Ticci Toby X Suicidal! reader
*if you are feeling suicidal, please get help. And remember, you are loved!*
Your POV:
I've been hearing voices in my head for the past few months now. They've been telling me that I should end it and that I'm hated. I try not to listen to them but sometimes I believe them.
I've never harmed myself though. But today the voices were especially bad.
I look from the top of the stairs and see Toby talking to Clockwork. Did I mention I live in the Slender mansion? One of my powers is that my eyes change color depending on what mood I'm in. Blue for sad, yellow for happy, ect.
However, I've learned to change this when needed, or basically to hide my pain on the inside.
I make sure to change my eyes to yellow to make it seem as if I'm perfectly fine. As I'm walking down the stairs I noticed Clockwork is flirting with him, and he's acting as if he doesn't care at all.
After seeing this I turn around to go upstairs, meanwhile the voices in my head are going crazy.
See, he doesn't love you back. Otherwise he wouldn't let Clockwork flirt with him. And also; You should just end it, nobody would care. He especially wouldn't.
I walk back upstairs as calm as possible, holding back tears in my eyes.
Toby's POV:
I'm standing here talking to Clockwork while she's flirting with me. Doesn't she get it? I don't like her!
I'm just ignoring her flirting when I see y/n out of the corner of my eye, so I turn my head in her direction just a little so she doesn't notice.
She stopped when she seen me and Clockwork. Her eyes went from yellow to... Blue? Her eyes only change to blue when she's sad. Why would she be sad? Is it... No it can't be that. She turns around and walks back upstairs. I need to ask her.
"Hey, I h-have to use the bathroom. I'll be r-right back!" I lie.
"Ok! I'll be right here!" She responds and I head upstairs. Finally, I can leave without her following me like a lost puppy! Man she so gullible sometimes!
Clockworks POV:
"Hey, I h-have to use the bathroom. I'll be r-right back!" Toby says cheerfully. "Ok! I'll be right here!" I tell him. Since he's going to the bathroom I won't follow him. He then heads upstairs.
About a minute goes by before I realize something. Wait a minute, there is a bathroom right around the corner! Where is he going?!?!
I then head upstairs to find him.
Your POV:
I get back to my room and shut the door just before I break down crying, the voices are still going haywire in my head. I finally decide to do it.
Today is the day. I can't take this anymore. The voices are driving me crazy! Besides Toby probably likes Clockwork, if he's gonna let her flirt with him like that. So he wouldn't care if I killed myself!
I hear a knock on the door right as I grab the rope from the closet. I make myself as quiet as I can be while I tie a noose. I hear footsteps walk away as I sigh, quietly, with relief.
I stand on the end of my bed and hang the noose up and put it over my head.
This is it. Goodbye world. Goodbye life. Goodbye Toby.
Toby's POV:
I walk up and knock on y/n's door, only to be greeted by silence. Y/n I know your in there.
I walk away to make it seem like I was, well, walking away. But I silently walk back to y/n's door. I try to quietly turn the handle. Damn it! She locked it! I then walk back some and charged at the door. It easily broke and I was in y/n's room.
What I saw next shocked me and almost made me cry.
Y/n was standing at the end of her bed and had a noose wrapped around her neck.
She turned and seen me and started crying. She stepped off her bed.
Your POV:
Just as I finish my thought I hear my door bust open, as it was locked before. I turn to see that Toby was standing in my doorway, right by the broken door.
I start to cry again and I stepped off of my bed.
Toby's POV:
I lunge twords her as she steps off the bed, and I grab her just in time.
She struggles as I tighten my grip a little and hug her. "Let me go Toby!" She yells. "No!" I yell back as I take off the noose.
Your POV:
Just as I'm falling I'm suddenly grabbed in midair by Toby, who has a surprisingly strong grip on me.
"Let me go Toby!" I yell as I struggle to try to take my arms out from his hug. "No!" He shouts as he takes the noose off from around my neck and throws it on the floor, he was holding me with one arm in midair. Man, he's stronger than I thought!
I continue to struggle until I gave up. "P-promise not to try to h-hurt yourself?" Toby asks, almost seemingly worried. Could it be... No. Why would it be that?
"Toby, just let me go!" I respond loudly. "Not until you p-promise!"his voice sounding sweet and soothing "Uuuggghh! Fine I promise." He finally sets me down, now we're sitting on my bed. My eyes are orange with annoyance.
