AN:
The story has no end as it is about self-discovery and inner struggles. I hope you enjoyed the journey though I didn't deal with it in much depth this book indeed helped me in fighting my depression. So here's the end which I think will be sufficient.

Life does not end. We are immortals in a sense if we ignore the existence of flesh and bones.

So, let's talk about the green-eyed person. My foe and friend.
As you all know that the green has invaded my body and my heart and I was losing myself in so many places that my existence had gone to minimal.

But as the Chinese story goes that you all have listened that that wolf grows that we feed so I started feeding the other wolf. The wolf that was gentle and kind not the envious one.

There was this question that why I started seeing Envy? I think it was just something my mind has made so I could know how I was doing subconsciously. From the childhood, I had this deep wish to keep myself pure but I think, you can't remain as pure as you were born. Well, you have to accept yourself and then improvise because nothing is perfect.

It took me time but yeah, I fought the green envy and I won it in the end. There might be remnants of it in my blood and it might proliferate just like cancer but I think I would take guard to avoid such mishaps.

On the side note, I do get a relapse of depression but you know, as long as I can talk with others about it, I think I would be fine.

And lastly, I believe that inner strength is the most important as my Murshad says,"Only if you are stronger, then you can defeat the odds (devils, spirits, Envy)."

So I have decided to do my best to increase my strength, my Noor so that I have a wonderful soul and I could enjoy my immortal life in heaven.

Ameen