Dwayne's pov:

"Morning baby!" Bati ko kay Rin na kakagising lang, he just turned two three days ago.

Ngumiti siya saakin at kinusot ng maliit niyang kamay ang mata, his face resembles mine nung bata pa ako. Wala siyang nakuhang kahit ano sa mukha ni Hanna.

He's a literal mini me.

"I want pancakes with banana, dada" sa edad niyang yan, hindi siya sinanay na mag baby talk ng mga kapatid ko kaya deretso siya mag salita.

Tumango ako at kinuha na ang mga ingredients para maka luto na ako ng breakfast niya.

Bago ako mag luto ay binigay ko na ang ipad niya sakanya para ma-entertain muna siya habang nag luluto ako.

I don't want to raise an ipad kid so he has an hour limit, one hour in the morning and one hour in the afternoon, that's it.

While i was frying pancakes i heard him laughing.

[ Look a this view in LA baby Rin ] i heard a voice.

"I want to go there too mama enish" sabi niya, sinilip ko siya at nakita ko na ka video call niya ngayon si ineish.

Nakita ako ni ineish sa screen kaya nag hi siya.

[ Kamusta ka na? ] I smirked, gusto ko siya asarin ngayong araw lang. Dahil alam ko na mahal niya pa din si Gab, she's just trying to cope up with everything that happened to them.

"Ok lang kami, ikaw? Kamusta puso?" Humalakhak siya at sinilip kung naka tingin si Rin bago niya tinaas ang middle finger.

Tumawa ako [ Natibok pa, ikaw? Masaya ka? ] She smirked making me frown, maling asarin siya. Nag back fire agad saakin.

Ang hirap talaga biruin ng babaeng to, masyadong madaming alam.

Pag tapos ng pag uusap nila ay nginitian ako ng anak ko "Dada i want mommy awish" hinaplos ko ang pisnge niya.

Hinalikan ko siya sa ulo "Let's call her so i can drop you there" sabi ko at kinuha ang cellphone ko para tawagan siya.

It took her a few minutes before answering.

[ Sorry, i was vomiting a while ago. What's up? ] punas niya sa labi niya habang nakatutok sa camera.

She looked like she just woke up, very pretty.

I forgot that she was three months pregnant.

Masaya ako nung nalaman ko yung balita kasi alam ko na magiging mabuti siyang ina. Kay Rin pa nga lang ay napaka buti na niya sa sariling anak niya pa kaya.

It's always been her dream to become a mom, but there's a part of me who's still mourns because it was hard for me to accept that i really lost her. But it was my fault. Everything is all my fault so i cannot complain.

At least the love of my life finally has the happiness that she deserves, wala na akong pake kung di ako masaya as long as she's happy, I'm good.

"Is it ok kung pumunta si Rin diyan?" Ngumiti siya ng malaki at tinapat kay  Nico ang camera "Sure, ok lang naman saamin" tango niya sa camera at ngumiti kaya naman nawala mata niya, he's wearing his white doctor coat.

Dahil may go signal na nila na pwede dun si Rin sa bahay nila ay agad ko na siyang pinaliguan at binibihisan.

We've been like this since he was born minsan kay ash minsan naman kila tine.

My friends and their girlfriends were very supportive nandiyan lang sila palagi everytime i need their help.

Sakto din na nag papunta si Rin kila Arish dahil may performance ang Hectic sa QC. Napilit ko si Gabriel sumama dahil hindi siya naka book ng same flight kay ineish.

I buckled Rin in his car seat at nag maneho na papunta kila Arish at Nico.

Knocking in their house made me feel things, i mean looking at their house made me so happy dahil ito yung interior design na pangarap niya. She reached her dreams and goal, without me.

I'm the toxic environment for a beautiful flower like her to grow in.

"Mommy awish!" Tili niya ng makita si Arish, lumawak ang ngiti niya sa labi at kinarga si Rin. Agad ko naman kinuha sakanya dahil bawal siya mag buhat ng mabigat

She pouted "You shouldn't carry him, he's getting heavy" Rin hugged her legs as we walked inside her house. I watched her figure, she doesn't have a bump yet, but she's still looking so fit.

