Hotch not me, he protected her and I didn't."

"You can't blame your..."

"I can. I can." he stood and stormed off

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Eight Months later Hotch walked into the confrere room where everyone was waiting.

"What is it?" Garcia asked "Is it something bad? I always feel like every time you do this is really bad."

"This Morning, Rachel informed me that she spoke with Strauss and she requested that when her leave is finished and cleared for active duty she be transferred to Sam Coopers Red Cell team or Garretts International Response team. She will not be returning here." Hotch informed them.

"What why?" Reid questioned

"She didn't say, but what she did says is that it was no one's fault, not even yours Reid but she needed to do this for herself."

-4 Years Later-

-Rachel-

"Rachel, Matt." Garrett called  us over. The two of us came to stand in front of him. I cradled my nearly ready to pop stomach.

"You two are heading to Mexico, Spencer Reid has been arrested and your heading to help out Emily." he told us

"Spencer, arrested for what?" I question wondering why my ex was in jail

"She'll debrief you once your on the ground but, you can't take the jet so it's commercial for you, grab your things." we nodded and did so. On the flight, Matt and I was thankfully next to each other.

"So how longs it been since you two saw each other?" Matt wondered

"Four Years." I reply and he oohs "Yeah, the first two years I actively avoided him, which wasn't all that hard, the next two was just pure chance."

"Bad breakup? I heard what had happened."

"How could you not, B.A.U is a big family. But it was difficult, it took me a while to separate him and that monster. Anyway times have moved on, we're now clearly different people." I pointed down

"Clearly." he chuckled. When we touched down and arrived Emily was there to greet us

"Rachel." she beamed hugging me "Look at you."

"Hey Em." I returned it

"Matt." the two hugged as well.

"So what's going on? Garrett didn't say much only that we were heading here on the shittest flight possible?" I question

"Reid's been arrested for possession of drugs with intent to distribute and murder." she told us

"Murder and Reid in the same sentence, that's not possible. Drugs runner reid also." I denied

"We're still waiting on toxicology and we know he's being framed but the circumstantial evidence is piling up." she went on to explain everything she knew before we went to see Reid.

"Reid, little good news back up is here." Emily chimed as we were let into the large cell. he stood and turned

"Hey Reid." Matt and I greeted

"Hey, thank you for coming." his eyes fell on me

"Of course. Jack and May are finishing up a case in Costa Rica. So we hopped on a commercial plane to get here." I replied

"We're trying to stop your transfer to El Dablo." Matt added

"You think that's possible?" he wondered

"Yes, lab reports on the vial came back, some of the compounds  haven't been approved by the FDA but no illegal substances." I relayed to him

"That's good news" Em added

"Reid, is there anything you remember about your time here?" I inquire

"I remember what happened to the vials, my mom threw most of them away." I nodded in understanding

"So that's your reason for being here. To get more."

"must be."

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We had managed to get Reid moved back Stateside and back under our jurisdiction. I sat on the jet reading when he sat down in front of me. I put the book down.

"The first time I see you in four years and I'm under arrest for drug possession and murder, and you're pregnant and married." he glanced down at my wedding ring.

"Only in our world huh?" I joked he gave me a small smile

"I'm sorry." he said

"Reid, what happened. It wasn't your fault, it was Kyle Dane and my stupidity for not packing up and going home earlier." I shake my head

"But you wouldn't...."

"Stop, it happened Reid, it happened and we can't change it. I've dealt with it and while it will always be apart of me, I've learned to not let it rule what I do anymore." he nodded

"So..." he cleared his throat "Who's the lucky guy?" he wondered. I chuckled and sighed

"Mick Rawson."

"From Sam Coopers team?" I nodded

"Yeah, 3 years ago during my on going battle with my head and being on a new team. Gun range notorious flirt but a heart of gold and treat me like a Queen. SSA Rachel Rawson, had us laughing for weeks" I giggled

"I'm happy if you're happy." he smiled awkwardly "So um, when are you due? If you don't mind me asking."

"She is due within the next month this and Costa Rica was my last stop before maternity leave."

"You're having a girl." he clarified

"Well it was a 50/50 chance either way and it makes a nice change, I think between us the future of the B.A.U need some badass females." he laughed "Mick is trying to convince me of Mickalya. No chance."

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Garcia sat across from Reid during her visit to see him. She kept him updated on everything and anything.

"Oh, I don't know how this will make you feel but Rachel had her baby. Artemis Rawson 7 pounds 9 ounces." Garcia told him

"Artemis, Goddess of the Hunt wild animals, vegetation and of chastity and childbirth. Fitting for her hopes of maybe her following in her parents footsteps" he nodded