This is for FandomTrash257 as a rant because I need help and it don't send in messages..I've tried so hard to hide my feelings from him and everything, even myself, but it doesn't work. They always come back when I want them the least, whether that's when I'm alone in my room, or talking to my best friends. When they come back, I can't think straight, becoming focused entirely on how strange it all is, and then everything makes me think of him. Every tiny detail in everything- each note in a song, each bite of food that I eat, every step I take. It all reminds me of him, and what probably scares me the most is that I like it. I like thinking of him, the way his voice puts me at ease, the way I can misinterpret every look he gives me. Sometimes throughout the day I've found myself talking to him for no reason instead of working, or even just staring at him for extended amounts of time, waiting for him to notice and then looking away quickly. He's started to become basically an addiction to me, consuming my thought whenever I'm not with him, messing with the way I think, filling me with huge amounts of exhilaration whenever we're together