"I baked some cookies, dwayne you should stay for a bit tikman mo" We sat in their dinning room as she prepared some cookies for me.

I smiled in my head, nothing changed. She still loves baking.

"Si Nico?" I asked, tumingin siya saakin at hinalikan sa pisnge si Rin "Pumasok na sa hospital" i nodded.

She smiled at Rin at inupo sa kandungan niya, while she was caressing his back i noticed something sparkling in her finger.

It's an expensive looking diamond ring.

She might've saw me staring at it. Arish smiled and held her hand up "I'm getting married!" She said using her cheery happy voice.

A part of me is really really happy for her, but something in me is dying. I wanted to cry, but i held it.

I smiled widely "Congratulations, Rish. You deserve it"

Binilisan ko nang kumain dahil ayokong maiyak sa harap niya "Are you ok? Do you want some water?" I shook my head and decided to go to my band play.

"I have to go, sunduin ko nalang si Rin mamaya" she smiled as she hold up Rin's hands raising it up "Bye bye daddy ingat!" She copied his voice making Rin laugh.

With heavy steps i made, i manage to enter my car.

I don't want my son to be like me, i hate me. I hate myself for making choices that will affect other people, i hate myself for making the wrong decision.

My son will never be like me. I will raise him to be a gentleman.

My eyes were red while i was driving towards QC.

I'm selfish for convincing myself that we still could've worked if I didn't leave her. 

I'm still in the past regretting everything, it's hard for me to walk forward because walking forward means that she's no longer there for me.

I'm happy that she's happy and i will not be selfish, i will endure the pain of seeing her marry the man who stood up for her.

That guy gave her more than i gave her before.

I gave her the world, while he gave her the universe.

When i arrived nakita ko na agad si Gab matamlay.

"What happened?" I asked him kasi this dude is always a ball of sunshine, he shook his head "Si ineish" i chuckled at napa isip na asarin siya.

"Kausap siya ni Rin kaninang umaga lang" his eyes widened "Tangina nung cloud na yun eh! Sana sa ulap nalang talaga siya lumagi" Alam na niya ata na nililigawan si ineish nung piloto na yun.

While Kean in the other hand is smiling while texting "Ano yan? Buang ka na!?" tanong si gab sakanya "Mga inggitera!" Sigaw niya as he stuck his tongue out.

He never mentioned that he was dating Tine, lagi silang mag kasama pero never niya sinabi saamin yung label nila kaya kami nalang nag assume na sila na nga.

While Jay is in the back busy practicing in his Drums.

His situation is same as Gab, malayo pa din si ash sakanya, pero nag uusap sila minsan sa Instagram. Si gab di kasi siya nirereplayan ni Ineish.

I shook my head when something popped in my head. Arish is getting married. That should have been me if i acted right.

We're ready to play and meet the crowd, the most request song we received is Ikaw lang by Nobita.

Gabriel started singing, lahat ata kami nakaka relate sa kantang to.

Tumingin ka sa 'king mga mata
At hindi mo na kailangan pang
Magtanong nang paulit-ulit
Ikaw lang ang iniibig

At kung 'di kumbinsido'y magtiwala ka
Hawakan ang puso't maniwala
Na ikaw lang ang s'yang inibig
Ikaw lang ang iibigin

I can't help, but to cry while i was strumming. She's the woman that encouraged and supported me to reach my dreams. She's the reason why I'm where i am right now.

I closed my eyes as tears started rolling down my cheek, i was feeling the strong rage of emotion while strumming my e guitar.

Ikaw lang indeed.

Pag ka tapos ng show kinukulit ako ni Gab na sumama saakin "Gusto mo lang tumambay kila Arish" he aggressively nodded.

"Uwi na kami guys" paalam ni Kean at Jay "Landi time ko na guys, bye!" Sigaw ni kean saaming dalawa.

Pinamukha pa talaga ni mokong saamin na may inuuwian siya.

"Tambay muna tayo dun, ganda ng bahay ni madam!" He slightly smiled.

