cremate me in my silence
i'll be gone before you do.
this wildfire sand
burns me through and through. 
my mama's eyes are drooping
she knows that i know about
the cross over my head
and i still fell in love
with the butterflies
her long hair
blinded eyes
and love of life
gave me.

i am burning in
california wildfire sand
i am burnt alive by
the weight on my shoulders
i have smoke on my lips
and yet i still yearn
to love her.
i can't see the cross if
i close my eyes.
but this wildfire sand
has wiped my eyelids away.
and i am face to face
with everything
i can't love
but i would die
to hold her.