I turned my head to the side, resting on the pillow, as harry unpackaged all his supplies. My hands fisted the sheets, preparing for the pain. Harry took a deep breath before applying the stinging disinfectant to my cut area, and I squeezed my eyes shut. The sting carried on through my body, and tears whelmed in my eyes. I kept my head to the side, not looking down at what harry was doing, mostly because I couldn’t. harry whispered calming words to me as he wrapped up my side, and cleaned up all the supplies. I cautiously pulled the sheets back up and held them to me. I began to rethink what had happened, and I became afraid. What if this was considered a threat? I was aware some fans didn’t like me, but I knew a few did take a liking to me. I knew that if anything harry would do everything in his power to prevent what had happened to me, but it all happened too fast for any of us to see it coming. I sighed as harry walked back into the room and carefully crawled onto the bed, taking a seat beside me.

“is it hurting?” he asked taking my hand in his.

I nodded my head.

“I’m so sorry, Amy.” Harry said shaking his curls, then wiping them to the side as he always did. “this never should have happened to you, but I promise it’ll never happen again.”

“it wasn’t your fault.” My shaking voice said.

“I should have stopped them.”

His guilt was evident, I saw this coming. I knew he would blame himself, but in all honesty we both knew nothing could have been done, no one saw it coming. We didn’t even see who had done it to me, but even after all this happened, I still felt safe with harry. Maybe even more safe than I did before.

“you couldn’t have stopped them, harry. I didn’t even see who did it. It’s fine, I’m fine.” I weakly smiled.

Harry bent down and kissed my head, then going down to my nose.

“1-10, how badly down it hurt?”

“9” I truthfully answered.

Harry sighed again before getting up and stripping off into some joggers. I propped myself up onto my elbows, slowly making my way out of the bed to change. I held my breath as I slowly got onto my feet and walked over to my suitcase. I bent down slightly, and pain shot through my side.

“Harry?” I called.

He popped his head out of the bathroom.

“can you get my clothes out, please?” I asked.

He nodded and walked over, pulling out some tights and a t shirt for me to wear.

“thanks.” I said lowly.

harry got down to my level and pecked my lips quickly before walking back to the bathroom. I changed as fast as I could, which wasn’t fast at all, and made my way to the bed. I laid down and got comfortable, and my dog joined me. His fur was soft against my bare arms as he cuddled up to my side, paws coming over my chest. He laid with me until harry made his way out of the bathroom and onto the bed, yet again.

“are you hungry?” he asked, pushing some stray hairs behind my ear.

“kind of, are you?”

Harry nodded as a response.

“just call for a pizza or something, I don’t want you to leave me.” I almost begged.

Usually I wouldn’t mind if harry had gone to get food for the two of us, leaving me alone in the hotel room. But at a time like this I was nearly afraid to be here alone, especially after today.

“alright, plus alyssa should be here any minute now.”

I nodded and went back to petting my dog as harry called for a pizza. After about 5 minutes there was a knock at the door, a frantic knock. I was slightly confused as I looked over at the door. Harry walked over and opened it, and it wasn’t the pizza man. There stood alyssa, with her suitcase in hand, and a worried expression of her face. Walking past harry and straight to my bed side came the one that is, alyssa.

“oh sweetness.” She said as she kissed my cheek, then taking my hand in hers. “I was so worried, it was so bad are you okay now?”

“I’m good, liss, it’s okay.” I lightly giggled.

“let me see it.” She demanded. I nodded my head, pulling my shirt up.

“harry wrapped it up, but it’s pretty big.” I said.

Alyssa went to go pull the bandaging up.

“DON’T TOUCH IT” I practically screamed at her.

“it hurts that bad?” she asked, her head snapping to the side.

“it hurt’s really bad.” I confessed.

Alyssa shook her head. Her and harry shared the same amount of anxiety towards the situation.

“amy this isn’t good, you know that don’t you?”

I nodded my head, now picking at my nail polish as she spoke. The one thing about alyssa was that she had no shame in telling anyone the truth, and even with harry in the room right now, she wouldn’t hesitate to tell me about the dangers of this.

“this can’t be happening, why didn’t you bring a body guard?” she now asked, directing the question to harry.

“I didn’t think we’d ne-“

“YOU DIDN’T THINK YOU’D NEED ONE? ARE YOU SERIOUS HARRY?”