Tumingin siya saakin habang naka titig lang sa guitara.

"Mahal mo pa ba si Arish?" I chuckled lightly "Plastic mo, tawa tawa ka! Don't lie to me bro, i can smell you. Mabango ka nga pero yung emotions mo mabaho" i chuckled.

I stopped chuckling "I won't lie, gab. I love her so much, i still love her. Nothing changed" i looked down and held my eyes so he wouldn't see that I'm crying already.

He tapped my shoulders "That's why you cried during performance kanina?" I nodded.

"They're talking about you all around na bro" he took out his phone and read thing.

User1234

Kapogi ni dwayne, kaso broken

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I heard broken hearted yan sa childhood sweetheart niya.

Hinablot ko ang phone niya I don't need unsolicited opinions from keyboard warriors on the internet.

"It's our fault, why we can't have them anymore" he whispered as he sat down the sofa.

Gab chuckled "We're such an asshole!" He closed his eyes "You know Dwayne, love isn't only about staying, letting go is also a definition of love"

I smiled, that's true. Love isn't always about staying.

"It's my fault" i smiled sadly "She's getting married" he also smiled sadly and crossed his stretched out long legs.

"I saw her ring this morning, her man is rich" he joked "I knew it, kaya ka umiyak dahil dun"

Tumayo siya at kinuha ang gitara saakin, he started strumming random shit.

"When you're crying, think about the days when she cried her heart out because of the things awful things you did to her, tanggal luha ka" He has a point, I don't deserve to cry, i don't deserve her love after everything she went through because of me.

"You're one of my best friend, but I'm telling you dwayne, you don't deserve her. Ineish and i saw the things you didn't. I'm so proud that she walked away from you kasi she went through a lot" i understand. I'm being selfish again.

After our talked we convoyed to pick up Rin.

Pag dating namin dun pinag buksan agad kami ng pinto ni Arish na hawak hawak ang kamay ni Rin, kumain siya ng donut. "Dada!" He screamed as he raised his hand up, i carried him and kissed his cheek.

"Hi baby, are you well behaved?" He chuckled and nodded.

Bumaba na si Gab sa kotse "GabGab!" Sigaw agad ni Rin ng makita si Gab.

Malaki ang ngiti nitong buhat si Rin "How are you buddy?!"

Naka pamewang si Arish sa pinto na nakitingin kay Gab "Aba naligaw si Famous singer sa bahay ko!" Ngumiti si Gab at binaba si Rin para mayakap si Arish.

"Namiss din kita, buntis" hinapas siya ni Arish sa braso "Ngayon ka lang naka alala porket mayaman mapapangasawa ko" he rolled his eyes, i chuckled because she's also hella rich.

"Eme mo kasing yaman mo lang din naman si Nico!" she laughed.

She caress her flat stomach "Ninong ka ah" he laughed and nodded tumingin siya saakin "Ninong ka din" i smiled sadly and nodded.

"Grabe, di mo man lang tinanong kung gusto ba namin. Naka desisyon na agad na ninong kami!" She laughed so hard, napaka saya niya "Ayaw mo ba gab? Sayang ninang pa naman si Ineish" his eyes glimmered and eyes clapped

"Gewww, ako na ang ninong! Sagot ko na din pamasko ng ninang niya" She rolled her eyes "Papayag din naman pala!"

Hinawakan niya ang tiyan at hinaplos haplos yun.

It's so selfish of me, but i wish i was the father.

She invited us inside to eat the beef brisket she cooked.

Umupo agad si Gab habang nilalaro si Rin na kumain na daw kaya makiki gulo nalang saamin "Niluto namin ni Rin yan dapat masarapan kayo" sabi niya habang nilalagyan ako ng madaming kanin sa plato.

Sumubo na agad si Gab "Masarap, 10/10 para saakin" she smiled at umupo siya sa upuan at hinele si Rin dahil medyo inaantok na.

"Ako lang to Gabriel!" We both laughed while Gab si frowning, "Asan pala si Nico?"

"Mamaya pa uuwi yun, busy sa ER ngayon" we both nodded

After finishing dinner binuhat ni Gab si Rin at hinele sa may pool area nila, kinakantahan niya si Rin habang nag hihilik ito sa bisig niya.

