*A/n: this is a songfic of "Let Me Down Slowly" by Alec Benjamin. So I've been listening to this song a lot lately *cough* today *cough* and decided to do a one shot with it! It will be very sad because that's just the song and also cus I like writing sad stuff😂

WARNING!: Talk of self harm and suicide!

Narrator's POV:
Jeff sits in his room, windows and curtains closed, on his bed sobbing and drinking. Beer bottles surround his bed, where he's been for the past week drinking and crying himself to sleep at night. The door is locked, he's not gone out of his room nor let anyone in since he first locked himself in.

What did I do?

*Flashback*
(Start song)

This night is cold in the kingdom
I can feel you fade away

Y/n and I are out killing, I can feel her growing distant.

From the kitchen to the bathroom sink and
Your steps keep me awake

Y/n got out of bed and leaves the room, as she has been lately.

Don't cut me down, throw me out, leave me here to waste
I once was a man with dignity and grace

Y/n seems to be pushing me away.

Now I'm slipping through the cracks of your cold embrace

I can't even remember the last time we cuddled...

So please, please

Could you find a way to let me down slowly?
A little sympathy, I hope you can show me

Our relationship is crumbling

If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby let me down slowly

But she/he's my everything...

Let me down, down
Let me down, down
Let me down, let me down
Down, let me down, down
Let me down
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby let me down slowly

...she/he's my everything

Cold skin, drag my feet on the tile
As I'm walking down the corridor

I can't lose her/him!

And I know we haven't talked in a while
So I'm looking for an open door

I knock on Y/n's door. It opens.

Don't cut me down, throw me out, leave me here to waste
I once was a man with dignity and grace

"Hey Jeff" she/he smiles.

Now I'm slipping through the cracks of your cold embrace
So please, please

I take a deep breath...

"Could you find a way to let me down slowly?
A little sympathy, I hope you can show me"

Y/n's smile fades a little

"If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely"

Tears well in my eyes. They fall

"If you're leaving baby let me down slowly"

"Jeff, I'm sorry. I just don't have feelings for you anymore..."

Let me down, down
Let me down, down
Let me down, let me down
Down, let me down, down
Let me down

Crying, I look down and nod, then walk back to my room.

If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby let me down slowly

*End of Flashback*

And I can't stop myself from falling down
And I can't stop myself from falling down

I've been locked in here, drinking, for the past week...

And I can't stop myself from falling down
And I can't stop myself from falling down

I can't go on like this...

Could you find a way to let me down slowly
A little sympathy, I hope you can show me

I look at my trusty knife, next to my bed...

I grab it...

"I hope you can at least still be there for me"

If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby let me down slowly

I slash my arms and legs with it...

Let me down, down
Let me down, down
Let me down, let me down
Down, let me down, down
Let me down

I fall to the ground

If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely

I weakly open my eyes to see a balling Y/n above me.

If you're leaving baby let me down slowly

"J-Jeff... W-why?! Please don't go..." She/he whispers

"If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby let me down slowly"

"No, Jeff!"

*sobs*

"Jeff... why..."