"Now t-tell me, why w-would you do that?" He's questions me with a shine on his eyes. Is he crying? "Because! Nobody likes me!" I burst into tears. "That's not t-true." He says sternly, but comfortingly. "And-an-an-and you like Clockwork. I saw her flirting with you earlier! And you did nothing about it!" I put my hands over my face and start crying harder. "Y-you like m-me y/n?" He asks. My crying slows down a little so I can talk "Yeah. I just never told you cus you would be with Clockwork all the time! And every time we did hang out it seemed like you just wanted to be friends." I say sniffling. "Y/n, l-look at me."he says softly, while lifting my chin. "I like y-you. Clockwork just d-doesn't get it through her m-mind that I don't like h-her. And she follows me e-everyw-where." "You like me too?" I ask. He wipes away my tears. "Of course I-I do." He leans in and kisses me. I Melt into the kiss along with him, then he pulls me into a hug and stokes my hair. "Everything is g-going to be fine y-y/n"
Clockworks POV:
I get upstairs and heard a loud bang. That might be Toby. I follow the sound then I hear this; "Let me go Toby!" That sounds like y/n. Wait, she said TOBY!
I quickly but quietly take off twords the sound of y/n's voice. "No!" That was Toby!!! If he is cheating I will KILL him!!!!!
It takes me a few minutes but I get to y/n's door and I stand next to it. "And-an-an-and you like Clockwork. I saw her flirting with you earlier! And you did nothing about it!" "Y-you like m-me y/n?" "Yeah. I just never told you cus you would be with Clockwork all the time! And every time we did hang out it seemed like you just wanted to be friends." This b****!
"Y/n, l-look at me." He better be telling her that he's taken and that she's been beat to it! "I like y-you. Clockwork just d-doesn't get it through her m-mind that I don't like h-her. And sh-she follows me e-everyw-where." I'm gonna kill her! He's mine and no one else's! She's got him under some sort of spell, i know it!
"You like me too?" "Of course I-I do." No you don't! You like me and you know it!
I peer in through the doorway and I see them making out! I stand back away from the doorway. "Everything is g-going to be fine y-y/n." Yes. Everything is going to be just fine!
Your POV:
"Everything is g-going to be fine y-y/n" Toby says and I hug him back. I open my eyes and freeze.
Toby must have noticed me stiffen up because he asks me,"w-what's wrong y/n?" He let's go and turns around and he too freezes.
My eyes have turned purple with fear.
Toby's POV:
Y/n stiffens up. "W-what's wrong y/n?" I ask her. I stop hugging her and turn around and I freeze up too.
There standing in the doorway with her two knives, is Clockwork.
"Clockwork, h-how long have y-you been th-there?" I ask. "Oh long enough. He he he he. And yes y/n, your right, everything is going to be juuust... FINE!" Clockwork lunges at y/n with her two knives. Y/n cowers down in fear behind me while I kick Clockwork in the stomach. She drops out of the air. "L-leave y/n a-alone! I-I d-don't like y-you and I w-wont! I love y/n! S-so leave us alone C-Clockwork!" I yelled as Clockwork stood up. "Toby, babe, your under a spell! You love me!" She pushes me down on the bed and starts to kiss me. I easily push her off me. "I'm n-not your b-babe! And I'm n-not under a sp-spell. I've a-always loved y/n. I-I've never l-loved you! Why d-don't you underst-stand that?!" I yell at her. "Fine," she points at y/n with one of her knives, "you will pay for stealing my man. Do you hear!" Y/n nods and cowers closer to me as I put arm around her. I glare at Clockwork as she leaves. After she walks down the hallway y/n buries her face into my chest and starts bawling her eyes out. "Shhhh. Its ok. I-I'll protect you y-y/n." She lifts her head up and says,"I love you Toby." "I love you t-too."
*A/N: man that was long! About 1750 words in the actual story! I know I already did a Toby one not long ago but I thought of this and decided to use Toby since he's my favorite and because clockwork is known to be clingy to Toby so it fit perfectly. Next one-shot will be E.J.! I (finally lol) have an idea for him and I have an idea for the one after E.J. (not telling you yet) and the one after that (still not telling you yet) so those should be out soon! <3
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