I was just standing in the sliding door nung tumabi si arish saakin "Daddy figure na si Gab ah" i smiled and nodded.

She looked at me  "Are you comfortable attending my wedding?" She asked softly, my heart is beating painfully.

I shrugged and looked down my shoes, i don't want her to see my face "Do you want me to?" She lift up my head to meet her gaze.

"Of course i want you to, you're a huge part of my life. You're my best friend, Dwayne." My eyes is starting to water so i just hugged her tight.

I closed my eyes tightly as i hugged her.

"I love you so much" i mouthed as i caressed her back.

She cut the hug and looked at me "I knew it. You're crying" she smiled sadly.

Arish smiled at me as she wiped my tears "Don't cry dwayne" i touched her hand that's wiping my tears.

"I'm sorry" i mumbled.

She shook her head and held my hand "You'll always be a part of me, i will never forget you. But now Nico owns my heart" i nodded, I understand.

"I will always love you" she nodded.

"I know" sabi niya at tinalikuran ako para puntahan si Gab at Rin.

Gusto ko mag sagada, i want to feel the cold breeze and the beautiful sunrise.

Pumasok na sila sa loob at napag desisyunan na mag kwentuhan "Hey, hon" sabi ni Nico at hinalikan sa labi ni Arish, agad naman ako nag iwas ng tingin. Hindi ko ata kaya na nandito ako.

"We'll go na Arish, Nico" sabi ko habang buhat buhat si Rin na tulog na sa bisig ni Gab.

Arish raised an eyebrow pero pumayag na din dahil eight na din naman na ng gabi.

Pinasok na ni Gab si Rin sa kotse kaya napag desisyunan ko na kausapin na siya sa trip ko ngayong gabi "Gusto mo adventure?" He smiled widely while nodding.

"Punta tayo sagada. Ngayon din." He cringed "Tarantado ka ba?" I shook my head.

"I'm dead serious" napahawak siya sa buhok niya "Gago ka pala eh! Sagot mo ba gas ko!?" I rolled my eyes, he's so oa.

Akala mo naman nag hihirap na siya eh napaka yaman ng mokong na to!  "Park mo nalang samin car mo, ako na mag ddrive para sayo" he squint his eyes.

"All paid expenses?" I groaned napaka kuripot talaga, i nodded.

He drove his car towards our house, i entered my house and brought some snacks, hoodie at iba pang gamit ni Rin, pinahiram ko na din si Gab ng hoodie.

He entered my car and i started driving.

Napaka swerte niya dahil atat na atat ako pumunta sa sagada.

"Bakit ba gusto mo pumunta ng sagada?" I shrugged "Ah alam ko na! Let go place mo noh?"

I sighed "If it is what's it called then go ahead call it that" I didn't look at him my eyes is stright.

He only nodded and closed his eyes.

My adrenaline was really high that we didn't go to any stop overs, tuloy tuloy lang ako mag drive. Hindi din naman nilang dalawa kailangan dahil buong byahe tulog sila pareho.

We arrived around Five in the morning in Mt. Kiltepan Viewpoint. I woke Gab up so he can see the breath taking view.

"Shit, this view!" Mangha niyang sabi. Bumaba agad siya ng kotse para suotan si Rin ng isa pang jacket dahil sobrang lamig.

Karga niya si Rin habang naakyat kami saglit ng bundok.

Hinayaan ko lang si Rin at Gab na mag laro sa mga damo.

This is such a breath taking view. I closed my eyes and let the cold air hit my face, It's really cold.

I was thinking of Arish while i was closing my eyes.

I love you, I'm not gonna get tired of saying that i love you, i said in my head while closing my eyes.

We did not make it to the end together, but I'm so happy that you found your happiness.

"I love you so much, arish" i whispered as i felt tears started rolling down my cheek.

I'll let the world heal me, kung hindi si Arish wag nalang.

Kung hindi siya wag nalang ako mag mahal ulit, I'd rather focus on my son and myself.

She's the love of my life.