No regrets!
Bakugo's POV:
I opened my eyes in agony. Everything was just a blur and it was painful to keep my eyes open. Not only could I barely see, but I couldn't feel much of my body. My body felt numb. It felt almost as though all of my senses were muffled.
What happened?
Where am I?
Why can't I see anything or move my body?
I tried to move my body but if something happened, I couldn't feel much of it. I tried once more and I started to get a bit more sensation back into my body but, still not a lot. Then, I felt a huge weight come off of my body. I looked up and could just make out something bright red.
Wait, is that Kiri?
Me: Ki-ri?
Ejiro: KAT! *sob* I am here kat! *sob* I am here for you!
Me: What ha-ppend?
Ejiro: You'll be fine. *sob* I am here for you *sob* You'll get better soon.
Me: Shhh, don't cry my beautiful angel. You don't deserve to feel sad.
Ejiro: I thought you *sob* you.. Kat... you were soo close on dying... You scared me soo much *sob* promise me not to do this again *sob* Please, don't leave me like that. *sob* I love you soo much, don't do this.
Me: I, I love you too. I promise you, I wasn't trying to hurt you. If anything I was trying to help you. You don't deserve someone broken like me. You deserve someone better.
Ejiro: I know you didn't mean *sob* to hurt me... but my dear Dandelion, I chose to be with you! It *sob* it was my choice to stay with you. You are perfect for me. I don't want something more.
My sight was starting to unblur and I was able to feel my body again. So, I went and hugged him. I needed him to feel comforted and safe.
Me: My dear shitty hair, you're wonderful, special, kind, as well as the first person who's ever given a shit about me.
Ejiro: I will always care for you. Don't you dare leave me behind! Never do this again. I will always care for you. Just don't.... Don't do this again.. *sniff*
I looked down at the floor sheepishly. I really wanted to tell him that I wouldn't. I really did. But it was just, too difficult of a promise to keep.
Me: I can't promise that. You know that.
Ejiro: You can! Kat, talk to me. I am here for you. Together we can get over whatever is hurting you and pushing you to do this.
Me: No, that's not possible shitty hair.
Ejiro: Why? I don't understand it. Please I want to understand it, please Kat explain it to me.
Me: I CAN'T! AND WHAT? YOU THINK YOU'RE THE FIRST PERSON WHO'S TRIED TO HELP ME?! I'VE BEEN LIKE THIS SINCE I WAS FUCKING SIX YEARS OLD! NOT A SINGLE GOD DAMN FUCKING PERSON CAN HELP WITH THIS SHIT!
At this point I was in tears. All sorts of emotions were coming out right now. They shouldn't have been directed towards him. He was just pushing me too far past my limits right now.
Ejiro: I... Kat, do you know that there was a time I thought like you...
Me: w-what?
Ejiro: You really think I've never been there? Asking myself why I am still here or why I am doing this? Why push myself to go on day for day for day when it's just fucking hard? You really think you are the only person that has these fucking problems?
Me: I- no but-
Ejiro: What but? I never hurt myself cause you know.. My quirk makes it impossible but I've been there more than once mentally. You really think I don't know shit about this?
Me: I'm so sorry. And I've probably only made things worse too. I should just go-
Ejiro: NO! STOP THINKING LIKE THIS! KAT YOU ARE THE BEST THING THAT HAPPENED TO MY FUCKING LIFE! If I were not that confident to be able to help you out or that I was about to leave you then I wouldn't have fucking saved your sorry ass Bakugo! I was here the past 3 days worrying and crying shitless until you woke up and you just don't have the damn guts to let me even try and help you. You know you are wrong. Whatever you are thinking right now, how about you look at reality and make sure you understand it first! Stop fucking daydrreaming for once and look at me, trust me Kat. All I am asking for ya is to tell me, to explain to me what is bothering you.
Me: Daydreaming? REALLY?! Is this all you think of me? Is this all anyone thinks of me? A hot headed, stupid ass, dumb person who can't do jack shit right?
