FORTY SIX: THE ONLY LIGHT

THIRD PERSON POV

FLASHBACK

"Nam...hee?" Yoongi said. Those were the only words that came out of his mouth.

"I'm sorry sir, she was shot in the abdomen. The blood was too much that she passed away," the doctor said as Yoongi stared at the lifeless body of Namhee, who laying down on the white bed.

"What....," Yoongi spoke as tears flooded his eyes, rolling down one by one as he ran out of the exit.

He felt every part of his heart break, the more steps he took as he stepped away from her lifeless body, the more twisted he felt on the inside. It felt like he was still gripped onto his feelings. He can't accept it. No, he mustn't accept that she's dead.

He must accept it, but he can't.

He can't let go of her, because he adored her so much.

"Namjoon," Yoongi said as he stopped infront of Namjoon, whose eyes were long gone of light and joy, he looks up lifelessly at Yoongi.

"What was that? Namhee.... that was her, why?" Yoongi asked as he stared at him.

"Your sister.... she's.... she's....," Yoongi spoke, but his tears started to flow down his cheeks faster, his eyes were red and he clenched his fists.

"I'm sorry.... Yoongi," Namjoon said as he slowly stood up.

"If I'd known Namhee would die.... I wouldn't have joined Bangtan in the first place," Namjoon said as walked past him.

"How can I protect the rest of you.... if I can't protect my own sister," Namjoon muttered.

"Yoongi..... Namhee... she loved you, but I guess that's too late," Namjoon said as he walked away slowly.

Yoongi was still standing there, infront of the empty seat Namjoon sat on. He closed his eyes shut as tears continued to fall from his eyes, his fists clenched because of how many emotions that came running in him.

The other boys were coming soon, but Yoongi ran all the way to the hospital first, knowing his first love passed away.

END OF FLASHBACK

"Up until this day, no one knew who did that her. But one thing is certain, she's dead. And one of the reasons would probably be in this tape," Taehyung said as he took the remote before placing his finger on the continue button.

"By the way, it's Namhee's death anniversary soon too. After we get Yuuri, we should go together, and I know she'll be happy when she sees us, I can feel it," Jungkook smiled weakly, and I smiled back.

"Reminds me of the time Jungkook didn't even believe in love back then, he's such a grown up now," Taehyung said as he stared at him dreamily, and Jungkook rolled his eyes.

"Shut up Taehyung," Jungkook whispered, and Taehyung smirked.

"Little did he know that.... he did end up falling so hard," Taehyung grinned and Jungkook glared at him before throwing empty bottle of water at him, and he flinched as it hit his head.

"I said shut up Taehyung!" Jungkook whispered loudly as his cheeks reddened and Soujin sighed.

"You know I'm right here between you both, right?" Soujin said and the both of them went silent.

"Namhee.... she was an amazing person," Hoseok spoke suddenly, and the four people seated eyed him, this is the first time he spoke in a while.

"That kickboxing match, the karaokes.... Taehyung, it was always the three of us, Namhee, me, and you," Hoseok smiled as he looked at him.

"I'm sure... Namhee is resting well," Taehyung said as he say closely beside him.

"But I have a question," Soujin aaid as she looked at Namhee's face on the screen.

"Namhee looked like Jimin, and Yoongi... has expressed his desire to always be with him wherever he goes...," Soujin said.

"Is he... inlove with Namhee that he saw her in Jimin?" She asked, and Taehyung went silent.

"I think... that's not something to discuss deeply because Yoongi hyung still hasn't healed from that. He's sensitive when anyone mentions Namhee. But Namhee was his first love," Taehyung responded.

"Ah yeah, even if it was years ago I still remember it," Jungkook said. "He loved her so much, but he was afraid of confessing to her."

"Why is that?" Soujin asked and Jungkook smiled.

"I guess that's what Yoongi hyung is, he likes to watch people from afar being happy while he's the one sorting his feelings out," Jungkook said as he looked at Soujin.

"After her death, Yoongi hyung stopped playing the piano and he never touched it. He started smoking to get his mind off of her, and it never worked," Jungkook continued.

"But Soujin, I know Yoongi has also developed a good side for you, he wanted protect you, and he probably did that because he thought Namhee would do the same thing," Jungkook smiled. "I do too, I trust you, Soujin."

"That isn't just trust, it's like like likey, get your facts checked-"

"I am going to cut your tongue."

-

"Who do you see in me, Yoongi?" Jimin asked silently as he looked down on the floor.

"I... see..," Yoongi trailed off as he blinked.

"Namhee," Jimin said, as he looked up at him with closed eyes, a smile plastered on his face.

"You see Namhee in me, because I look like her," Jimin said as he gripped the railings of the balcony.

"You're never over her. When we both talk, you're just restraining yourself from talking about Namhee, right?" He said, and Yoongi heard a crack in his voice.

"You don't love her, it's more than love... you're obssessed with her," Jimin said softly, trying the calm himself down.

"Jimin.... I...," Yoongi said and Jimin looked at him.

"You what? No words? Because I'm right. You treated me like how you wanted to treat Namhee because you lost her, Yoongi!" Jimin said, and tears brimmed his eyes.

"You're right, I still love her. I think about Namhee everyday. But I can't help it, I'm afraid of losing her," Yoongi said and Jimin nodded.

"I understand. But it's not your love or feelings I care of, and I'm not mad because of that," Jimin said softly.

"You're the same as all of them, Yoongi," Jimin said as tears streamed down his face.

"No matter what I do, no matter how good or fucked up I've gone through... no one will see me for who I am, right?" Jimin said as he smiled through the tears.

"They're only attracted to that disguise... that facade I'm putting on for them.... I can't even take that off when I'm infront of you," Jimin said as he turned his back at him, wiping his tears.

"Besides, Bangtan probably only accepted me because I look like Namhee. And to think I trusted you, that you'd be the only one to truly love me for who I am, but yup... all my life, I always wore a disguise," Jimin said as he slowly walked back inside.

"I stopped dressing as a woman because of you," Jimin spoke.

"Because of you, I hated Namhee," Jimin said without looking back at him, leaving Yoongi on his own thoughts.

-

"Jimin? Where are you going? Hey! Are you okay?" Jungkook said as his eyes widened, seeing Jimin's tear stains on his cheeks.

"I'm fine, it's good... just the cold weather," Jimin smiled as he walked towards his room.

"Yeonjun, can I trade places with you for the night?" Jimin said and Hoseok stood up as he looked at Taehyung.

"I'm staying with Jimin, so Taehyung... I'll move rooms," Hoseok said and Taehyung nodded.

"Talk to him," Taehyung mouthed before looking down at his laptop.

Then, his eyes widened as he looked down at the screen.

"There's.... an email?"

TO: (UNKNOWN SENDER)

SABVE MTWE RO EID

SENDER: 000

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A/N:

Vote and stream YET TO COME

I should place in the idea of Bangtan having 7 matching tattoos in this fanfic too-

And im sorry for hurting Jimin pls dont kill me lol