To begin from the end; to fall and then stand; to dive and then leap; from end to the new beginning

After encountering many dreams with wierd characters, I felt myself at loss. I was afraid to sleep. The night did not provide me with solace. It only gave me shivers. I discussed it with one of my relatives. I told him about how I came across this spirit in my dream and it drained the energy out of me. How I keep losing when I fight these spirits.

He replied that I had nothing to worry about. The spirits are just devilish energies and you keep losing because you don't have much noor.

When I met the Darwaish again, I told him that I don't want to fight with my nafs or devil. One, because I keep losing. Two, I don't want to fight because I want it to leave me alone.

He said," Do you think if you don't fight, it will leave you alone. No, he won't. The devil has promised himself that he will astray every human being until that every human is in pits of hell."

I told him that I was afraid.

He said," You have no choice but to fight him."

It was sad but the real truth that I lost so many fights with the devil and my nafs that it became hard to accept myself. Whenever I could not accept myself, I would ask for Allah's love, forgiveness, and blessing.

Allah's love will help me stand again and again.

No matter, how many times I fall, I vow to keep standing again and again.