Ejiro: No, what I see right now is a stupid Dandelion who doesn't value what he has. You have an amazing quirk, you are in UA, you are intelligent, beautiful and you have soo much more.
Me: OH FUCK MY QUIRK! I NEVER WANTED TO BE HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE!
Ejiro: ...You know what Kat. Do you really wanna go? You really want to end this shit and even leave me? Is this really what you want? Never even giving me a chance nor saying thank you for anything I've done so far? I tried my best *sob* I wanted to help you. I really love you, I never lied to you about that. NEVER! What about you... were you ever honest with me?
Me: Honest about what?
Ejiro: I see.... *sob* so it was me who was delusional the whole time...*sob*
Me: Delusional? About what? I'm so confused, Ej.
Ejiro: Your feelings Kat! I told you time over time again how much you mean to me without lying to you even once. I can gladly give you my life if this means anything to save you...
Me: Of course I love you! I do all of this FOR you! You deserve fucking better.
Ejiro: Stop talking shit! I told you, I don't want anyone else! Are my feelings not important to you?
Me: Of course they're important to me. How could they NOT be important to me? It's just that I think they're wrong.
Ejiro: If you think that way then why did you accept me?
Me: I- I don't know. I love you and I thought that it would possibly make me feel better. I also just didn't want to make you feel bad or hate me.
Ejiro: And did it make you feel better? Cause even if you would have rejected me, I would have accepted it and you know what, you are free to tell me if you think this is a mistake or not.
Me: I don't think it's a mistake. I'm very happy that we're together. I just don't understand why you fell in love with someone like me.
Ejiro: I kinda fell in love with the timid side of yours as well as the way you always act when you cook, the smile on your face and especially the times when you are honest with yourself and just be yourself. You know, there isn't anything I hate about you. It's hard to describe, am I being weird and not making sense?
Me: No, you're making sense.
Ejiro: Then I guess you have your answer now. Anything else you wanna know before I get you some breakfast? Oh by the way don't worry no one knows about what happened just me and you. I ahm.. I never asked for help from anyone and looked after you the whole time.
Me: Shit, really. I'm so sorry that I put you through all of this Kiri. Thanks for... everything.
Ejiro: Just... Just think about it... you know the answer for everything cause it's pretty obvious. Now tell me again, I can't help you out or don't understand you cause I do! And I can't stand you suffering on your own when I am here for you too.
Me: Ejiro listen, I've had to go through this all by myself for as long as I can remember. Whether people were involved or not they never actually helped and if I tried to get the wrong type of people involved they only made things worse. So although you're amazing, which you are. You really are. I don't trust people with this sort of shit. It's nothing against you personally. It's just that I don't feel comfortable with telling this to anybody regardless of who they are.
Ejiro: Do you trust me? I need to know this.
Me: I think I do. It's still just hard.
Ejiro: Then I don't care how long it will take you to understand me or open up or whatever. Just know that I am here for you and whenever you feel like doing that shit again,... please think about me... how I will feel. Cause seeing you drop like that... I felt as if my heart was gonna break. Then you not waking up for 3 days straight drove me crazy. I don't need a reason to love you Kat, cause I do and I wouldn't have gone through hell and back to get you back alive if I didn't.
Me: Then thanks... for everything. Now, you mentioned breakfast?
*Time skip brought to you by Ejiro never giving up on a cute lovable Dandelion*
It's been about three months since I had attempted to kill myself. Three months since I last did anything to harm myself. And three months since Ejiro and I started dating. Ever since the... incident... I've been doing a lot better.
He got me to finally see a therapist who's been helping a bit. Ejiro's been the biggest help though of course. Every night before bed he checks up on me and makes sure that I'm doing alright. He's honestly the sweetest person I've ever met. I'm so happy that he's mine. Hell, even the demons have left. And it's all thanks to this amazing and wonderful person that I'm lucky to call my boyfriend. I'm overjoyed with the fact that he is mine and that I finally let him into my life and let him love me. If I could do this all over again I would do it in a heartbeat.
~~END~~
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