And there it was. She finally snapped. I could understand her feelings towards the situation because her knowing me for so long, it was a protective nature. She basically spoke the words I couldn’t say to myself. I sat in the middle of the two as they began to fight, but I knew I had to stop it now before it escalated to something far worse, and I was already aware of the guilt harry was carrying with him.

“guys don’t start right now.” I said bringing my hands to my hair.

“WE NEVER GO OUT WITH A BODY GUARD, I DIDN’T THINK WE WOULD NEED ONE TODAY.” Harry shouted back.

“and what are you doing going out to a PUBLIC place without a body guard harry? Do you realize who you are? Do you forget you’re in the world’s biggest body band?”

“either you two stop or I’m leaving.” I said shifting in the bed.

And that’s when the discussion was dropped, the air between the two was thick, and I was right in the middle of it. I was happy that we were leaving later on tonight and then we could all be a bit farther apart. Alyssa slipped off my bed side and walked to her suit case, getting a onsie out.

“I’m going to shower.” She said. I nodded at her and away she went, leaving harry and I in the room.

My mind lingered on the topic for a while, and I couldn’t say alyssa wasn’t right when she said how stupid it was to go without a body guard.

“amy.” Harry said as he came closer to me. My head turned to him and the guilt was evident, much too evident.

I reached both arms out to him, silently asking him to come to me. Harry crawled back onto the bed and into my arms, staying away from my sore area. His chin was placed on my chest, his green eyes staring up at me. I ran my fingers through his hair, knowing this would calm him.

“it was an accident, harry.”

He closed his eyes and shook his head, as if he couldn’t think of it as just an accident.

“we won’t talk about this any further, got it?”

“but amy we-“

“shut up.” I said shaking my head.

A small grin appeared of harry’s face, making one appear on mine also.

The time that we had spent in Canada was a very eventful one. And mostly one I was trying to forget. I had promised myself I would not be mourning over my father’s passing, but I would be feeling content. I refused to talk any further of the topic of my father from the day on his funeral on, and harry was well aware of that. And now that this had happened to me, there were 2 things my mind was pushing to the back of my mind, hoping I’d forget in the coming weeks. A knock at the door snapped me out of my thoughts, yet again. And harry dashed to get it, knowing it was the pizza.

“hey man!” harry said in a canadian accent, leaving me giggling on the bed.

Harry was quick to pay, desperate to get into the pizza box. Once he paid he ran to the bed, placing the medium sized box on the end, and opening it up. The smell of pizza quickly filled the air of our hotel room, not that I was complaining. Harry and I both grabbed a piece and ate quietly before alyssa came out of the bathroom. She placed her hand on harry’s shoulder.

“I’m sorry.” She said, then bringing her hand to ruffle his curls. Harry swallowed the pizza in his mouth, then smiled at her.

“it’s alright, grab a slice.” He motioned to the box. Alyssa grabbed her slice and came to sit by me, kissing my cheek again, and then taking a bite.

“so other than all that drama, how was the rest of the day?” she asked.

“I got a dress for the award show.” I said.

“DID YOU REALLY? ALREADY?” she shouted again. Being used to her out bursts I nodded and laughed as I finished off my pizza.

“can I see it?”

“not until the day.” I winked at her.

“amy, this isn’t a wedding.” She said shaking her head, causing a raspy laugh to escape harry’s lips.

“it’s just a surprise.” I pressed.

Alyssa shrugged her shoulders and continued eating her pizza with harry, as I got up and began to pack my bag for out flight later on.

**

We all walked out of the room, with our bags following behind us, after we checked them 3 times. Champ walked beside me as our group neared the elevator. Taking the familiar trip back down to the lobby and out the front was surprisingly quiet. No fans were around to crowd us, which I was thankful for.

All 3 of us slid into the back of a large car, as someone placed our bags in the back. Champ was sat on harry’s lap, and before we knew it we were on our way to the airport. I was happy to be leaving, and going back to my own house. living in that hotel for so long was really beginning to irritate me, so I had no complaints about leaving. Alyssa, harry, and I were talking all the way to the airport. This mostly consisted of Alyssa telling jokes and harry mimicking our accents. This took us right to the gates of the airport, and my heart was beginning to pound out of excitement. We were greeted by a worker, and shown to the back entrance as our bags were being taken care of, as was my dog. I got down and said my good byes to him, and made sure to assure him that I would see him soon. I was hoping he could understand, or I’d be making a fool of myself. Harry and I held hands as we made our way out, and onto the plane that would take us on a 8 hour journey.