**WARNING: SUICIDE ATTEMPT**

Alex's POV

For the first time in a while I've found myself getting ready for school. The house is quiet. At this point in the morning I'd hear some form of music leaking into the hallway from Laurance's room. Light sneaking its way to be seen under the cracks of his door.

Now his door is shut, the darkest its ever been. It's quiet, and I'd do anything just for his music to play again. Even if I couldn't stand it.

There's a knock on my door, and Cadenza appears from the other side. She looks down at me with a saddened smile. It appears she's realized how lonely this morning has been without Laurance.

"Dad thinks it'd be a good idea to go to school early to try and calm down," she says, her hairbrush held tightly within her hand as she looks down at it. "I already arranged my morning times to satisfy that."

I only nod my head. It makes sense I suppose, but I don't favor the idea of going to school for the rest of the year. There isn't much left anyway.

She sighs and walks over to me, placing locks of my hair into her hand and gently brushing through them. I've felt hopeless for a little while now. I lost Laurance, and our family has shrunk in size.

I lay in bed at night for hours on end. My thoughts prevent me from sleeping. I've tried my hardest to ignore them the best that I can, but it's no use. My biological parents died due to a drink driver causing a car crash.

Laurance had the same fate.

Sometimes it makes me wonder if I'm doomed to the same thing. I'm the only one left.

In the orphanage I relied on him. He was there when I would fall to pick me back up again. I'd follow him around. It's funny to think of how shy he was. Even if he was terrified, he had to look brave for me.

I miss him greatly. I ask myself why it was him and not me. I was the one who should've died. The car was coming at my door. He saved me when he could've saved himself. I didn't warn him soon enough.

It happened quickly. The car came and I yelled out for Laurance. There was a click, and I've finally learned that that click was Laurance's seatbelt. He managed to unbuckle himself in order to throw himself in front of me to save me from harm's way. He sacrificed himself for me, and his sacrifice ended in his death.

In these moments I've found myself stopped in a car. I look out the window to see the school. I wonder if being here early was calming us down or to stall off the stares.

I manage to get out of the car by myself and hold tightly onto my backpack's straps. I look at Cadenza before walking inside to my locker. I can do this on my own. I need to learn how two.

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Mere hours into the school and I've found myself overwhelmed. There's so many apologies and glances my way. People I didn't even know come up to me and talk about my brother. It's always the same thing.

'Laurance was my best friend. We trusted each other with everything.' 'It's hard to believe he's gone. You must have it so hard right now.' 'Laurance was the greatest. I remember this one time we. . .'

It's never ending and overwhelming. Half these people didn't even know Laurance. They knew of Laurance and said what they thought I wanted to hear. Why did they think it was time for me to go back? Why did they think I was strong enough to go back to school. I'm pitied and treated like a child.

I feel like I'm drowning, and I can't get out. Everything is crashing down.

I see my friends by the lockers, talking amongst each other. I see Vylad, and my heart drops. I lock eyes with one of them. At this point I don't know who.

My head shakes as my eyes begin to dart around for some form of escape. I can't do this anymore. I can't just continue acting like everything is okay when it isn't.

I spot the stairs and begin to run towards them. It feels never ending before I find the last flight of stairs and rush up and onto the roof. People moved out of my way as I ran.

The air is fresh and clean. It's not crowded like the hallways. I look up at the sky to see it blue and clear. Laurance loved when it was sunny, but I always preferred the rain. He said why would you want to waste a sunny day when there's so much possibilities.

I find myself at the edge of the building, looking down.

Vylad's POV

There's tapping in my shoulder and I look over to see Y/N she's glancing at the staircases and points in that direction.

"Alex and I just looked eyes, but she dashed up the stairs," she tells me, looking a bit worried. I know her schedule, and she shouldn't have a class up there for her to be late for.

Garroth comes running down, others moving out of his way as he calls out for me. My heart drops when I see it's the same stairway. "V-Vylad," He stutters due to the lack of oxygen. "A-Alex is running to the stairs that lead up to the roof.

My eyes widen as I drop my backpack. "You let her continue to run?" I exclaim, panic filling my lungs as my feet take out, running up the two flights of stairs the fastest they could possibly go.

They can't lose her too. I can't lose her.

The door slams open from the palms of my hands. I see her standing there, inched away from the edge. "Alex!"